Hits and Misses of SoyaBeanBoi..

2012-01-11T00:10:00.002+08:00

What happens.. when you keep thinking of a girl, that you're not supposed to think off ?

2011-09-16T11:35:00.002+08:00

Why is it I feel this way ?

When Z came in to office today, I told myself I should be myself, as per planned, try to go back to being normal friends, but when I tried to talk to her, she just chose to ignore me. Feeling wierd, I messaged her on our office chat, asking if shes ok, and she just replied two words :" i ok", making it super obvious she's not.

Only after checking it with Cat, then I realised that they were angry with me over this new girl, G. Honestly, I really have not even the slightest tinge of feeling towards G, and I treat her purely as a friend, cause inside, I still like Z a lot.. and when G asked yesterday if any of us had contact lens drop, I just tried to ask around like a friend.. I don't understand how it seems I'm super nice to her or not, at least I don't understand how HX, Z and Cat can actually think of it this way.

I find it damn sucky, because I hate it, I hate it when Z treats me this way, this nonchalent and heckcare attitude towards me. If I did something wrong to make her this angry about me, I get it. I deserve it. I totally do. But I did not do anything wrong, theres really nothing between me and G, I still like Z and think of Z all the time, and yet, because of this new girl G, suddenly it feels like I've made a grave mistake.

I really don't have a clue why they think that I'm being too friendly, but i guess its because of my track record. Its because in their minds, their perception of me is that I'm such a guy, that if a new girl comes in to my life or what, I will move on, and tackle the new girl. I admit, I'm guilty of this in the past, but that was history, and I actually tried my best to change for Z, I told myself to stop trying to know other girls, nor get closer to any other girls, and even when I go clubs, I don't even chat up girls, even if girls are near me and my guy frens, they can bear witness that I have never taken the initiative nor chance to even talk to these girls.

I know my track record sucks. I know that everyone has that kind of impression of me, that I'm the kind of guy that moves on too fast and don't seem secure enough, but I'm really trying my best to change that, I'm really doing all I can to change impressions of me, and yet, nothing seems to work that way.

I feel like shit inside. Really. Because I can't shake off my past history, and that even little thing I do is being scrutinized towards the bad side, taking it that I'm doing this to woo this girl, or doing that to woo that girl, and yet..no one remembers the rest of the good things that I did for this person. Even if the whole world misjudged me, I would still be ok, as long as that one person doesnt, because I thought by treating her in the nicest way I can, by doing things and buying things and talking to her and care for her, I would slowly show her that this is the true me. And yet, the disappointing factor is always that one person, that the one person never really remember what I've said or did for her, but only focus on a small issue which I did not think i overstep any line at all.. why cant they seem to remember that when they were the one that needed help, i did much more than I did for G yesterday ? When Ron needed contact lens lotion, I did the same thing I did for him as I did for G yest, when Z was sick, I would go down to get medicine for her, if not I would accompany her to the doc so that she doesnt feel bored, I even took half day for her to go all the way to CCK to her place to bring her to go see doc cause I tot it was very serious and was worried about her going to the doc alone. Where do all the memories of these go to ?

Why do i feel like crying so much ?

Why does it hurt to be misunderstood ?

Why do i feel hurt when i'm just invisible to her......

2011-09-05T22:19:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Something happened last week.

Kind of felt very disappointed at Cat and Z. So I kind of gave them the attitude and ignored them for the whole week. When Friday came, I tink Z kind of got pissed, and we kind of had this quarrel thru sms. Honestly, I was very pissed when quarrelling with her, but I let my emotions get the better of me. During the quarrel, there were so many times I actually wanted to sms back and tell her sorry and not to be angry at me, but I did not want to give in, because I felt so neglected.. The very fact that even though I was emo-ing and not being myself, and yet both of them did not bother till Friday, made me feel even worse.

I went to meet them at Dragonfly to give my boss a treat. And yet, the both of us pretended that everything was alright. I was glad it did not affect her, but at the same time, I guess with the quarrel, my emotions came out as well. I felt super sad and bottled up. I drank like mad. I smoked like mad. To make it worse, thinking I'll make her jealous, I actually tried to chat up Ivy's friend and got her no. But Z did not even bother. I guess that's when I kind of crumbled and drank way over my limit. On the cab back, I got drunk, and ended up having both of them sent me home. The ride back was bad, cause I really said a lot of stuff that bothered me a lot, and I even cried, but it was all the stuff that was bottled up inside all this while. When I woke up the next morning, I felt super bad.

After this incident, I realised that I haven't moved on any further at all. I know I can't like her, because I know she still likes Her, and I really tried to move on, but I guess this drunk incident got me realising that I haven't moved at all, and suddenly seeing her so down bcos of Her, I softened up and actually tried getting close to her. But, ultimately, I know I stand no chance of being near her at all. Because inside, the one that still holds the key to her heart is Her, and at the same pt of time, I'm not even the type of guy that can stir her heart one bit.

Its back to the drawing board, its time I started remembering what I promised myself that I should do, and really disappear this time round....

I really really need to let go for good.... at least for her good... at least so as not to spoil the frenship that she has with me..

Really really realy... let go....

2011-08-10T19:18:00.002+08:00

Feels wierd that I'm starting to blog again. Wonder why I started this habit anyway. Just felt the need to write things out and hopefully things will get better ?

After that day, when she actually took the initiative to talk to me but I pissed her off, I guess things just kind of went downwards. I'm not exactly sure why, but I pretty much can guess now that she doesn't like me. Or rather, she won't ever have feelings for me. Guess I'm really not her type of guy. Or rather, if she actually went straight again, I guess I would never be on that list of "bf material".

I accidentally (okay, i actually googled it and found it) found her blog and cherr's old blog too. I read thru the entries.. Seems like although they had a bit of bitterness at the very end, their whole r/s still was pretty sweet.. it stopped in year 2009, but I guess the way she calls Cherr baby and all, just makes me feel sweet for them, and at the same time, sad for myself, cause it kind of reminded me that she was still lesbian, and the fact that she liked Zp and ZZ b4 prob meant that she might become straight if the right guy comes along, and apparently, despite me being around, I guess I'm just not that guy she's looking at.

I saw the photos too. She still looks cute when she was younger, but with curly hair and all. Cherr looks more kiddish back then, but I guess shes grown a bit skinnier and a lot more mature since then.

Wonder why its so hard for me to let go this time round. Maybe its because I had this crazy idea that if i treated her nice, I might actually be able to change her perception about me. Or is it just that everytime she smiles, I'm actually quite smitten. Whatever it is, I guess instead of doing better, my recent "temper" and attitude probably got the worse of me. She's not really replying my messages anymore, and I guess this is it.

I know I should start to move on. But I'm tired. I'm tired of trying to prove to others what I can be and cannot be, or try to correct my image in front of others. I'm tired of being this clown and joker, and yet, no one really seems to take me seriously either.

It's really time to stop partying and stop trying to look as if I'm enjoying life, and perhaps mellow down. I'm not young anymore. Health is really going down the drain, but I doubt she would even care.

Wonder why I'm being like this to myself. It seems that this time round, its not just about moving on. I guess I really really need to stop falling in love anymore. Because after every time, although I'm getting closer to what I really really want as a life partner, the hurt just keeps mounting up, and I guess my heart's not young anymore to take all this nonsense.

Damn it. I really need to escape..

2011-08-09T13:17:00.002+08:00

Hi..

I'm blogging again, because I have no one to talk to, or rather I feel sickening telling others how I feel all the time because I feel like some useless bum that can't control my emotions and constantly need to rant. Its not fair for others to always hear me rant even though the problem just doesn't seem to go away, thus the reason why I am blogging now. Hopefully "writing" it out can at least take my mind of some matters..

Why do I feel so crappy ? I can't seem to shake off the feeling that Zoe and Zhipeng could still be chatting, or that Zoe might be abit attracted to Zhipeng, since that night she was so "close" to him even though she barely knew him for 2 hours. It feels as though no matter how much I do, her feelings just aint directed to me at all, and I doubt it would ever be.

I'm not angry at either of them at all anymore. Feels as though I'm childish to even be angry in the first place. I should know better. And I've clarified things with both of them.

I'm finding so much excuses to stop myself from liking her, because I can't help but feel useless about myself. Why can't I do more when I know I can ? Why is there always this barrier when it comes to her, that I will feel she will like someone else or prefer someone else, and that she's probably treating me nice only because she don't want to spoil this friendship as well ?

I hate the fact I'm such an insecure person, someone without any sense of confidence at all. Maybe its because I've been hurt by so many, and betrayed by so many.. maybe its because theres something in my heart that hasnt been filled or repaired yet. I can't seem to like anyone without feeling this insecure at all.

My dad is a good example even though I dislike him. Because of his insecurity, he took it out on mum and constantly suspected her and all. I don't want to end up like him, and I think I should find ways to cure myself. At least before I throw myself into someone else or something.

I know I like her, but I guess I'm just not the one for her. Time for me to actually start believing that and move on and be a happier person.

Fireworks tonight... have you ever wondered, why fireworks may seem so nice and near, and yet you know they are actually far far away from your touch ?

2011-08-07T08:16:00.002+08:00

After yesterday, I guess enough is enough. I'm really quite sick and tired of myself being like that, and every time I see or learn new stuff that hurts me. Really painfully hurt.

All this while, I felt sad because I knew I wasn't able to do anything because the person in her heart was Hx. It felt bad cause as long as Hx was around, things would always feel.. different. It was a barrier I wasn't able to penetrate, and at the same point of time, if she did ask me out, it was to do things that Hx did not like to do, such as watching super hero or cartoon movies, or eating ice cream waffles. I was the spare tyre, the "best friend to ask out when your bf/gf is busy", and the dumb ass who thought I would actually stand 2nd place in her heart for everything I would do for her. Previously there was Zz, and her liking Zz made me feel that I wasn't good enough, or that I was probably lacking in a lot as compared to Zz for her to like Zz, and I actually told myself to be a bit more persistent and try and see how things go. Look where it got me.

Yesterday, after her exams, everything was still pretty ok when we met up, but once we hit the clubs, Z stuck to Zhipeng non-stop. Even during the finger-guessing game, she started getting very close to Zhipeng, and would dance beside him. I think the straw came when she wanted to get alcohol, and her ticket was with me, and yet Zhipeng was the one who came and ask me to order for her. Why is it suddenly I'm the one who seems to be the least close to her, and with Zhipeng being super close to her ? I felt pissed. I felt heated. I was angry at them both, even though I know I shouldn't be, but inside hurt too much. I went downstairs to call Aaron and talk it out cause I was suffocating in the club, but Ron asked me back in. Yet, when I went back in, I realised the 2 of them had gone to the dance floor themselves. I did not even bother going to the dance floor to look for them. I guess it was a wrong move. I should have. Perhaps if I did, I might have seen "other stuff" happen. Anyway they came back, and I guess everyone sensed me being upset. And they all tried to get wild and high to dance it out and maintain the clubbing mood.

Everything was still quite okay till this point, but as usual, it was pretty obvious she was closer to him. Instead of asking me to buy drinks for her, she got him to do so. She shared his beer instead. She stuck to him and talked and laughed with him. In the end, the final straw came when they went back to the dance floor. I stayed out first to wait for my sis and Cat. But when I finally entered the dance floor, what I saw was that Ron was dancing with Iris in one corner, while Zoe was dancing with Zhipeng in another, plus she was putting her arms on his shoulders or chest.

I know this is a blog, but trust me, that scene is still stuck in my head at this very moment, it has been flashing on my mind since it happened, and the pain is real. My heart felt the pain, I guess it would be graphic for me to say that it really did crack. I tried to cry but I just could not. The tears won't come out, and yet inside, everything was pouring and breaking down. I'm really not sure why, but I guess this always happens to me. It happened when Josh started getting much closer to Regina, it happened when I had this silly crush on Elizabeth, and yet she liked Kev, it happened when Livone started talking to me less and hanging out with Simon more, and its happening once again right here right now to Z and Zhipeng.

I told myself when I cried myself to sleep last night, that I would never ever think of her and or ever treat her nice ever again. I can't continue with this pain anymore. It hurts. Really. Its real for me. I've never felt this much pain for such a long time. The last time I felt pain was when Livone actually ended everything with me, but even that was nothing compared to how I felt when I saw Z putting her arms on Zhipeng's chest or shoulders and dancing away. I felt the same amount of pain and the feeling of emptiness and helplessness when I found out Sabrina had been dating Ken behind my back, and now, its the same for Z.

Why? Why is it everytime I like someone, things start to go downhill, I end up making things worse then it was before, and part of me shatters with this liking for Z. Honestly, I really liked Z, not because I was close to her only, but because at least I thought she was different from any of the other girls I liked, at least I thought she knew or understood me and could link up with me well. I guess it ain't that case. In the past, I kept thinking about all those times we were closer than usual, and I miss those times, but now, I guess the scene I saw with my very own eyes has left such an impression that I'll never be able to shake it off anymore.

I'm sad. I'm crying. And it hurts. But, I don't have the courage to do anything anymore.

I should really disappear...

2011-07-18T22:21:00.003+08:00

Hi. Its been uber long since I last blogged. I know. I've been awesomely lazy too, and I actually thought I'll never ever blog again, but, hey, here I am.

Frankly, I never thought I would ever resort to blogging again, but this time round, its because I just feel super shitty inside, and I've got no one to tell. Its a form of ranting again, and yet I've no one to rant to.

I hate myself for being like that. I tried. I tried to tell myself to face the truth, to see that the one she loves is Cherr, not me, that the one she was always happier with was Cherr, that I should let go and tell myself to move on, and yet, this whole moving on, its freaking hard because I see her everyday. It hurts like hell when I see the 2 of them stuck to each other and whispering to each other, because inside I feel awful, although I know shes happy this way, I feel awful inside to myself. It hurts even more when even though I'm around, as long as Cherr is around, I'm the invisible person to her. I don't even matter.

I watched a korean show yesterday. It was supposed to be a comedy. But the last scene was really sad. And I cried. I cried not only because of the show, I just felt like crying. Felt as if i bottled up for way too long and I just let go of the flood gates. I know, I'm a guy, I shouldn't be that much of a softie, but I did it anyway. And I felt like shit after that.

She probably doesn't know why I'm being like this, I doubt she even cares. In her eyes, I'm just a guy that moves on very fast and that there's no security with me. At least thats what she told Cat. But, she missed out the biggest detail, that the fact that she will never like me is because she has someone else in her heart, and its not Mr ZZ, its actually the girl no one ever suspected, her ex gf Cherr, whom is also her good friend. And everyone doesn't know why I keep saying that its impossible too, because they don't know that Cherr is the one in her heart, and that no matter what I do, I don't even believe I stand a chance against Cherr, against this person that has known her for 7 yrs and been with her for 3 to 5 years of relationship. And yet, everyday at office, I got to pretend I'm okay even though it hurts. It gets worse when I have to be alone with the 2 of them alone. Haiz.

I'm a dumb ass. Really. I know every one else has told me to move on, but I don't know why I can't seem to stop thinking about her. I wish I could have ice cream to make myself better, but this cough is killing me.

I hate this. Damn it.

2010-04-26T20:47:00.002+08:00

Went out with Peiyi yesterday to Katong to eat at this place called "Everything with Fries". The food was okay, the portion however was really filling, but the desserts were ULTRA NICE ! Haha I guess its a nice place to have a good meal, and prices are quite reasonable for restaurant-style food.

Talked to Ms Wee about all the unhappiness. I guess you could say after the chat, I'm not pissed off or disappointed at them anymore. I'm actually quite disappointed in myself. She hinted a point to me and I felt that it was right, that the reason why QP probably treated me so cold and start distancing herself away from me was because she wanted to draw a clear line, and made sure that she doesn't give me the wrong impression. And when I think about that, I kind of realised that everything that has happened to date could be also due to this very same point. It kind of dawned on me that everything that has happened, or is happening, how this friendship has changed, is kind of because I was the one who made this change, because I started liking her, and she started distancing herself, and as time past, the clique itself started changing as well. This is probably one of the biggest reasons why we should or will never be together, other than the fact that she doesn't have feelings for me at all. I used to think the idea of thinking about how "the friendship will change because of a failed relationship" is dumb, because its as if you're giving up even before you try, but ironically, I've been proven wrong and bitten harshly in the sense that the friendship has already changed even though there WASN'T any relationship to even begin with.

I took the whole night and the whole of today to think things through, and it reminds me of my past relationships, how I've never ever thought that liking someone or caring more for someone actually ends up being backfired, and having everything change. Its dumb, but I guess its just me. I just don't know how to handle such stuff anymore, or to be more precise, I NEVER really knew how to handle and care for someone ever. Its not her fault, nor their fault that things turn out this way, I guess the irreplaceable truth is that its just me. That I caused this change and thus end up feeling angry when I'm the one in the wrong.

Its hard to let go of something you always kind of wanted or even dream of at times, but I guess its for the better of everyone that I let go now, rather than the situation getting worse. Never expected an outcome like that, but I guess this was the way it should have been all this while, that I should have given up a long time ago, but yet I chose to cover my eyes to everything. I guess my thinking couldn't have been more childish in thinking that everything could work and things should always be given a try.

Its time to wake up. Really.

Time to realise that everytime I like someone things only get worse.

Time to stop wishing that I'll find one that cares and understands, when the truth is no one truly understands or cares that much for me.

And lastly,

Time to grow up..

2010-04-25T00:11:00.002+08:00

Why is it I'm feeling the way that I feel now ? I took the 2 bloody hours to think it through, and I realised that I keep coming to the same conclusion, that no matter which incident it will be or had been, there will always be a valid reason, but when I try thinking about incidents or events that made me feel that effort was presented, I couldn't think of any. Every event or incident usually happens because we as the guys request or voice out for something, and thinking back, I really don't know when everything started out. Makes me feel that

I guess this whole anger thing, this whole feeling of "not even in the list of priorities or good friends" started 2 years ago in a silly Birthday celebration, gift, and most significantly, the card. Ever since then, this crazy idea of us never being respected or seen with any importance stuck on to me like a virus in a com. Every event seemed to be with a motive, if it was watching a movie it would solely be just watching a movie. After that, if it was getting late then they would just go. It never dawned to anyone that the event could have been better if there was some catching up or even some lame talking or a short drink session. When it was a birthday why is it always that only that particular person was in charged of everything, be it the gift or the plan ? Why was it that with other friends who weren't that close everyone would do their part to plan, and yet when it came down to them, every year, it was only that one particular person planning and asking me, or if it was his birthday it would then be up to me ? I remember last year no matter how long they took to plan the holiday we waited and tried our best to rush things to make things work. And yet, this year, I felt that we weren't even included in the plan, that they did not even consider asking or trying to plan out with us, and made every decision before telling us the final verdict and ask if we would want to join them. Even during their graduation, she had to lose her cool and got frustrated when actually she was the one who was late which was why she had to rush herself. There wasn't any surprise feeling of us being there, nor the fact that she really felt thankful that we were there for her graduation. I think even Peiyi felt grateful despite the fact that she already knew we came.

Maybe this is what I was afraid of, that it was always just "them and us", and not "us" as one big clique anymore.

From time to time, I will take out the birthday card and look at it. It constantly reminded me of what this friendship might be or could turn out to be. This incident probably left the deepest impression of "friendship" in my life, and I know TC has constantly mentioned that I'm forever digging out this particular past to grimace about, but the truth is, if it happened to anyone, they would never be able to shake off this incident at all. I asked a lot of my good friends about this incident, and they all agreed that if it did happen to them, if the friends whom they treated closest to them gave them such an empty birthday card for their birthday, they would have reacted and felt the same way I do now, nor will they ever be able to forget nor forgive such an incident. So why is it I can be so shameless and close off everything ? Why is it everytime when I'm upset I close myself up and keep it within me, and yet when they needed me the most I try to be there for them and encourage them. And yet, to them, I'm always just "emo-ing", and they never really bothered to actually try to understand why or what was happening.

I've really tried to brush it off. To ignore and forget. But this incident totally jerk me up and made me realised a lot of things. It wasn't their fault at all for this incident. But it just made me think back about all the other incidents and I've decided that I'll move on from here on.

Time to wake up my ideas and dreams.

Conclusion is, this clique right from the start was always and have always only been the "3-person" clique, and that me or TC, we were just normal friends to this clique...

2010-03-21T03:09:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Maybe I thought too much about too many things. A movie was okay, dinner was fine, even chilling was good, but I guess that's all there is to it. I know I've no right to be unhappy or angry or even jealous, but I can't help it. So dumb. Haiz. Got to get my act together and make sure I know what I'm doing, if not things will just get worse from here.

I used to think I'll be okay, that I can handle whatever happens, now I know truly, I can't, and I got to make sure I know it will and must never happen.

This feeling sucks.

2010-03-03T23:26:00.002+08:00

Hey !

The past 2 weeks had a lot of changes, and a lot of my friends are suddenly now single. Not that its a bad thing. I guess it could be a good change in their lives, leaving the unhappiness behind.

Anyway, just to update, the girl that I had just met in my previous post is finally over ! Haha I kind of understood what kind of girl she is and how it will never happen for either of us, so I decided to just fade away. She's probably too busy and cooked up in her own work life to notice me missing anyway.

Recently, office has been getting a bit tiring for my liking. Maybe I'm a bit sick of office itself, or even work itself. Its one of those i'm-so-sick-of-this-job-and-my-worklife moods, and I got to shrug it off soon, otherwise it will really get to me and I'll seriously start slacking off at work. Haha.

Found 2 new buddies in office. Except one seems to be close and yet at the same time distant, with me never being able to guess what's on her mind, while the other is somewhat unexpected, but yet at the same time seems to understand what I'm thinking all the time. Wierd right ? The second one would be Julia, and although we hardly chat before, it seems everytime I share with her my happenings or my unhappiness in certain stuff she's able to understand and catch it well. She's someone that I find very strong willed in life, and never seems to be able to be taken down by anything in the world, no matter how serious the problem may be. Best part is, she's always looking out for me, which is why I'm feeling thankful to her as well. As for the first... well, I don't feel like talking about her.

Anyway Julia send me a link asking me to read, http://www.thefrisky.com/post/246-girl-talk-ending-a-fakelationship/ .

Honestly, its a girl's article, but after reading it, I kind of understand what it means because more often than not, this situation always happens. Guy and girl are friends, super close, talk everyday and chat everyday, but one party has a bf/gf already, and it ends up that although the attached one in this "friendship" does not feel as linked to her bf/gf and feels closer to her other friends, he or her relationship does not end, and the "friend" will forever be stuck there not knowing if there is even love in this "friendship" or if he or she is just another spare tyre there to always be a listening ear and emotional buddy. I guess it happened to me for a few times already, but mine has never been gotten to the stage whereby I feel so stuck in life, but I've seen it happen to other friends, and it gets seriously saddening sometimes. It kind of relates to some of them and their past experiences, so I just thought of sharing this article and its link here.

Anyway, feeling down about a lot of things for too long is seriously killing me. I guess its time I started letting go of a lot of unneccessary stuff and just grow up my childish thinking.

Hopefully I'll find the determination to slowly change myself for the better..

2010-02-16T01:37:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Sorry for not blogging for such a long time. I've been busy. And lazy. Well basically both busy and lately. Haha.

Anyway the reason why I'm blogging tonight is because I'm feeling down. I just found out something and although I kind of expected it, I still can't contain the disappointment enough. I guess I have been acting all over my head recently. I know myself, I don't have a proper education nor a good career, and in the past more often than not, it has been one major reason that I used to stop myself from falling in love. I just got over a very very long crush on someone really special in my life, and during this whole crush, other than the fact that she probably treats me like one of her good friends in life all this while, one other factor that I've constantly reminded myself of is that I have neither a good career nor even a proper degree to my name, and I would never allow myself to actually be in a r/s cause in my current situation, I would never be able to give happiness to any girl at all. And yet, after forcing myself to move out of this super long crush, I met another girl, and just as I thought she's a nice girl, and actually think I could make things work probably in the future, God brings me back to Earth and lets me find out that to her career and education is something she minds in a boyfriend. I guess I totally forgot about that. Haha.

Its sad that I'm feeling low and yet I force myself to laugh, but I guess this is my life. This is something that I accepted about myself since a long time back, and I guess I should never forget about it.

People say that its okay, that I'll will still be able to study and get a good career in the future. But maybe that's why its wierd, because I was never the type of guy who actually planned for the future too much. I always took a step at a time, and it always worked for me somehow. Haha guess this is probably just one of the many set-backs to come in my way of life.

Anyway I'll just emo through tonight, and brace myself up tomorrow morning. Things always get better, or at least I'll pretend that I believe in that and move on.

If I have to create a word to call a person that smiles despite him being sad and troubled all the time, the word would be "ME"...

2009-12-22T23:09:00.002+08:00

Hey.

I'll start by apologising first, I know I have not blogged for the longest time ever, my bad. The lazy "other" me (actually that's like the real me most of the time, the me blogging is the rare case of hardworkingness me) refuse to let me pen down or rather, type out, the thoughts I have.

I wanted to blog since the longest of times, about the planning of the Taiwan trip, about the trip itself, how I was feeling daily in Taiwan, what we did, who we met, what we ate, what we saw etc etc, but every single time I log in to see this empty white box in front of me to type my thoughts, my mind go blank. As blank as a white piece of paper. And I end up doing other stuff, like playing games, surfing facebook, chatting on MSN etc. Haha.

Anyway I was listening to music, and Lilian, one of my leaders and superiors at work(Yes, Ong Meiling, its you ! That's right ! Sister of pretty girl Ong Ru-Er ! Haha), sent me the link of Jay Zhou's mtv for the song 蒲公英的约定. Listening to the song made me think of many things. Haha. Of everything that has passed. So along the way I kind of felt an urge to write, hence me writing here now. Haha.

Time really passes so fast. Last year's Christmas seems like it was only yesterday when it happened. I even remember how I spent and prepared the gifts for last year's Christmas. Can't believe its Christmas once again. Soon the year of 2009 will end. This year is probably a better year compared to last year, a lot of changes in my life, a lot of changes in my friends, a lot of changes at work etc. I shall leave the commerating and wishing for next year till the end of the year's blog entry, but in this entry I shall talk about Christmas solely.

Christmas every year brings back good and fond memories. I remember a lot of stuff about Christmas, how I spent some Christmas, and how nice it was. Gone are the old days of having a Christmas tree at home, but still at home we practise giving everyone a gift or so. I guess I have to be thankful that everyone at home is young at heart enough to still practise giving of gifts, I'm damn sure some other families might not practise this, but I'm thankful and glad enough that mine still does.

Okay, my mind's a blank again. I'm not sure what to say anymore. I'll end by wishing that this year's Christmas will have nice memories as well, and to wish all my friends Merry Christmas !

2009-11-01T20:52:00.004+08:00

Hey !

Anyway yesterday was Halloween ! Woke up in the morning to go for work, which is still pretty much the same, except there's a bit more disappointment and something new as well. After that I went to meet Ming Hui, Aaron, Shi Min, Ben and Dudley to watch Michael Jackson's Movie "This is it". Basically the whole movie is made up of footage of the rehearsals that Michael Jackson had for the concert "This is It" before he passed away. Basically you would see the most of the songs and him performing them, which is something like a concert format. What is unique though, was that they also showed the way he expressed himself during the rehearsals, the childishness, the abstract way he feels towards his own performances, even the way he gets involved in every single detail of his performance preperation, arranging and making sure of everything such as the music keys, the dance steps, the dancers etc etc. I guess you could see the motivated and driven him, and though he was eccentric in the way he expressed himself, I guess you could also say that usually the best humans in the world are more often than never born eccentric. MJ was that person.

After the movie, we made our way to Clarke Quay's Burger King Grill Bar, which is a new marketing idea of Burger King. Basically they sell two or more different burgers compared to other normal Burger King outlets, and you get to order beer with your meal as well. Plus something to note would be the burger that actually allows you to create your own burger, how many patties, how much lettuce, whether you want cheese or not etc. I guess this is something that MacDonald's and KFC have yet to come up with. Anyway the burger is delicious, but humongous (I ordered this burger called XXL Grill Burger, which is about the same size of a Carl's Junior Burger). After dinner, we made our way to Double O for our clubbing night.

This is my first time actually spending Halloween at a club, so I did not actually dress up, but you can find all sorts of wierd dress ups in the club itself, such as nurses, doctors, school girls, monsters and ghost etc. There were 2 particular ones which actually caught our eyes, a Taoist Priest, and a Cookie Monster ! Hahah anyway the clubbing night was great ! We all had a lot to drink, and everyone was there ! There was the marist guys, Ben, Dudley, Aaron, Ming Hui, Myself and even the rare Josh ! Adam was also there, with this headdress from Iraq. Haha. My poly girls Chiew Peng, Peiyi and Grace was there as well, while Dudley had his uni frens come as well, such as Michelle, Dud's girlfriend Sabrina, Andrew, etc. I guess we all had a lot of fun, especially when it was upstairs. The sad part was that the aircon was probably down, so the dance floor was crazily warm ! Miss Lim kept complaining of it being warm, and she was a bit crazy close to the end of the night. Haha. First time see her like that. Haha. Peiyi and Grace danced a lot as well, and even Joreen (Huiting) and her uni friends came as well to join the fun. The music was not bad, not too shabby, and the crowd was crazy ! Haha. I really enjoyed myself, and I'm pretty sure the rest of the peeps enjoyed themselves as well.

And now, to blog about work. It was end of the month yesterday. Work's been pretty disappointing for the past few months, and I can't seem to work things out. I guess I've been pretty distracted as well. I'm not sure if I mentioned this in my previous posts, but I was pulled into this EAC (Employee Action Committee) organising committee for the company, and basically the function of this committee is something like SB club when I was in poly, to organise events for the employees of GE Money. So I was pretty tied up organising GE Family Day at the start of the month, and now I'm like hooked on organising GE Dinner and Dance, which is happening on 4th of Decemeber 2009 at Sentosa ! You could say I enjoy the organising part more than work itself, because it was what I used to do in poly, and I've always enjoyed things like that. However things don't really work the same. In poly things were much simpler, whereas in GE, because its a business, everyone is busy with their own work, and its not as united as compared to SB Club people in the past, but thankfully, for both events, I really had great committee members as well as great leaders to lead us through both events. So I guess I learnt a lot. Plus thankfully TT was there throughout for both the events, and I can say, I'm totally not creative, so luckily TT is more creative in the designing part, since both of us is under the publication and communication side of both events. But this organising thing has been occupying my mind so much that I kind of lost track of work itself, so this month I was really struggling to try to hit the top tier as well as with my inner demons when it comes to pushing myself to fight for a better score. Occasionally I get upset with my poor scores and unreasonable customers, but I come to realise its all part and parcel of my job, so I got to push myself to cross these barriers and make myself a better worker.

November starts today, and in a month or so I'm going Taiwan ! Haha can't wait seriously. I have been looking forward to this break for a long time, so I seriously can't wait for everything to happen ! Haha. And very soon its December again. Time seriously passes so fast. Last Christmas seems to be just last month, when we spent Christmas at the hotel itself. Life's moving so fast, but everything seems to be falling into place.

Wonder what's next ? Haha.

Oh by the way, I'm super hooked to this two songs:

You Belong with Me - Taylor Swift

Officially Missing You - Tamia (I like the version by JS too !)

I have another song called I'll Move On by Olivia, but I can't find it on myflashfetish (my blog's music Player).

Seriously super nice songs ! Added these 2 songs to my playlist.

Okay blog another day. Enjoy the music !!

2009-10-28T21:52:00.004+08:00

Hey.

Decided to blog out my feelings recently. Lately I've been angry at a lot of people. And I've been thinking about it a lot. Whether its right for me to even be angry, or should I just look at things in a different angle.

I guess for some I know its pure disappointment, so I clarify with the person and let her know the disappointment. But for some, perhaps this anger is just long due. I think I shouldn't just keep letting it go and think that its fine cause its not. Seriously pissed.

Just simply hate this feeling.

Damn.

Blog another day.

2009-10-11T20:05:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Sorry for not blogging for such a long time. I've been pretty busy and at the same time lazy as well. Haha..

Anyway for the past few weeks I was busy preparing for the Family Day event that happened yesterday. There was a lot of hiccups and last minute "surprises" along the way, but I'm glad that everything worked out yesterday. It was more of a family day cum Futsal Tournament at the Cage @ Kallang. Anyway my team and I managed to get third in the competition, and I'm really glad that we achieved so much. I guess there's a lot more room for improvement for all of us, but I'm really glad that the whole team put in so much effort to play so well yesterday.

Wanted to blog a lot more, but I'm not really feeling best of moods lately. I don't know what to write, or what to do.

Sorry for the abrupt end to this entry.

Blog another day.

See ya.

2009-09-13T23:49:00.003+08:00

Hey !

Sorry for not updating.. Did not feel the need to update much since there really isn't much changes in my life up till now. But then, I saw Anna's tag asking me to update, hence this entry. Haha..

Anyway life's been pretty normal since I last tagged, I'm still trying to change myself although its more of 'all-tok-no-action', and work's still equally tiring, but still, I'm trying my best to enjoy my job now and not think so much of anything. Last week my colleagues and I went this new pub, The Maska, to support Joseph's band performance, and we had a crazy night. A lot of nice chinese songs, a bit of booze, and a lot of jokes and laughter. Ben joined me as well, and after that we proceeded to St James, whereby we had one of the most boring clubbing experiences ever. Powerhouse was packed to the max, while Dragonfly ain't much either. Felt bad at the end of the night cause Ben did not really get to dance much, will try to make it up to him on the next clubbing outing. Haha.

Anyway over the week life's been pretty hectic at work, and I was constantly not getting enough sleep at all, I even slept at the cinema when I went to watch G Force with Leonard and Eric. I'm just super shagged, so I decided not to have any activities during this weekend, the main plan was to chill and rest at home. Therefore from Friday till now it has been nothing but b.o.r.i.n.g, but I guess I got the rest I wanted. Haha.

To make sure I make an attempt to lose some weight, I went to play soccer with my colleagues this morning. Super shag, but its fun ! I should really make an attempt to play soccer or basketball every wkend, and probably do a swim over the weekdays. And definitely eat lesser. Haha. Anyway we played till it started drizzling, then we went for lunch. Supposed to meet Ming and Aaron to play basketball today, but the weather did not look too good, so in the end it was cancelled. Hopefully can meet up next week to play. Haha.

Okay now I'm going to talk about my favourite topic currently in my life, SOCCER ! Haha. Man City beat Arsenal 4-2 ! Ok I admit, because my favourite Arsenal players Arshavin and Theo both will not be playing, I rooted for Man City to win instead. And they did ! On the overall, Arsenal definitely played better, but they're attack was pretty bad until the 2nd half whereby they decided to up their game and attack much better, but that ultimately led to their defence having lesser people, and Man City is no push-over when it comes to counter-attack soccer, with lighting speed players Bellamy, Shaun Wright Philips and Adebayor leading the attack. The only grey area on the match would have to be the stomp that Adebayor did on Van Persie, leaving him with a nasty gash on his face. TV replays show that it was pretty intentional, so I guess FA might have to step in to do something about that. After that it was the Man U match against Tottenham. To be fair to Tottenham fans, they really played a better game thru out the match, and there was a lot of fouls which should have been given to them, but in my own opinion I guess the ref was pretty biased towards Man U. Giggs gave a wonderful performance, scoring a super nice free kick, while Anderson was lucky to be able to score one more goal to give Man U the extra edge. The first goal of the game by Defoe was extremely well played, and I guess this could be the season for Defoe to shine. Scholes as usual, never fails to do stupid challenges, and when he was sent off in the 2nd half with a red card, I guess everyone pretty much thought Man U would lose or draw this match from then on. Kudos to Rooney though, he played extremely well in the 2nd half and even scored a goal, putting it through the keeper's legs. That's my favourite player for you ! Haha... Overall I guess Man U got lucky again, and their luck might just continue if Adebayor gets a ban from the FA this week, meaning he will not play against Man U next sat, which is super good news. Man City has been in top form because of a few players, such as Gareth Barry, SWP, Robinho, Tevez, Bellamy, Adebayor and Lescott etc. Imagine them without Robinho, Tevez and Adebayor. Their attack would definitely lack the firepower, and this might be a good chance for Man U to get more points.

Anyway on Friday I received an sms from Anna. I'm not going into the details, but I hope everything is alright. Don't worry too much babe, no one should fault you for anything, and you have really done your best for them, so probably just try to be home and be there for them, call me if you need to chat to anyone ya ? Haha hopefully everything will be okay, and cheer up ! Will try to organise a meet-up with Peishan as well next week or the week after.

Okay, I got to go. Updates another day ya !

See ya !

2009-08-25T23:36:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Haven't blogged for such a long long time. I know. I apologise. I'm super lazy to blog these few days. Haha..

Anyway I'm blogging today because I decided to blog out whatever I'm thinking about or feeling now. Been pretty bugged out by a few issues lately in life. Just felt like writing out briefly to get it off my chest.

The first issue would definitely be work. As usual, I came to a point whereby I realise I'm struggling more to achieve what I aim for as the months go past. There's a lot of factors which I feel could be the reason. Maybe I'm too slack, although I'm really trying hard not to slack during work. Maybe my luck's getting worse in work. I keep getting accounts which aren't exactly the best of customers, while the nice accounts aren't picking up. It could also be I'm not working the right way. Recently my temper at work has been pretty bad. Even Lilian noticed it as well. I've been able to control my temper for some time now, since the last time I decided I should change myself and my temper. But recently, I realise I haven't been able to control it well, and when I call up unruly people, I just let it loose. I should exercise more self-control of my own emotions, and in the past I was still able to control it. Lilian ask me today if it was because I was stressed-up, but it wasn't that case as well. I can't really put my finger to it, but I should be more self-conscious about it and start controlling it.

The second is actually a personal issue. I've been doing a lot of self reflections. What I want to be, what kind of person I want to be, and what kind of person I really am, I'm starting to see it more and understand myself more. The unfortunate part is the person I want to be is not the person I really am, and often, I don't know why also, but I keep saying the wrong things at the wrong times, or portray an image of myself that I don't want to. Why ? Haha.. sounds wierd for me to ask myself such a question right ??? I just feel that this isn't the Kenneth that I want to be or should be, and yet if someone was to ask me what I wanted to be, I wouldn't be able to put a finger to it. I just feel a change is needed in me, the current me is still lacking in a lot of ways to the me I aim to be. And so, currently my mind is filled with ideas and thoughts on how I can improve myself and what I should improve on. Also I realise I'm beginning to detoriate since last time. I'm actually refering to my self-confidence in this sense. Last week, I attended a course which is supposed to train me to be a trainer in the future to train my peers at work. During this training, I was asked to take 5 mins to think about a particular section and just present it to my training mates, which were actually 3 other people. And yet, I guess I kind of fumbled during the presentation. My trainer thought I was still okay, but when I think about my presentation, I felt it was really different from the days in poly, which I find so much easier to present about something that I can just read about 3 mins before the presentation. Okay, I'm not saying I was damn good at presentations, but I guess I was able to exhibit more self confidence and present more naturally last time. And yet, when it came to this presentation, based on my poly standards, I really really flopped. Felt disappointed at myself, but that's why I thought about it, and identified that the main problem was self-confidence. My self confidence was thrashed, and now its at an all time low, although I'm not sure why or when it became like this. That's a main problem that I'm still trying to find ways to change too, even though so far there's not much of a progress.

Lastly, the issue is on people. I shall not comment more on this topic, but I just feel that recently I've made some discoveries about certain people, and although surprised, I find these discoveries wierd, because I always thought they would be different. Its hard to explain, but I told myself I'm not going to name any people or any particular topic in this issue, because I'm more surprised at the idea of them being way different from what I thought they would feel about certain issues.

Okay I know its getting very confusing for the last part. Haha. Shall not write anymore than that.

Anyway theres so many movies I want to watch ! And yet, I just can't find the right people who wants to watch these movies. Everyone seems to be in their own cliques also, even my sec school friends have their own movie buddies. I really need a permanent movie buddy ! Haha.

Okay enough of the self reflections. I should go to bed soon.

I need to lose weight ! Feel so fat seeing myself in photos posted by friends. Damn it. Shall go starve myself more. Haha. And run more.

See ya !

2009-08-10T22:03:00.002+08:00

Hey...

Time for my weekly "report". Haha. I think of it as a report nowadays cause I hardly find any motivation to write about my life.

Ok perhaps something different to talk about. I'm not going to say what I did over the weekend, but probably just some "food for thought". Its National Day yesterday, and I really wanted to see the fireworks, but in the end I did not catch it. Perhaps its fate that I did not anyway. There's a need to break this yearly tradition. Been doing it my whole life. People even ask me why. I guess it started from young. Back then, I was living in this neighbourhood called Kampung Arang. Ok, its not a Kampung, the name's called Kampung Arang, that's all, and its damn near National Stadium. I can actually see the lights and field of National Stadium from my old house. So, every year, my family has the tradition to watch fireworks, due to the efforts of my father. We would actually all gather at the corridor with my neighbours, and watch it with awe. This tradition persisted even till after we shifted out of that place to Tampines, whereby it then became a tradition where Dad will drive us out to see fireworks. It kind of stopped in sec 3, whereby I think I just did not want to participate in the yearly firework outings anymore. I'm not sure why either, but at that time I guess I wasn't really interested. It was only in year 2 of Polytechnic life whereby I started the trend again.

Frankly speaking, I have no idea why the obessesion. I'll even feel bored halfway through it. And yet, every single time, when watching it, I get this very relaxing feeling. Watching it makes me feel that just for that brief few seconds, nothing else in the world matters. No matter how troubled or how happy or how unhappy or how angry I was, for the past few years it was able to have that soothing and "forgetful" effect on me. Haha. It never ceases me to amaze me how something so interesting and beautiful can exist, and yet perhaps because it only happens once a year, it makes it an even rarer sight, thus increasing the value of beauty in fireworks.

Was wondering for a while before yesterday if I should go watch it myself, but luckily, or unluckily, I was with Aaron, and we were talking about our lives and stuff, so instead of fireworks in town, we were drinking "Ice Cold Yuan Yang" at Kovan just chatting about lives itself. I think about the days when the guys and I were younger, when we would chat about our problems. So much has changed since then, the only thing that hasn't its the fact that we're still sharing our thoughts with each other, so I guess that's a blessing. Haha. I remember we had this unplanned "sharing" session, whereby we would grab a drink, and just chit chat, lying down at the playground under Aaron's house, sleeping over at either Ming or Aaron's place etc.. Forever just chit chatting and chilling.. haha..As we grow, things change, but our friendship never really changes, and I'm really thankful for that, for the great bunch of guy friends from secondary school who's been there for me since secondary school till now..Ok, I sound damn gay now.. Haha...

Okay.. my flu's killing me ! Shall go get some rest..

Blog another day..

Cheers !

2009-07-31T22:15:00.002+08:00

Hey...

Sorry for not blogging for almost 2 weeks. Was pretty busy ( or lazy to be in fact, haha ) for these past 2 weeks, a lot of stuff happened, both fun and stressed, but I shall not comment too much on these stuff.

Anyway, after a very stressful month, decided to blog out my feelings about everything. For the past two weeks, especially this week, I've been pretty stressed up about work. Doesn't sound like me ? Haha I know. Something's changed within me. The Old Ken Yeo would never had felt so stressed about anything, or pushed himself so hard to achieve something. I'm not sure why also. The stress was building up so much that a lot of times I felt disappointed and disheartened, and constantly question myself and my capabilities. Perhaps if you're reading this, you might ask yourself, the same question my mum asked me and herself, why now ? Why the sudden change ? Why the sudden drive ?

I have a confession. From young, I don't know how I got this warped-protective idea in my head, that this world is filled with people aiming for high achievements, and constantly feeling depressed or unhappiness because they are unable to achieve stuff. Which is why since young, I never really aimed to achieve anything. If I tried, it would always back fire. In primary school, I tried my best to be the best in the world of Prefects (yes, I was a prefect, back when I was in primary school, I was really a much nicer guy, just very spoilt with my temper tantrums), but in the end, I kind of got too close to the Prefect Mistress (the teacher in-charged of Prefects, I know the term sounds wierd at this age, but back in Primary school that's what they call her..), and everyone kind of started labelling me as a boot-licker, so I was being ostracised (ok, I think that's how the word is spelt, please mind my "spelling errors" ) by my classmates, and the only guy who kind of stuck with me thru primary school life despite that condemnation was my good friend, Chee Chong. After that, I kind of learned not to expect too much from myself, take a step back, and be a bit more slack in life.

That was the start of everything I guess, I changed. I guess life got a bit more relaxing, cause I stopped placing expectations on myself, and my life philosophy kind of turned to the "Live everyday to the fullest, and always just take a step at a time, never expecting too much out of the future". I never seemed to find any motivation at all to push myself to do anything. Poly days was pretty much the same, hence me being the "free-rider" for most projects, doing the bare minimum, and just barely passing the diploma. I guess the worst thing was when I was with Sab, cause although I did not have expectations on myself, I had some for her, and it was pretty bad of me. I always thought I'll change for her, but in the end of 3 yrs I find myself much worse, and that she had to go through a lot of changes for me instead. Even when I was with Peizhen, it was like that. She had expectations too, but I couldn't take it. I guess I was still childish at that point of time.

When it came to this work, I found myself constantly trying to do the best, because I realised the harder I work, the more income I actually got out of it, thus more spending power, and spending to me = happiness. I know I sound like a girl now, but yah, I find absolute happiness just spending on myself sometimes, be it clothes, or food. Haha. Then came this month. I got converted, became perm, and was happy. But with that change, from contract to perm, I kind of got determined. On 15th of July this month, I looked back at my life, and I realised how much has passed through me, and I started to realise that this job has been the start of me actually working hard to achieve something, which to me is a miracle, cause I've never ever worked hard enough for anything before. So I told myself, I'm not going to be the kind of guy who got what he wanted and just slack. I wanted to ensure, that within my own limits, I must be able to achieve what I had accomplished before on a monthly basis, to be able to at least hit the top tier, and at the same time, be involved with every possible option that's thrown to me by the company, be it organising events, or go for training courses. I never felt so much need to strive before. As such, life kind of changed, in a lot of ways. Even in basketball, where I was so much more slack and crazy in the past, I started to think more during the game and after every game, wanting to improve so much and desperately trying my best to up my game.

Just to side-track, Ming actually talked to me about this, saying we're at the age whereby we already passed our prime, and its actually more fun to just play at the relax pace. I used to think that way too, even when I was in secondary school. I never really worked hard to play the game better as well. But when he told me that, I told him straight from my heart, that I missed so much, that playing at a more competitive edge should have been done when we were younger, but because we did not, and now we have another chance to play again together, why not ? Why not just go the extra mile, play more, improve and get better ? We're 23 ! Hell, sooner or later we're going to be involved in relationships (okay, I am, sooner or later, he already is and has been inside the relationship for 7 years.. haha), we'll move on to marriage, and then family commitment etc, and at that point of time we will never be able to come back to this stage, to play the game we love the most, to improve and to have fun at the same time. Irealised when I said that, it just wasn't something I would have said a few years back.

For the past week, I was never really able to perform at work. I did not know why, I constantly pushed myself to work harder at work, but I was not able to do like my other 2 colleagues did (Okay TT and Jess are my benchmark, because one is the top scorer at work, the other is my shi-fu who used to be the top scorer as well), so I came home every single day, sat on my bed, and wondered what I could have done or should do better to improve. I know my work boils down to skill and luck, but I keep thinking that if my skill is there already, then the only other reason why I'm not achieving is my luck factor, which is why I was pretty disappointed at myself, because I know luck is a factor that's totally unchangeable, out of myhands and impossible to improve with efforts. But thankfully, I guess after 3 days of sulking at this point, I came to realise that not everything is within my control, that no matter how hard I strive, I can only achieve so much, I might hit the top tier if I strive, but if I do not strive, I will definitely not be able to achieve what I want to achieve. I should cut myself some slack, which is why I took half day off today, went out with Mum and Sis, brought them out to have a nice meal, and got myself a fan for my room.

This month is wierd, or should I say, fruitful, because of certain events, I learned so much more about myself. Life's ever-changing, but thankfully, I guess the change in me will make me better for the future...

Okay, just a final note before I end off this wierd wierd entry about myself.. Karin Kai is overseas ! She has left for her 5 months school exchange programme, and she will be backpacking first in England, before studying in Sweden. Managed to catch her online just now, and she's in Ireland ! Lucky girl ! Haha.. I have an aim, which is to go England by the age of 28 and watch a Man U match in the Stadium of Dreams (or is it called the Stage of Dreams), the Old Trafford at Manchester. Haha...

I want to watch a lot of movies, I haven't watched Harry Potter even though the reviews are bad, I want to watch this show called "Fighting", and I really really want to watch "The Hangover", but no one's free or free enough to watch with me. Haiz. Can someone please volunteer to watch with me ?

Okay, time for you to stop reading my wierd entry, reader, and enjoy your weekend time !

Ken, signing off... XP

2009-07-12T23:17:00.002+08:00

Hey !

Haha weekly entry time ! Hah.. I'm getting really lazy to blog nowadays.. Haha..

Caught two movies over the week, Ice Age 3 and Obsessed. Ice Age 3 was super funny ! I think its much funnier than the first 2 series, while for Obsessed, I guess the storyline is pretty predictable, not much of a story, although the interesting part would be the fact that it reminds everyone that sometimes, Humans, especially the crazy ones, are definitely the most scary things in this world.

Went to Chomp Chomp on Friday with Karin, Peishan, Anna, and Tong Chuan. The food was great, but the time spent just finding and waiting for a table was super long. After dinner, we went to Ice Cube for some ice cream.

Played basketball on Saturday afternoon. Kind of injured my left ankle, and strained my right knee. Strained my neck as well. Just a simple game, and I felt so injured at the end of it. Haha.. I'm seriously getting old... After that I went home, took a short nap, then met up with Tim, Ben, Dudley and Josh to club at St James. The crowd was super packed, but the music was much better than the other few times that I went there. We clubbed till about 3 plus before heading home.

Tomorrow is Monday again, and I'm feeling blue ! Haha. I believe its called "Monday Blues". Haha. Okay I'm being extremely lame here. Body's feeling quite shag, but I guess I'll be able to pull through with it. Tim's going back to Aussie on Wed, and we're having another basketball match tomorrow at Josh's place. Hopefully I won't get injured tomorrow. Haha.

It's been a pretty busy week this past week, but I kind of enjoyed meeting up with everyone over the week. Hopefully life can be like this, with more plans. Haha.

After the week, I realise, what I truly need in life..

MORE SLEEP, AND LESS FATS !!!!
(My eyebags are really getting darker and my tummy is really getting rounder. Haha...)

Haha nights !

2009-07-06T00:33:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Sorry for not blogging for so so so so so long... haha.. been pretty lazy lately.. Did not feel like updating much about my mundane life... haha..

Anyway the more recent events: Went to Sentosa with the marist gang for a short chalet over the night plus bbq. This is probably the funniest bbq I've ever been too. Still, its really great just to hang out with the guys, namely Josh "Black Mamba aka Indian Raj" Kane, Ben "testicles, nipples and IRC language" Ng, Timothy "The Ang Moh White Boy" Harris, Aaron "Monkey" Tan, Ming Hui "Giant" and Dudley "Prata for supper always" Kow. Haha Shi Min ( Ming's gf ) and Sabrina ( Dudley's Gf ) attended too, and it was not only a great night, but a funny night too. Haha.. we all got pretty high, drank a bit, chatted away, did some stupid stuff, hit the beach etc etc.. The list just keeps going on and on.. Haha...

Anyway Ben was saying during the night I actually "rapped" in my sleep. I'll like to declare to all those who did not know that yes, I sleep talk at night, and I'm the kind who mumbles during my sleep talking, but because Ming Hui and Aaron is so used to it due the the countless times of sleep over at their places, so they ignored it pretty much, but Ben was more of a light sleeper, so I guess I kind of affected him, so he totally did not sleep in the night. Sorry Ben, truly sorry. Haha.

The next day, we checked out, hit the beach, walked around, before heading to Vivo for lunch. After lunch it was home for us, and after that I met up with Evon, Qiuping, Peiyi and Bryan at Plaza Singapura. We were supposed to eat Astons, but the queue was disgusting, so we went to Swensens instead. After dinner, we walked up a hundred steps (okay I'm exaggerating, it was not a hundred steps, but a FEW HUNDRED.. okay haha it was just a very long flight of steps can ?) to get to Timbre Old School, but there was a long queue too, so Evon brought us to the other end of Mt Emily, which is FREAKING far (I mean really really god-damn-it far..), but the place was actually a pretty cool place to chill, the ambience was great, drinks weren't too bad, and the crowd was relatively quiet, which is really cool for a chill place.. Haha. I guess the only bad thing about the place would be it inaccesible (okay I don't know if I spelt the word correctly, but I'm just too lazy to check the correct spelling, so pardon my bad English ya ? Haha) location. Had a few drinks, before I decided to rush off to attend Ron's Bday celebration at St James Dragonfly.

Was a pretty good celebration, I guess it really did cheer him up a bit, and hopefully he enjoyed the night, well at least he enjoyed it till the part whereby he started to get drunk. I wasn't feeling too happy that night either, and Mr Leong TT kept pushing drinks to me, hence deriving at the situation of me getting drunk as well, but sober enough to manage to get myself home before I concussed.

Woke up today still feeling a bit down, asked Tong to go eat Ice cream with me, but we ended up trying to shop for a watch, which in the end we did not get cause he couldn't find the one he wanted. Walked around Parco for a while, and after that just before dinner Tong went home, while I met Aaron and Ming Hui and Shi Min @ Illuma to have dinner. Had this super big burger with a lot of fries, its really crazily huge, and I'm pretty sure none of you guys that I know off would have been able to finish the burger himself or herself. Haha. After dinner we walked about for a while, before heading to Benten to have my ice cream ! Its kind of like my favourite ice cream now, because of the fruits, ice cream, cornflakes, and pudding in the cup itself. And its a really large cup ! We ended up taking some photos and videos, which I'm hoping Ming will upload into facebook tomorrow. Haha. The ice cream all made up crazily full, and till this date I've never seen the four of us so full before even though the ice cream and dinner was not a buffet at all. Haha.

Anyway the ice cream cheered me up. Well, its either that or the people who ate the ice cream with me. Haha. But still, a big thanks to the ice cream, as well as the peeps, for cheering me up ! Haha..

Work tomorrow, this is seriously a saddening and demoralising thought. I guess most people would call it a pre-monday blues, but luckily, I'm meeting Ming Hui and Miss Piggy aka Streetfighter Ryu MSN Pic Buddy aka Miss "As lame as Kenneth Yeo" Wong Lai Yee for dinner. Can't wait, although now I just feel like puking due to the dinner and ice cream. Haha.

By the way, this korean song playing on my blog now, its from the Korean Drama F4, its a pretty sad song, but I kind of like the music and the way the singer sings the song, even though I have no idea what the lyrics mean. Still, enjoy the melody of the song ya ?

Okay, the bed's calling, I got to go.

Kenneth, Out !

2009-06-24T13:46:00.000+08:00

Hey.

Lazing in office during lunch time now.. decided to blog a bit. Haha..

Yest was Benjamin's Bday ! I met Dudley and Benjamin to have dinner first at Long John Silver, before going to the arcade to play the basketball game. Ya, we're still like a bunch of small boys, playing arcade at this age. Ben even remarked saying I'm those Ah Beng who always go arcade to play the basketball game. Haha. After that Ming Hui and Aaron came to join us for the movie Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen.

Okay, I'm going to start on my movie review thingy again. Basically the movie can be described in 2 words: MUST WATCH ! Haha. The whole plot of the movie is excellent, the graphics are nice, the cars were great, the female lead was pretty, okay you get the picture. I preferred it to the first movie, cause I felt the first movie had very little action scenes, there was a lot more explaining in the first movie. The second one, however, is really more of action, plus occasionally some humour in certain scenes. I guess the script writer and director did a pretty good job putting in the funny scenes so as not to let the show get too draggy at certain parts whereby there's a lot of cold hard details or explaining. I'm pretty sure every guy would want to watch this movie and like it, because it possesses everything a guy likes: nice cars, robots, hot babes (or just 2 hot babes to be exact), action scenes plus some senseless humour. Haha. Overall I give the movie a 4.5 out of 5 rating (okay its not 5 out of 5 cause there is no perfect movie in this world).

After the movie, we went to Newton Circus for some drinks and supper. Ming bought a cake too, and they kind of celebrated my belated birthday for me as well. Second Cake this year. Its a strawberry short cake from Four Leaves, and I never knew Strawberry Shortcake tasted this good ! Haha okay, I'm exaggerating again, I probably found it nice only because I've NEVER tried strawberry shortcake in my life. Haha. Took some photos before heading for home.

Josh was unable to come, but I'm pretty sure we'll meet up with him soon as a group again. Next week Friday is Chalet Day, organised by Mr and Mrs Loh ( okay technically I'm calling her Mrs Loh because she's been with him for 7 years, but don't get the wrong idea, as of now they aren't married nor engaged, just lovingly together as a couple for 7 years, hahah). Need to have more plans for myself to enjoy, work life is seriously taking me down, and pretty soon I think I'm going to "crash" one day. Haha. And I need more sports in my life ! Friends who are doing sports please count me in ! Haha I need to lose weight ! Haha..

Okay back to work. Haiz.

P.S. See Lilian, my boring life blogged during boring office hours. Haha.. You faster finish your blog entry too k ? But more about yourself and less about the Federal Govt in America please ? Haha...

2009-06-22T00:14:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Okay, I know that I have not been blogging for an AWFULLY long time, but, I have my reasons okay ? Reasons include 1) Not in the mood too, 2) Lazy, 3) Can't organise my thoughts well enough to write a more organised entry about my not-so-organised life. So, I'll probably be doing more random entries and shorter ones from now on.

I'm supposed to blog about how my office people celebrated my Bday that day before I went to K.L., as well as my K.L. trip, but, as mentioned above, I am currently feeling one of these 3 reasons above, so this entry will be short.

I'll like to thank all my friends, who celebrated my birthday this year, as well as all the gifts and cards. I really appreciate it. I do. I guess 19th June last year was really a pretty bad experience, and I guess after that year, I learnt a lot, but I'm surprised this year turned out a lot better than last year, and I really want to thank all the friends who made this difference in my birthday this year. I'm sorry if I make it so important, I was brought up since young with this thinking that I could bear with anything in this world, no matter how unhappy or demoralising it got, and the only day that I could be truly happy and not have to bear any unhappiness would be my Birthday, hence all this importance. Okay I have to admit, I'm wierd. I'm probably the only person in this world that actually still makes my birthday my most important day of every year. So, I'm really glad after everything, this year really turned out well.

Secondly, I want to thank my colleagues. They gave me a very big surprise birthday celebration before I went to Kuala Lumpur, and I really want to thank them for the cake, as well as the present and the celebration. By the way, just for the record, you guys are the only peeps who bought me a cake this year ! Haha.. and its my favourite cake ! Best colleagues anyone can have. Haha.

Lastly, I'm going to thank the 3 people that made it great on the day itself, thank you all 3 of u, for bearing with me that past 3 days, for all the planning, and for making this KL trip such a nice event in my life. Its been really fun holidaying with you guys, I really appreciate it a lot, I'm sorry if I appear to be somewhat unbearing or troublesome during the trip there, thanks a lot for putting up with me. Hehe. Actually thought about everything on the last night there and kind of felt bad for all the nitty gritty stuff you guys had to put up with, from the not-so-fantastic hotel, to my bad temper. Haha. But seriously, I hope you guys had a fun time as well, and hopefully this wouldn't be the last overseas trip for us ! Haha.

Okay, Miss Wong Lai Yee aka. Miss Piggy aka. Ryu wanted me to include her in this "Thank-you" entry, so I'm specially pulling out her name to thank as well. Thank You Ms Piggy, you're actually the first friend who remembered my Bday and smsed me while I was in KL. Haha. Wanted to reply your message but due to the expensive charges, I decided to thank you here instead, just as you wished. Haha. Happy now ? Hahahahahaha....

Okay, I seriously need to get into bed soon. Need to do some soul searching as usual, before I get some rest and get ready for reality tomorrow. Haha.. cold hard reality. Haiz. Haha...

Thanks to all those who made it great for me once again. From the bottom of my heart, you guys are the best !

Nights and cheers !

Ken Yeo, signing out...

2009-06-14T05:33:00.002+08:00

Yo Yo Yo !

Haha... Harlo Peeps.. Sorry I haven't been blogging for such a long time, I've been pretty busy with a lot of stuff lately, hence the missing entries for the past week. Anyway a lot happened over the past week, but I'll just talk about the 4 main activities since last Saturday.

Met Qiuping, Huiting, Ailian, Peiyi, Grace, Sherine and Tong Chuan to club last Saturday. Went to St. James Powerhouse to club. It was super crowded, with lots of teenagers around. Yu Ke dropped by too, and the whole group of us spent the first part of the night finding space to even club at the dance floor. It was seriously packed, and halfway through a fight even broke out on the dance floor between a big bunch of guys. Luckily though we were super near the fight none of us got hit. Haha. Still, on the overall, it would have been a much better clubbing experience if there were lesser people around on the dance floor.

On Thursday night, Me, Joshua, Joseph, Ashley, Eric and Ronald ( All of them are my GE colleagues ) went to Bedok to eat Nana Curry House's Curry Fish Head ( the name of the store is Nana Curry House ). The curry fish head is super nice ! Their curry chicken is great too ! Seriously, curry lovers should drop by Bedok to try the curry from this store. After that we had a drinks-cum-beer session at the nearby coffeeshop, and spent most of the time chit-chatting. It kind of reminded me of us when I first entered GE, how all of us were so bonded and kept organising drinking sessions and outings. After so long, after so much, things just look so different till recently. We kind of agreed we should have a clique gathering every month cause all of us enjoyed it so much. Haha.

Met Valerie, Wan Chien and Tong Chuan for dinner @ Illuma on Friday night. Wan Chien and Val wanted to treat me Shabu Shabu ( Jap steamboat ) for my Birthday this year, so we ate at the cosplay restaurant. The shabu shabu is nice, but I felt the meat given to us were a bit too little, and the price was a bit costly. Still we had a great time. After dinner, we went down to this small Japanese restaurant called Benten, and had this super nice Ice Cream called "Never Give Up". It's my second time eating it with Val and Wan Chien, but it was Tong's first time. Still, its awesome, and for all the ice cream lovers outside, you should give it a try, cause its really something nice. After that Tong went home while the rest of us went to catch the movie "Land of the Lost". Its a super stupid movie, but we all had a great time laughing like mad during the whole course of the movie. Its a great comedy, and its worth the money if you're looking for a good laugh.

Went to the IT Fair in the afternoon, and got myself a NEW DESKTOP ! Yeah, its kind of like a Bday gift for myself to reward myself, especially since my laptop is crazily old and falling apart already. LUV my new com. Haha.. its super nice, I really like it a lot. Met Anna, Karin, Pei Shan and Tong for dinner-cum-early Bday celebration @ Vivo's Kim Gary. Throughout the whole dinner, we kept teasing Karin, although she looks awfully tired at times throughout the whole night. They shared with Qiuping, Grace and Peiyi to get me my Bday gift this year-a bag for GAP ! Its a super nice bag, and I love it a lot. Anna and gang also made me a Bday card, and I'm really touched by the card itself, because its super nice with all the decoration and stickers, and all of them wrote a message etc. I guess its super important to me, because every Bday card reminds me of how I celebrated my Bday with which friends in which year, and I have a habit of keeping Bday cards given to me by friends so that when I'm old next time, I can look at it and think of the old days... Haha.. So far, this has been one of the most unique and nicest Bday card that I've received over the years, and I'm really touched by the effort. Thanks everyone for the present, and special thanks to Anna, Karin, Tong, Denyse and Pei Shan for the card ! Really loved the gift and the card alot ! After the Bday celebration we proceeded to take a lot of photos, and when I mean a lot, I really mean A LOT ! Haha... These are my photo buddies, forever taking photos, and I even have my special Chilli-Ketchup Buddy Karin Kai to take another Chilli and Ketchup photo. Haha. I've always been lame about photos. Haha..

Met Ben, Dud, Adam, Aaron and Minghui to club after Anna and gang went home. We went to St James Powerhouse to club, and the crowd was definitely much better than last week. However, as time passed, the club got a lot crowded, and I guess it was just like last week. The music was good till 12 plus, and we decided to go Boiler Room to chill, only to find better RnB music at Boiler ! Haha...Clubbed like mad for a while, danced our asses off, before heading to McDonalds for a bit of supper. Zhen came over to find us for supper as well, and we chit chatted about 2 hours before heading home.

I'm super shagged now, but before I go to sleep, I just want to say thanks, to all the friends who made an effort for the gifts and card, especially Tong, who took the trouble to organise all of them for the gift and the celebration plus the card, and to my Mum and siblings, for the super nice watch, something I always wanted for a gift from anyone since I was 20. So although its 3 years late, but I really appreciate the gift, and like it a lot ! Haha..

Ok I'm going to sleep now, but before that, I just want to say thanks, once again, for everything and anything !

2009-06-04T00:54:00.002+08:00

Hey.

I'm sitting in front of the com, after a super relaxing and super slow jog, and while resting, decided to enter a mid-wk entry !

Benjamin had a performance at this cafe at Singapore Flyer yesterday. Think the cafe's called Love the World. Its basically a event organised by church, but not all the songs that were performed were Christian Songs. Our Ben performed to 3 songs, "Don't Worry Be Happy", "I'm Yours" and "What About Now". Haha overall his performance was great, and Im damn sure he will make a good entertainer, being able to express himself freely both on and off the stage. Haha. The other performances were great as well. Dudley, Aaron, Ming Hui, Shi Min and I all enjoyed the performances throughout, but I guess the best performance would have to be the part whereby the pastor played an accoustic version of the song "Truth" by Martin Taylor. His guitar skills are excellent ! Haha..

Went to cut hair today. Finally decided to snip off the growing long hair and try sumthing short. The hairstylist kind of gave me a nice hair cut, a new style in fact, but when I reached home I found out I could not style it the way he styled for me. Tried means and ways but I still can't get it right. Sianz.. Looks like its back to my old short hair style again.. so much for new style...

Oh ya.. Mum and Sis gave me an early Bday gift ! They bought me a watch ! My first bday watch ! Haha... Its very nice, though I was hoping they did not spend that much on the watch. Still, I love the watch ! Haha..

Ok I'm shagged.. time to end my mid wk entry. Haha..

Nite !

2009-05-31T23:52:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Haven;t blogged for the past whole week. Anyway here's what happened...

Wednesday Night. Me and Ming Hui decided to catch the Champions League Finals at Singapore's Red Devil Fan club, the Man U Bar at Boat Quay. Everything about that night was great, the fans were great, the place was great, the ambience was great, everything except for one thing, the result. Manchester United lost 2-0 to Barcelona. This is saddening to say for a Man U fan, but I have to agree and accept the loss, for Barcelona was the much better team that night, they played better, had better possesion, attacked more, created more chances.. all in all, they were the better team that night and they deserved to win. I guess after the match the both of us were disappointed and tired, but we would never forget the kind of experience to watch a match with such a feeling. I guess this would probably be the closest thing I can have that is comparable to watching a Man U match live in England at Old Trafford, which is still one my dreams to be accomplished by the age of 30. Haha. Anyway I went on a 30 hour no-sleep marathon because of this match, and its kinda drained me for the rest of the week.

Met up with Tong Chuan, Qiuping, Peiyi and Grace on Friday to have a belated birthday celebration for Grace. We went to Waraku for dinner, and the food was better than Waraku Pasta, but the portion is very little. The bowl is extremely big though, and I find it extremely funny that they used such a big bowl for my noodles but when I look into the bowl, I had to look deep inside to find my noodles. Haha. After dinner we couldn't find a place to have coffee and chill, so in the end we went to McDonald's for Ice cream instead, before heading for home after that.

Met Wan Chien and Val on Saturday to watch Terminator. The movie is good. Really good. Haha. The action scenes were nice and the story line is not bad too, but for those who did not really watch the 1st 3 movies or can't remember, they will struggle to keep trying to figure out and link to the previous movies. Haha. After the movie, we went to Suntec to find Ming Hui, who was working there at the Book Fair. After that, we went to walk around and shop at Suntec, although we ended up not getting anything. Dinner was at this small Korean stall, we kind of had steamboat dinner, although its a very small steamboat. After dinner, we proceeded to the arcade to play games (as usual), before walking to this small place called Cottage Waffles ( I hope I got it right, if not then it should be Waffle Cottage). The waffle chocolate fondue is great, and its a very cozy place to chill too. If I need to find a place to chill in Suntec, that would be the place. Haha.
I met Dudley and Ming Hui for supper too. We drove to pick Aaron, Adam and Michelle (Miss One Eye Blind aka 一个grape), before heading to the Carls Junior at East Coast for supper. Thereafter, we went to Michelle's family chalet to have a beer or two. Dudley drove me home, but before home we went to Pasir Ris first with Adam to Da Bao McDonald's breakfast. I was super shagged throughout the whole day and I nearly KO-ed a few times in the car. Haha.

Today was a nua (rot) day for me. Spent the whole day at home, playing with my Wii and downloading new songs. Did not do much for the day. Went for a jog about an hour ago though. Super shag, I'm pretty off since I stopped jogging for almost 2 weeks, and my stomach hurts like mad everytime I run. Haha.. Need to resume jogging every night to keep myself fit.. Haha...

Ok that sums up everything I did over this week. I've been bothered about something, I can't put my finger to it, I'm not sure why I'm bothered too, I guess I just need to wonder less and do other stuff more. Haha..

Oh ya, Tong Chuan mentioend this song to me, and although I've heard it, I've never really listened to it much. So I downloaded this song, and I even compared to the Adam Lambert's version, I figured although the song was more suited to Adam, and Adam gave the song a lot of variation with his highs and lows, on the overall song I think Kris did a better rendition, cause I find Adam's rendition more screechy and abit noisier. Yep by now those who have been following American Idol would know which song I'm talking about. Its "No Boundaries" by Kris Allen, the American Idol song for this season's competition.

Here's the lyrics of this song. Enjoy the song ya ? I got to go sleep and get ready for my boring mundane work life.

See ya !

No Boundaries - Kris Allen

Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you've lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason to fight and never walk away
Coz hear I am — still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing
When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you've almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries..
There are no boundaries..

I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don't know where the future's heading
But nothing's gonna bring me down
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I risked being safe but I always knew why
I always knew why...

So here I am, still holding on...

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you
And your dreams..

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe

Yeah..... there are no boundaries
There are no boundaries.....

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
There are no boundaries,
There are no boundaries,

There are no boundaries...

2009-05-24T14:56:00.002+08:00

Hey !

Haha my deepest apologies for not blogging for such a long time, I've been pretty busy these few days, and basically I'm just lazy to blog too haha.

Anyway Kevyn's was back for the weekend last week, so we meet up with him last Friday to go out for dinner at Chomp Chomp, before going to Ice3 (its read as Ice Cube) for dessert. It been almost half a year since we last saw him, and we managed to catch up a bit with him. Ming, Aaron, Ben and Ben's friend Krystal was there too, Josh had some studying to do, while Dudley is in the land of the Big Apple ( America, I think they call America "The Big Apple" right ? Haha..). The sian part was that he had to go back to Aussie on Sunday, so the next time we'll get to see Kevyn would be end of the year, when we go holiday again. So far the location of the place we're going this year end is still unknown, but suggestions have been made to stay in Asia, so they are still deciding between Korea, Hong Kong, Taiwan or China. Haha..

Anyway last Sunday, Ming, Aaron, Ben and I went to Sentosa. I can't remember the last time I went there, but its much nicer than the last time I went there. Anyway it was freaking hot, and I was pretty "Chao-Da" by the end of the day. But still, we had a lot of fun playing everything we could think of, from Beach Volleyball, to Beach soccer. I guess the basic idea was that we wanted to go to the beach, we didn't really care what we do there. Haha.. After the beach we went back to Tampines to watch Angels and Demons. Nice movie, but for those who read the book, you would think the movie is rubbish, because they changed quite a bit of details in the story. Still, I think the overall movie was delivered well, and the only scene I had a problem with was the part whereby they barged in the room thinking that Ewan Mcgregor (I think that's how his name is spelt, I can't be bothered to google it and check the spelling) was in danger, and when the head of the Swiss Guard was shot and the other priest came in and tried to hit Ewan Mcgregor just kept shouting that the priest was the Illuminati etc.. Okay you guys who did watch the movie would probably know which scene I'm refering to. I just felt that particular scene was too "revealing", not raunchy revealing, but more of story revealing, because the way Ewan Mcgregor acted in that scene, it was pretty obvious he was lying and everyone who watched that scene would have known that actually Ewan was the bad guy, not the other priest..Still out of 5 popcorns I think the movie deserved a 4 and a half. Haha..

Did not really do much during the weekdays, but we did celebrate Val's Birthday on Friday. Met up with Wan Chien, Val, Reykhana, Xiao Hui, Anthony and Prisca to have dinner at Manhatten. We got Val a pair of nice cufflinks cause she's been wanting it for quite some time. During the whole of dinner, the girls kept talking about wedding, cause Reykhana was getting married by the end of this year, while Xiao Hui should be doing her ROM at the end of the year as well. Its wierd to see them getting married, seems so young to be married, but nowadays everyone's getting married. Sab's getting married in July, Rey at the end of the year, Xiao Hui's ROMing at the end of the year too, and I just found out yesterday 2 of my friends whom I knew through pubbing in the past have gotten married too, and both of them are around my age too. Haha I've always felt 23 is too young to be married, but I guess for the girls they would probably think its just right..

Anyway after that we went to Starbucks to have coffee and play cards. Played with them for a while, before heading to meet Ming Hui and Aaron for supper near Ben's Place. Wasn't the usual prata or bar chor mee, it was Dim sum instead, but its really nice, its quite cheap too. Haha.

Met them again on Saturday yesterday to go East Coast Park for a roller blading session. Its super scary to blade again, especially since the last time I bladed was in sec 3, but still, once I got used to it, its fun all the same. I realise blading is seriously more tiring than cyling, but the feeling is still the same, pretty relaxing, especially since its near the sea. Haha. After blading, we went to Siglap to eat ice cream at this place called Ice Cream Chef (for Ice cream lovers, you would probably have heard of this place). The ice cream is nice, and the concept is something like Cold Rock (the ice cream place at Holland V), except they gt their own flavours. Haha. After that we went to Katong to eat this famous Chicken rice (ok its not bad but not fantastic, but their curry fish head's nicer than the chicken though..haha) and Curry Fish Head. Nice and filling dinner.

Anyway recently I've been listening to Dudley talk about NBA finals, currently its Lakers vs Denver Nuggets, with the series at 2-1 for the Western Conference, and Cavaliers vs Magic, with the series tied at 1-1 for the Eastern Conference. I've not been able to catch most of the matches since the matches happen in the morning while I'm at work, but while Dudley, Josh and Ben is rooting for Kobe Bryant to lead Lakers to win over Denver to become Western Conference Champions before beating the Eastern Conference Champions to be NBA Champions for this season, I'm pretty much supporting Lebron James to lead Cavaliers to the finals. Why ? Its because although Bryant is a great player, and he can really score a lot of points, I prefer Lebron, who's more of an all-rounder, excelling in all aspects of scoring, defense as well as assist. In the most recent Cavalier's game, he did a buzzer beater (buzzer beater means to score in the dying seconds of the game, and usually the shot would have a great impact on the game), with just one second left, and Cavaliers losing by 2 pts, he scored a 3 pointer and won the game for Cavaliers. It was compared to Michael Jordan's famous buzzer beater during the highlight of his career, which was one of the most memorable moments in Jordan's career. He's been performing well all these years, trying his best to lift Cavaliers to the finals every year, so I hope this year he would actually be able to do it. His opponents aren't easy meat though, with Dwight Howard being the most dangerous player in Orlando Magic. I have to say, Dwight Howard has been pretty impressive, after watching the replays and highlights of the matches, and he would definitely go far if he continues to play like this for the next few years or improve further.

Next Wednesday night is Manchester United vs Barcelona. Lets hope Man U beat Barca and win the Champions League again for 2 yrs in a row ! Go Man U !!

Anyway enough of my ranting, I'm going to get some afternoon nap now.

By the way, I added 2 new songs to my play list. The first song is called 1,2,3,4 By Plain White T's. Its a very nice song, and I'm sure a lot of people would have heard it. I think its a very romantic song and the lyrics is very meaningful too. The second is this Korean Song called Nobody by Wondergirls. Its a very funny korean song, the music and lyrics is very catchy, and I think a lot of peopl are crazy over this son, including myself. Well basically I'm crazy over this song because I watched the MTV and I think its damn funny and cute at the same time. If you guys are free go youtube and search for the MTV. Seriously funny. Hahah..

Ok enjoy the songs ya ?

See ya !

2009-05-07T20:59:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Mid-wk entry because I'm free to do so ! Haha..

Anyway Tuesday was Ming Huis Bday ! Met up with Ming Hui, Aaron, Dudley, Benajmin and Joshua for Wolverine @ Marina Square. Well, Joshua did not actually meet for the movie, he just met up with us for dinner and left when we went in to watch the movie. Did not go out after the movie though, cause it was too late, so we planned to meet up for the 2nd part of his celebration on Saturday instead.

Anyway that night was Manchester United vs Arsenal at Emirates Stadium for the spot in the finals of Champions League. It was a good match, Park Ji Sung scored the first goal, and Ronaldo ensured the win with a crazy free kick in the 10th min of the game. After that, although Arsenal fought hard, they were unable to break the deadlock. Overall, for a Manchester United fan, the match was great, the only grey part of the night would be that Fletcher got a red card which was deemed "too harsh" even by Arsene Wenger himself, and therefore will miss the finals of Champs League. Its a pity because although most people don't appreciate Fletcher, I think he' has actually improved, and he's relentless in giving it his all for the team, which I feel is truely admirable. His defensive covers are better than most of the central midfielders in Man U, and he's very hard-working every match as well, and he has been performing well this season, which is probably why its really a great pity that he's going to miss the finals.

Last night was Barcelona Vs Chelsea at Stamford Bridge. I guess you could say the match was boring after Essien scored the first goal of the night, which is actually a very nice goal as well, and Chelsea literally dominated the whole match, missed a bunch of great chances, and even had a few penalty decisions waived off. The turning point of match would be that Iniesta somehow scored a goal in 93 min, making the score-line a 1-1 draw with Barcelona having an away goal advantage. When the goal was scored, the whole Chelsea team were shocked and in disbelief. In the final minute, Chelsea had yet another clear cut penalty being waived away by the referee. This enraged the fans as well as the players, and all the Chelsea players went up to the referee to confront the referee. Ballack and Drogba were especially agressive towards the referee, and Drogba even nearly hit the referee. Its understandable that they feel this way because it feels as if they were robbed, that they dominated the whole match, had penalty decisions waived off, and even allowed a last min goal to kill off the team. Still, this would have definitely been one of this seasons most contraversial and impactful match.

After two nights of late night Champs League soccer, I'm beat. I'm literally a walking zombie. Haha. Haven't felt like that in a long time. Have not been jogging for the past week either, because I'm really too shag every night. Anyway, I should go rest soon. Really need to catch up on my sleep. Haha.

I need nice dreams...

2009-05-04T20:41:00.003+08:00

Hey ! Yes you would probably have noticed, my blog skin has changed, it looks older and less "blue" compared to the previous one. Its because the previous one had some problem, causing the whole blog to hang, which was why I have to change it and use the standard blog designs provided by blogger.com. Haha..

Anyway on Thursday 2 things made me sort of unhappy. Firstly, Hazel did not want to go clubbing and just smsed to say she did not want to. There was no other intention of changing the plan or asking if we wanted to go other place to meet up, but her reason for not going was a genuine one and I understand her reason totally. 2nd was the fact that Sihui and Valerie could not meet up for lunch as planned. Both had good reasons too, Sihui originally already had plans, just that she forgot, Valerie had to meet clients, both were valid reasons, but yet I'm still upset. Ok I admit, I was pissed. At first I thought I was pissed with them, pissed at the fact that they just cancelled last minute. I told Wan Chien and Tong Chuan how pissed I was, but after thinking through everything for the past few nights, I realised what I was pissed at. It wasn't at the fact that they cancelled last min, because their reasons were genuine and true reasons, not cooked up reasons. And I myself have been in situations just like them, when I wanted to save money that's why I did not go, when I already had other more important plans which I accidentally forgot, or when work or other matters were too urgent for me to push them away. I was the same too. But I realise what I'm angry at was myself. Why was it everyone had a legitimate reason, while I'm the one that has to be left standing ? Why is it I expect so much of a gathering, and yet get disappointed so much more when it doesn't happen ? I realised there have been a lot of times when it ends up like this, when I expect something to happen, but everyone ends up not attending because of legitimate reasons, and I'm the one left standing alone. I'm angry at the fact that I keep putting myself in such situations, that I never give myself back up plans, that I expect too much of everyone. I guess the problem is just me. I should learn to expect less, to hope less, be more realistic, and constantly have back-up plans for myself. I hate that feeling. That feeling that everyone has a legitimate or understandable reason for everything, and I end up plan-less. I realise now that I should not expect too much or hope too much, the lesser the expectation and hopes, the lesser the disappointment. It can be seen that if I hope less or expect less, than the desire for me to do a certain thing or meet some friends will be lesser, but I guess it also helps to lessen the disappointment factor. As time passes, everyone grows older, and everyone have more plans for themselves, things they want to do, people they want to meet, PRIORITIES they have for themselves. Perhaps I should start having my own plans around myself instead of around others. I guess the truth is, I need plans for myself from now on, and not expect so much out of others anymore.

Anyway, went home on Thursday night, felt super dumb that I'm home on a holiday eve when I could be out, saw Benjamin online, received Zhen's call to ask me to club, thought about Ronald at St James drinking, and suddenly I made a decision, told Ben, Zhen and Ronald, and reached St James in 45 mins time. And, truth to be told, I had one of the best clubbing nights. Danced non-stop with Benjamin and Ronald ( yes, you can't imagine me dancing right ? Don't, cause I look like Mr Bean when I'm dancing ), drank a bit, met Joshua and his friends, and enjoyed the night. I'm not that kind of guy who goes to clubs to pick up girls, basically I neither think its right to pick up girls, nor have the courage to do so even if I thought it was, so clubbing to me its all about just dancing, drinking and enjoying the music. And its fun to club with Ron and Ben, cause Ben likes dancing, while Ron's a natural clubber. Met Zhen as well, but because she's with her friends, so most of the time we did not really join her.

Woke up on Friday super late, rotted a while at home before meeting Banjamin again with Dudley, Joshua Kane, and Aaron Teo ( its another Aaron ) to go play basketball. After basketball we went to Serangoon Gardens for dessert, before heading to Thompson for Bar Chor Mee and Prata supper. Haha. Adam joined us for dinner too. After dinner we went to Dudley's and had drinks at his place, chit chatting about different issues of life.

Saturday was badminton day. Met Tong Chuan, Anna, Anna's boyfriend and Pei Shan to play badminton at Singapore Polytechnic. In the end, there was no empty court, so we played basketball at the court for a while. After that, we went back to the courts, found an empty court, and played for a while. By the way, there has been a lot of changes in SP. Apparently foodcourt 5 (the KFC foodcourt) is now fully air conditioned ! Its super nice and super cooling. They even built a small Subway outlet in Foodcourt 5 as well. Its so different as compared to the one we used go to. After that we went to Jurong Point to have dinner, before walking around to shop a bit. We took 2 photos too, and because Miss Karin Wong Kai Kit wasn't around, we decided to tag her as the badminton racket when Anna uploads the photos. Haha.

Sunday was swimming day. Woke up early in the morning to go jogging, in the end I only managed to call Ms Wong to wake her up for early appointment, before falling back asleep on my sofa. Luckily I woke up in time to meet Ming and Aaron to go swimming at Tampines. Okay, we did not really swim, me and Ming spent about one and a half hour just chilling in the pool to chit chat, while Aaron came late as usual. After that we went to have lunch, before going to Uniqlo at Tampines 1, shopped a bit, and then headed home to sleep again. Haha.

Basically that's how I spent my long weekend. What started off as a plan-less weekend ended up pretty good in that sense that I enjoyed the weekend itself. Haha...

Tomorrow is Mr Ivan Loh Ming Hui's Birthday ! Haha... should be going to Timbre after work to drink a few drinks with Bday Boy and Aaron. Hopefully Dudley and Ben will join us.

Ok la.. anyway I forgot to introduce the music ! I changed the music player in my blog, and so far its not too bad. The song I'm introducing this week its the song called "Dead and Gone" by T.I. featuring Justin Timberlake. Its quite catchy, and it gets stuck on in your head after listening to it a few times.

Ok enjoy the song !

2009-05-04T01:13:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Some error came out with my previous blog design, so I'm going to temporarily use this current design first. Spent almost 1 and a half hour trying to toggle around this error and fix it.

Will blog tomorrow about this week's happenings. Haha...

Anyway I've been crazy over this song recently. Enjoy the songs first ya ? Haha

2009-04-29T04:08:00.002+08:00

Hey !

Met up with Anna, Karin and Pei Shan for movie in the evening after work. We watched this movie called "The Knowing". Overall I think the movie was actually quite nice. Heard a lot of comments about this show before watching it, and I guess I have to comment that the plot is good, the overall story line was not as boring as I expected, and some scenes actually might create an impact on you. One of my favourite scenes would be the airplane crash. It was filmed in a super realistic way, and because it looked so real, I actually thought about the scene a lot, wondering if I was Nicholas Cage at the scene how I would have felt watching the plane crash and the people burning in front of me. Me being the think-a-lot, it also got me thinking if I was the one in the plane itself, how it would have felt. There was this part whereby a few people had left the wreckage and kept shouting save me, walking towards Nicholas Cage, when suddenly the wreckage exploded again, burning all of them. If you think about it, this was super realistic, and it was something that might happen, or rather, has happened in this world, and how scary it was. Friends who knew me know that I love to watch ghost shows, and tell ghost stories, and even invent my own ghost stories. But the truth is, ghost stories aren't scary. Its because they are stories. The scariest things in the world are those that are true, such as ugly human nature like cannibalism, things such as human torture, and the worst, and the most uncalled for, accidents. Accidents that might happen any second, any minute, at any place. This is true fear. And this whole show keeps portraying things that might happen, which is why its scary and yet realistic to a certain extent. The last scene is especially true.

There has been a report recently this year exclaiming that astrologists have noticed that some sort of meteor shower or wave is hitting Earth in year 2012, and when that happens, every electrical power station will be affected. What I remember reading about was that the power stations would just shut down, and there would be no electricity on this Earth anymore. Without electricity, they would not be able to even build new power stations, and the Earth would die out quickly. Just imagine a world without electricity. Or rather, think nearer, imagine your house, shopping centres, schools, hospitals. all without electricity. How would we survive then ?

The last scene of the movie is when our Ozone layer is destroyed by the a ray of the sun, causing our Earth to be exposed to the suns radiation directly, which will then burn Earth and kill everything on it. Its possible to happen because our Ozone layer has been depleting for a few years, and one day it might just not be enough to protect the Earth anymore.

Something I noticed at the very last part of the movie, was that the boy and the girl was taken away by the aliens to a new world to restart human civilisation. It kind of reminded us about the story of Adam and Eve, of how we humans first started. I thought about it, and kind of remembered that in the bible, there was a part which mentioned that one day, God would sent down natural disasters to this Earth, and he will then call upon all his believers to bring them to his heaven. Those who do not believe in God would then be left on Earth to suffer the Natural disasters for 7 years. Watching this movie as well as "252" kind of made me realise how many natural disasters there has been in the recent few years, and how uncanny it seems that everything said might be true to some extent. But then again, I'm not really a believer of God, or you could say I'm not a staunch believer because I believe in EVERYTHING, meaning I believe that in this world, there isn't just one god, and every god exist for every human who believes in their god, so I'm not exactly sure what I believe in to. Confusing ? Haha.. yes, I've been a confusing person to understand since young anyway. Haha..

Anyway one movie, and so much unnecessary thoughts.. Haha.. I just finished watching the Champions League match between Chelsea and Barcelona. Kudos to Chelsea, I believed their game plan worked, they dragged out the match, and got the draw they wanted. Barcelona will be racking their brains to find a way to defeat Chelsea next week at Stamford Bridge, without their best defenders Puyol and Marquez, one suspended because of the yellow card, the other injured. It will be interesting to see how Barcelona can turn the situation around, but I believe the final's this year would be an all English final again. Manchester United is playing Arsenal tomorrow night, and I can't wait to watch these 2 teams pit it out on the pitch at Manchester. Hopefully Man U can display their attacking flair that their famous for, and put up a performance similar to the one against Tottenham last week.

Okay, I'm dead shagged, I should go catch a few winks before waking up for work. Haha. Looking at Karin mugging recently has made me realise how stressful university life is. Normally I would hear Qiu Ping and the rest complaining about not having enough time to mug for their exams, but seeing Karin like this, actually discussing how to do their project while she was out with us last Saturday, before going home to rush the project, as well as doing her project just now till 3+, 4 am, and yet still have to wake up early for project meeting, I can't really imagine myself like this. Perhaps I've really been away from the studying scene for toooooo long... forgot how this feeling feels like...

To all those friends out there who's taking their exams soon and mugging like mad now, or like Karin, rushing projects and readings constantly, Jia You Bah ! Good luck for the upcoming exams, and work hard for your projects !

Ok enough of my midnight nonsense. Haha.. I'll go catch a quick nap.. good night peeps !

2009-04-26T16:52:00.003+08:00

Hey.

Weekly blogging time. Haha. I realised its at this time that I actually try to recollect what I've been doing this whole week. And I realised, perhaps, from now on, maybe I should blog daily or occasionally instead of a weekly basis, because I realise every time I blog on a Sunday or Saturday, I seem to start off pretty excited, but by mid-entry I'm just trying to rush through what I want to blog about and try to end the entry as soon as possible. It almost feels I'm just blogging because I HAVE TO, not because I WANT TO. Haha..

Anyway Friday we meet up with Yi Hao to celebrate his birthday ( it was actually on Saturday but we meet up on Friday to celebrate for him instead.) The people who attended included the 2 long lasting members of their X-Team, Hazel and Zhen, and Valerie, as well her two cousins, Si Hui aka Melody, and Si Yi aka Gong Zhu. Haha. Anyway the whole birthday gathering was planned by Yi Hao's girlfriend Zhen Hui ( round of applause for her please !!! Woo Hoo ! ). We met up and had dinner at Botah Jones, before heading to Heeren's NYDC for cakes. Haha. After that, Zhen went to meet with her friends, and Hazel left as well, while the rest of us went to Party World to sing ! Its the first time singing with them, but it was super fun as well, and we all sang quite a bit. Hehe. Ok although my singing sucks I just enjoy it. Can ? Haha....

Saturday was probably more tiring. Struggled to wake up super early to go work, and after work, Ronald and I went to Parkway to walk around first, before heading to Bedok Reservoir to dye our hair. Seriously, its quite cheap there, colouring is just $39, while the hair cut is just $2.90 (dirt-cheap !). I just coloured, did not cut, and now I'm Red Ken again ! Haha.. well I'm not the hairdresser brand Redken, just Red hair Ken.. okay I'm being lame here.. Haha.. anyway Ronald dyed his hair too, and although he keeps insisting its too bright, I thought the colour for him is great, and it actually makes him look much younger. Haha.. After that, we went to Tampines 1 to shop. Uniqlo was just simple one word - DISAPPOINTING. I've heard so much stuff about it, and seeing the hype, I thought the clothes would simply stun me. Well, I went in, and perhaps I was just expecting too much for the graphic T-Shirts, but the designs did not appeal to me much. Their formal clothes were not bad though, and were quite cheap as well. But other than that everything else was ordinary. I'm guessing they probably brought in the old designs to test the market in Singapore first, so let's hope they will bring in more designs next month or so ! Anyway did not manage to get anything from Uniqlo, but we passed by this shop called Net, and the graphic designs were nice ! And the best part ? Their T-shirts cost less than $20 ! Haha I chose 2 designs, one was more abstract, while the other looks like those typical Varisty T-shirt (Don't ask me why I like plain Varsity Design T-Shirts, I don't know why myself..). After that, I went to town to meet Pei Shan and Anna for dinner. Karin joined us later, and we went to watch this new Japanese movie called 252. Frankly, I did not have much expectations for this show, but generally speaking, the show is nice. Not super nice or anything, but its definitely something you feel is worth the money that you're spending on movie tickets. Haha.

After the movie I went to meet Ben and Dud for supper at AMK. Josh was supposed to join us but Mr Black was with girlfriend so in the end he did not turn up. We drove to Thompson's Prata house, had very very nice supper prata, before heading to the Big Macdonald in AMK to buy ice cream. Spent the whole night discussing with Dudley why we were out having supper with noisy Ben, who went the whole night shouting how many "nipples" he had. Haha.. Funny crazy guys ! Haha..

Reached home, turn on the tv, and caught the most exciting Manchester United matches I've seen in a long long while ! It was half time, Man U was playing at home against Tottenham, and they were losing 0-2 to Tottenham. Yet within the next 45 mins, Man U pulled off an awesome comeback, putting in 5 goals to make the final score 5-2 ! I realised Rooney and Ronaldo's partnership is simply crazy, and I also realise why both of them are definitely World Class. Rooney's passes and crosses were simply crazy last night, while Ronaldo was always threatening the defence. Tevez, as usual, was running non-stop, and even Berbatov put in a goal last night, a scruffy goal yes, but nonetheless a goal indeed. It got my heart racing and super excited, and I found myself shouting at the tv every single time Man U attacked and scored. It reminded me why I like them so much, because this was their style, that never-say-die attitude and fightback which gets ur heart racing faster than Kimi Raikkonen and Lewis Hamiliton's car (ok, I'm exaggerating, how can anyone be faster than Kimi Raikkonen or Lewis Hamiliton, and for those who dont know, these 2 people whom I mentioned are the top racers in F1 now). This is the Man U I enjoy watching, and I hope to catch more of such football by them in the rest of the matches to show everyone why they are the best in the world.

Slept a total of 12 hours. Never slept so much in such a long time, and I feel great sleeping so much ! Ok I sound like a pig now. Haha..

Rotting at home the whole of today. Its good to rest at home once in a while.

Tomorrow's another work day. Simply SIAN-SATIONAL just thinking about it. Still, I'll enjoy the weekend while I can. Haha..

Recently I've been addicted to some super old songs, there's no particular reason, just found these songs super nice... last week I introduced to you guys Pieces Don't Fit by James Morrison, this week its this old song called Buses and Trains by Bachelor Girl. Ok maybe after seeing this title you guys might still think the you guys have not heard about this song, but after hearing it, I'm damn sure at least you guys would have heard the chorus of this song in your lives before. Haha. Ok here's the lyrics below, the song is the first song on my playlist, please listen to it ya ?

Haha.. ok enjoy !

Bachelor Girl - Buses and Trains

Hey mum! Why didn't you tell me?
Why didn't you teach me a thing or two?
Did you just let me go out, into the world?
You never thought to share what you knew.

So I walked under a bus, I got hit by a train.
Keep falling in love, which is kinda the same.
I've sunk out at sea, crashed my car, gone insane.
And it felt so good, I wanna do it again.

Hey mum! Why didn't you want me?
Cause I found boys were something I should have known.
They're like chocolate cake, like cigarettes.
I know they're bad for me, but I just can't leave them alone.

So I walked under a bus, I got hit by a train.
Keep falling in love, which is kinda the same.
I've sunk out at sea, crashed my car, gone insane.
And it felt so good, I wanna do it again.

And I walked under a bus, I got hit by a train.
And it felt so good, I wanna do it again.
I wanna do it again,
I wanna do it again, hey hey!

Ohh, think I'm so good? Hey!

Hey mum! Since we're talking,
what was it like when you were young?
Has the world changed, or is it still the same?
A man can kill, and still be the sweetest fun!

So I walked under a bus, I got hit by a train.
Keep falling in love, which is kinda the same.
I've sunk out at sea, crashed my car, gone insane.
And it felt so good, I wanna do it again.

So I walked under a bus, I got hit by a train.
Keep falling in love, which is kinda the same.
I've sunk out at sea, crashed my car, gone insane.
And it felt so good, I wanna do it again.

And I walked under a bus, I got hit by a train,
And it felt so good, I wanna do it again...

Hope you guys enjoyed the song ya ?

Ok I'm going to resume rotting le.

See ya guys !

2009-04-19T15:47:00.002+08:00

Hey... Weekly blog session.. Haha..

The theme for this week is sports week ! Haha don't ask me why the sudden urge to do sports, just feel like doing suddenly. Went to my office gym on Tuesday to have a good work out, went for midnight jogging on Wednesday night, and met Dudley and Ming Hui for squash at Dudley's place for a while on Thursday evening. After squash, we drove down to NUS to play some basketball, before picking up Ming Hui's cousin Chen Ying (I finally remember her name.. haha..) to have super nice and cheap supper at Sheares Hall (yes, the supper food there is really good, its in the canteen of Sheares Hall, and it only starts selling at 1130pm).

Friday was Graduation Day ! Well, not for me at least. Anna was graduating, and she invited me, Tong Chuan, Pei Shan and Karin Kai to go attend, so we went to SIM to attend her graduation. Met a lot of familiar faces at SIM who were graduating, such as Jas, Shikin, Evon, Wan Chien, Denyse, Jia Hui, Vanessa, and even Dinah. I also saw some who were still studying, such as Anthony, Jeaneatte, and Chew ! Haha, when I saw Chew I was damn happy. Its been such a long time since I last met him, so it was nice to see him after so long and catch up with him. And no, he hasn't changed a bit, be it the way he talks, or his looks. Haha.. Oh for those who don't know who's Chew, he's my closest buddy in my army life. While sitting around we saw Chiew Peng as well, and we had a short lunch with her. Apparently her brother was also graduating on that day, which was why she brought her parents to SIM that day to attend her brother's graduation. After lunch she went to give tuition, while Me, Karin, Tong Chuan, Pei Shan, and Anna made our way to Marina Square. On the way there though, we played with Anna's bear, amusing ourselves with it. The bear is super cute, and it was a gift from Anna's sister for her graduation. Still I guess we all had a lot of fun "abusing" the bear. Haha...

We caught the movie "17 again"at Marina Square, and its actually a pretty nice movie. Well I guess it was a good movie for me and Tong Chuan cause we've been thinking about this topic of "If only you could have another chance to re-write your life", and the basically the whole plot of the movie revolves around that notion, so I guess it was pretty meaningful to us. And this is super gay, but ya, I totally agree Zac Efron is the perfect guy in the world. Good looks, nice physique, good basketball skills, great dancing moves, nice voice... basically you get the picture right ? Haha.. After movie, we went to sing KTV at Suntec. It's the first time Anna actually went KTV wih us, and our mood that night was very high too. The only grey area of the whole day would be the fact that the karaoke system at Suntec's Kbox that night malfunctioned, and every song we chose would just end in the middle of every song, and skip to the next song. And every room was affected by this problem, so in the end, after half an hour of crappy KTV, we decided to leave, and luckily, while the other customers were arguing to the staff about the prices they had to pay, the manager understood that we just came in less than half an hour, and we managed to leave without paying a single cent. Haha...

Saturday was a pretty slack day, did not go out cause I was sick most of the day, had my weekly flu. Haha.. met Tong Chuan to go Republic Poly to play some badminton in a bid to get better, in the end it backfired, and I felt more shagged after playing. Haha.. after badminton I went home to rest.

Today is also another boring day. I've been at home since morning, and it'llbe like that for the whole of today. Can't stand a plan-less weekend. Everyone's just busy with their lifes recently, and I really want a short break from spending a lot of money every weekend just on clubbing and drinking. And yet, while my secondary and poly friends are mostly having their exams and mugging their lives away now till their papers, office colleagues are mostly clubbing or drinking at St James on weekends, something which I wanted a break from, hence explaining my plan-less weekends. If only I have a bicycle, cause I really really feel like cycling suddenly.. Cycling takes my mind off a lot of stuff sometimes, I'm not sure why, but it has the same effect as swimming, whereby I fully relax, and for that period of time, while I'm in the water, or on the bike feeling the wind pass me, nothing seems to matter at that point..

Heard this old song on radio recently, was never really drawn to this song, but I'm not sure why the sudden interest also, just find the song really meaningful.. The original version is by James Morrison, but because Imeem.com does not have the original version, I had to settle for this nice rendition by a lady. So hope you guys enjoy the song !

Pieces don't fit anymore - James Morrison

I've been twisting and turning
in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line
and watching it fall
You've been closing me in
closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading
and watching it all fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

You pulled me under
so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess
that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises
I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling
until all the feeling has gone

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Coz I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

2009-04-13T00:32:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Time for my weekly entry. Haha.

Anyway, because of Good Friday, I met up with Ben, Josh, Dudley, Ming Hui and Tim (yes Timothy Harris, the Aussie Ang Moh in our clique was back for a few days !) to go clubbing at St James on Thursday night. Was supposed to go to Double O, but I kind of convinced them to go to St James Powerhouse instead. GE friends were at Dragonfly drinking too, Ron, TT, Ash, Eric and Josh. Irene came later as well. Anyway had a fun night, the crowd was good, music was better, but most importantly, I guess there was room to dance and drinks to drink ! Haha... There was this particular waitress who was selling Tequila Shots, when Tim walked up to her and told her we wanted all 5 cups she was carrying, she opened her super big eyes to the max, and kept going "Really ?!, Really ?!" haha... It was super funny to see her expression... And she looks like some 16 yr old, even though in the end we found out she's actually 19, and that her name was Silver (yes, when I asked her for her name, and she said Silver, I tried to imitate her expression, and she was like "why ? what's wrong ??" Haha typical young and cute Ah Lian.. Haha..Anyway had a great night dancing away, pity it ended early cause the guys other than Ben and Me wanted to go home early. Still, I guess 3 plus to anyone is actually pretty late already..

Friday was a super rainy day. Still, the Marist guys once again did the impossible, meeting up for basketball in the afternoon even though we all clubbed last night.. And we even went to the extent of playing in the heavy rain ! Felt like th old days when we would play in the rain in our school uniform in school, not stopping for anything no matter how big the obstacle was.. haha.. Miss the old days really.. Anyway after movie we went to Ben's hse to wash up, before going to catch the movie "Fast and Furious 4". Basically, the movie is all about nice cars, hot chicks, and great racing action scenes. So, it lived up to all its expectations, and just like we all expected, there was no storyline. The storyline was flat, dead flat, but the racing scenes were out of the world, the cars are simple SWEEETTT, and the women are dead hot ! Haha...

Saturday was a pretty tiring day, had to go to work in the morning, met Tong after that to go to Bugis's new shopping centre to explore. The shopping centre is seriously B.O.R.I.N.G. There aren't many stores inside, and the structure just takes up too much space, without much stores. The arcade, however, is super nice, and the cinema is pretty cheap too. Other than that, everything else was pretty much sian. It was raining damn heavily too, so we had to run through the rain to go back to Bugis Junction to walk around. After that, I went home, had a pretty bad headache and fever, went to sleep super early and missed all my soccer matches which I wanted to watch that day.

Brought my family down to Tampines One, the new shopping centre today. Gave my mum my ATM to shop, and went to meet Ming Hui and Aaron to have lunch and walk around. Wanted to go to the new shop Uniqlo to shop, but the queue was just too disgustingly long, so the guys did not want to queue to go in. Oh well, I'll go another day when I have a day off or something. Anyway, ate our favourite Kim Gary for lunch, before we went to play basketball for a while, followed by swimming and chilling at the pool. Its been such a long time since I last swam, the feeling is awesome ! Haha..

Anyway its Siyi's Bday today ! Happy Bday Siyi aka Gong Zhu (nick name by me), aka Ah Dai (nickname by her sister Sihui and her Cousin Valerie Ng). Hope she has a wonderful birthday !

Ok la.. I'm shagged.. supposed to go jogging, but its too late le, think I'll jog tomorrow after work bah.. Health's been pretty bad lately too, keep coughing and sore throat, and occasional headaches and fever.. Haha.. Just Ken going to turn to Just SICK Ken soon.. Haha..

Ok gtg le.. blog another day..

See Ya !!!

2009-04-05T20:58:00.002+08:00

Hey.

I regret to say that this week nothing really exciting happened. That's because I'm sick. Hard to imagine me not going out because I'm sick right, since I'm like forever out even if I'm having fever. But this time, I think I'm truly beaten. Even flu didn't make me feel so shitty. I had sore throat. Not just any sore throat... I was literally voiceless. Ask Tong, ask my office colleagues, ask Val, ask Wan Chien, these are the people who have met me or talked to me on the phone since Wednesday when I went "MUTE" mode. Totally voiceless. Don't know why too, I just lost my voice suddenly. Was forcing myself to nearly shout when I was talking to customers on Thursday and Friday. Haha yes I did not take MC and went to work despite being voiceless. I'm not the sort to do so since it affects my incentive. Haha.

Anyway met Wan Chien and Val on Thursday to watch "Shinjuku Incident". Ronald, my office buddy, joined us as well. The movie is good. Not just good. I guess you can say its very good, because of 3 main points: a) The storyline itself as well as the meaning behind the story, 2) Jacky Chan's acting, 3) Daniel Wu's acting. Basically the plot of the movie is good, but it doesn't just end there. To bring out the movie's story, there were a few scenes which I felt brought out the essence of the movie, the turning points in the movie itself, and the meaning of the entire movie. The whole meaning of the movie is just to show how Human, despite being poor and helpless, are bonded and try their best to help out each other and look out for each other, to try to earn a living for each other as well. And yet, when given power, Humans act the exact opposite way, turning bad, do evil stuff, and betray each other. This is a simple theory about Humans, and yet, the scary part about it is that this theory is what's happening in our everyday lives, within us as well as the friends or people among us. Humans change, be it forced under circumstances or willingly, and no one will know how this change will turn out, and its scary to think that when people improve in their lives, more so than often, people turn worse instead of better. Anyway Jackie's and Daniel's acting in this show is seriously commendable. This is the first movie Jackie has to act as if he does not know how to fight, and without all his usual antics of playing with chairs or jumping around, he has to get beaten and try to fight back like a noob, which I think he did very well. Daniel, on the other hand, had to play out the "unlucky" person in the show which turns bad after the series of unfortunate events. I think he portrayed the role damn well, playing from the timid guy, to the guy who gets bullied, beaten, and even tortured at one point, before turning bad and trying to act brave and evil. In my opinion, he totally brought out the essence of the character. I think the only flaw of the movie was that there were a few scenes where most viewers would feel that the movie was very disoriented and it wasn't flowing as smoothly as it should be, and I even thought the director had cut off some scenes, thus making the movie less smooth than it should be. And there were a few characters whom I believe the viewers would wish they had shown more about them, such as Jackie's ex gf and current gf. Still, overall this movie is fantastic. Go catch it. A must-watch.

Met up with Ben, Dudley, Ming and Aaron to catch the movie Gran Torino on Friday. Ok, I must say this, I expected this movie to be full of senseless action. However, after the movie, I understood why this movie was so higly rated by those who have watched. It's because of the storyline of the movie itself. The story is trying to describe an old bitter man, hating everyone isn't white, and yet got closer to his new neighbours, whom are actually a race of people from Vietnam, and change his perspective of the people around him whom aren' white. It shows how he first detest and try to avoid them, to how he start to let them into his circle of life, befriends them, and helps out in their lives, as well as let them help him as well. The movie is called Gran Torino because of his car, which is actually a nice old sports car called the Gran Torino, and how it changed him as well as helped bonded him to this neighbours. Its hard to explain in words, but I felt the movie is something that doesn't appear or rather different from other movies. If you're looking for a meaningful movie should catch it. Its good. Haha.

After the movie we went to Dud's place to drink and chill (yep, I drank alcohol despite my sore throat, but it was just a bit only ! Haha), chit chat about life, women in general (not female generals..) and ex girlfriends as well as current ones (well, ex for me and Ben, current for Ming and Dud. haha..). Its always fun hanging out with this bunch of guys, cause its pretty much like the old days, where we can talk about anything and anyone under the sun, without any worry about offending anyone, or saying anything wrong. Haha.

Sat was more of a rest day for me. Went to the temple in Bishan to offer prayers to my grandma with my whole family. Was pretty sad because I did not really pray to her, due to the fact that Mum forgot to take something, so I had to run home and back to the temple, and when I finally reached, they were mostly done with the praying part and was almost going to burn the stuff they bought for her for praying. After that I went home and slept till night before I woke up for dinner. Haha. Did not go out on Saturday at all.

Went out today to meet Valerie, Wan Chien, Reykhana, Evon and Lincoln. Its been such a long time since I last met Rey, and we chatted for a while. Had ice cream and waffles at Citylink's Gelare too, and after Rey and Evon left, we went to Marina Square to play pool, and then watch Confessions of a Shopaholic. Okay, I have to say this first before I proceed. I did not want to watch this movie, we wanted to watch "Handsome Suit", but it was selling fast, so I had no other movie to watch except for this. I'll like to express I knew from the start that the movie is definitely a chick flick, and it would not be entertaining. True enough, the movie was right for my first point. But it was actually more entertaining than I thought it would be. Perhaps I had already judged the movie and deducted a lot of points from this movie, which was why after I watched it, I guess it wasn't as bad as I though it was, there were a lot of funny scenes in it too, and the love scene and storyline was still enjoyable. If you're a girl, you would DEFINITELY love this show. Guys, well, I'm not sure about you guys, so its a 50-50 chance for guys. Haha...

Oh ya, Russel Peter has a new video ! Its called Red, White and Brown, and Ming copied it to me on Friday. I watched it while on the bus home from Marina Square, and I was laughing out loudly(ok people who know me well enough will know I have this crazy and high pitch laughter which sounds like a hyena at times), so I couldn't control myself, I was laughing out loudly while watching it on my itouch, and after a while, I realised everyone on the bus was staring at me. I had that "oh-my-god-i-just-want-to-dig-a-hole-and-hide" moment, haha truly if you guys were there and you guys saw you guys would really laugh at me. Truly a classical embarrassment. Haha..

Anyway its Monday tomorrow, got to work again.. Damn.. Haha.. thankfully its a short week cause theres Good Friday coming up ! Woo hoo ! Pay's coming in too ! Kinda of overspend last month, time to save up for computer and Bday Holiday ! Yeah.. Haha..

Ok blog another day..

See ya !!!

2009-03-31T00:01:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Just wanted to blog. No reason for doing so. Just wanted to thrash out whatever was bothering me and go have a good night rest there after.

Teared last night while typing that blog entry about grandma. Can't believe I actually teared today too, but over a different reason.

Don't know why I'm feeling this way. Is this feeling right ? Should I feel this sadness ? Part of me is happy and yet sad to see the picture. The picture does paint a thousand words, but why is it affecting me so ? Why am I acting this way, feeling depressed all of a sudden ? Is this a normal feeling for someone like me ? Tong thinks so too, his explanation is logically correct, but is it truly as the way he said it ? Ben, Ming and Dud expressed their concern too, Thanks dudes, I'm fine.

Haven't cried this way for such a long time. Been able to express myself most cheerfully for quite some time, so I guess I'm pretty shocked I cried 2 nights in a row, but over different reasons. Its no big deal crying I guess, I'll probably "Haha" to everyone who chats with me now, and just try my best to sleep it away. No matter how sad or bad life seems, nothing seems to make me cry anymore, unlike the past. And that's the truth too, except for yesterday's recollection and the incident today. Should I even call it an incident ? Or is sighting a better word ? Or how about "finding"or "viewing of picture" ? Which ever word it is, I was affected nonetheless, but I'm too tired to keep it all in all the time, so I figured blogging it out would make this night an easier night to pass.

Tomorrow's another day. Like Tong said, Ming Tian Hui Gen Hao ( tomorrow will be a better day ). I'll make sure it is. Hopefully.

Damn. I need my holiday...

2009-03-29T23:29:00.005+08:00

Hey.

Saw my brother crying in his sleep just now. The youngest brother, Don, not the 2nd one. While consoling him and trying to get him to sleep, I found out through the process he was crying because he missed our sister, whom is at a school chalet gathering now and will only be back on Tuesday. Even at his young age, he constantly stressed on the point " She's coming back only on Tuesday !" while crying away. It made me remember about myself when I was much younger..

When I was younger, my family was much poorer, Dad was working as a store keeper at that time, while Mum had to work for the extra income to support the family. Therefore, I lived with my grandma at Ang Mo Kio (which is actually the place I'm living at now) during the weekdays when my parents are working and only go back to my own home on weekends. I remember during the Sundays Mum and Dad will bring me my grandma house at night, before quietly sneaking away so that I would not know. In the end, I would always end up crying, standing at the window and crying and shouting and asking for them to come back and not leave me here. I never understood why they left me that way, and as time passed I grew up closer to my grandma rather than my own Mum. During my primary school years, I had to shift back to my house because Mum quit her job so that she could educate me. But because I was much closer to my grandma, therefore I always requested to go back to my grandma's house to stay for the whole school holidays. In my memory me and Mom constantly quarrelled during Primary years. It was because I felt that my grandma was closer to me than her, and some part of me hated her at the beginning, so everytime she scolded or hit me, I would wish that the holidays could come sooner so that I could be with my grandma again. And everytime, after the holidays, when I had to go back to my own home, I would cry myself to sleep every night for the first week, because i really missed my grandma. Seeing my brother cry himself to sleep because he miss his sister made me remember this past. Truth to be told, throughout my growing up stages I was always closer to my grandma than my own Mum. Its probably only during secondary school years when I grew closer to my Mum. But still, my Mum and I both knew, that the most important person in my life at that point of time was Grandma.

Grandma passed away when I was in Sec 3. I was devastated. She had promised she would be there when I brought my first girlfriend home, my first pay check, my wedding, my first child etc. In fact, she also promised my cousins the same thing, for we were all close to her. Her death itself shook all of us, and one week later, my auntie had a dream. In the dream my grandma appeared and asked her to pass messages to us all. My grandma told my auntie to ask me to take care of my mum, something which she would always tell me when she was alive. I guess after my grandma's death I decided to fulfill my grandma's wishes, which was to take care of my mum. It was probably why I started to get closer to Mum, and till now, she's the closest person to me in the family now.

A year after Grandma passed, Don Yeo came to this world. To tell u the truth, the whole family felt he had my grandma's lips and eyes when he was first born. Everyone felt he looked like Grandma to some extent. And truth is, just like my grandma, he's the one who connects us together and makes us closer.

Ok, enough of old memories. I got to go catch some sleep soon.

See ya...

2009-03-26T00:41:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Surprised to see this early blog entry ? Haha its just a random post, no meaning or story behind what-so-ever.

Just a simple thought, a simple expression:

Humans, when young as children, were fiesty and daring.
Nothing could stand in their way, no matter how many canes or belts were in their way.
It was as if they could care about nothing in the world, to try everything, and fight for everything they always wanted.

But the older Humans get, the fire in them is put out bit by bit, the daredevil transforms into a timid mouse, and every single small thing would provide a huge obstacle in their paths. Humans start to care about everything, and try nothing. They would hide away from trying to get the things they want, and provide a thousand reasons to justify their cowardice.

What happened to the fire ? Where did the guts run to ? When did we learn how to spell "EXCUSES", and who taught us to reject defeats of trying and accept the thought of regret ?

If only when needed, the Human dared, to try, to do, to run, to say, to love, to hate, to think, to let go. The tricky phrase, "If only", and the trick word, "dare".

I end this blog entry by something I read on an email;

"Life is Short;
Break the rules;
Forgive Quickly;
Love truly;
Laugh Constantly;
and never stop smiling.

Life is not the party you always expect it to be, but as long as we are here, just smile and be grateful.

Cheers..

2009-03-22T23:22:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Time for the weekly blog update. Frankly a bit tired today, so I'll try to make the entry shorter than usual..

Anyway went out with my family to Vivo for a family outing. Mum wanted it cause the kids were having their school holidays, so we decided to go out to "walk walk", and we chose Vivo in the end cause Mum only went there once or twice since it opened till now. Haha. Anyway it's been a long while since we went out as a family, and it was pretty enjoyable.

Met Ming and Ben to go to Adidas Sale at Expo. Freaking packed with lots of teenagers( damn the school holiday..), saw 2 very nice designs of shoes, but they did not have my sized, in the end settled for a pretty plain but nice to me design. And it cost $50 ! Think the original price was about $80+ ? Was looking for a white Adidas sweater, but the only design they had there had nice red Adidas stripes as well as an ugly picture of Steven Gerrard's face at the front of the sweater. Haiz. After the sale Me and Ming went to meet Aaron to catch the movie "Paul Blart, Mall Cop". Super funny show, was laughing like a freaking hyena during the movie, and I realised I have this serious problem about laughing. I laugh like a hyena ! Haha.. I think if there was going to be another Lion King movie I can actuallly audition to be the voice over for one of the hyenas. Super unglam laughter style. Haha. Anyway its a nice comedy, go watch it if you want a good laugh. Haha. After movie, Ming drove to Hougang for Punggol Nasi Lemak as supper. Nice food, but very badly over-priced. And crazy queue too.Haha.

Celebrated Anna's birthday for her on Saturday afternoon. We went to The Pizza Place, had pizza lunch, and although I thought the pizza was better than the ones at Pizza Hut, I guess the others felt the opposite. I kind of dropped my potato wedge into Kai Kit's drink by accident, and I nearly did a "Chiew Peng" (she likes to cry while laughing when its very funny". I guess the rest had a shock when they saw me drop the wedge into Karin's (yes its Karin, not Karine.. later spell wrongly she will scold me again haha) drink. Haha. After lunch we went to PS's Swensens and had ice cream. We kind of pulled a Birthday Present trick on her, and she teared too (she said she was touched, I thought our trick was too evil..I felt damn guilty when she started crying). After ice cream they went to watch their movie while I went to Hazel's house.

Met up with Hazel, and then went to meet Zhen at Vivo to celebrate Hazel's birthday. Steph as usual did not turn up (why was I not surprised..). We had dinner at Kim Gary, before heading to Dragonfly to sing a few songs at Mono Bar. Met Teng Tuon, Ronald, and Zhi Wei(TT's friend) at Mono Bar too. Had a drink or two, sang a few songs, before meeting up with Zhen's friend, Clarence, and his buddies to club. Met up with Edwin and his clubbing gang as well. Benjamin came down too, and we danced at the dance floor for a while. Oh ya while at the club I saw Gui Hua too. Super surprised to see her there. Haha.. Anyway to sum it up all, nice club, lots of people, lots of non-Chinese too, so-so music last night, and a lot of drinking activites. Haha.. Hazel got pretty high too, left the club at about 2 plus, send Hazel home before struggling to my doorstep( was pretty tipsy also due to the high amount of drinking activites).

Practically slept thru the whole of today, met up with Cheng Jin for dinner at The Pizza Place ( yes, the same place as Saturday, only because both of us like the Pizza there). After dinner, we went to Starbucks for cake and coffee, and chatted about our individual lives. His life sounds fun cause he's living in hall, while my life is probably the most mundane life that most 23 year olds would hate to lead, and it somewhat makes me feel like a mid-life crisis, working and thinking most of the time of family stuff haha.. Really wierd thinking for a 23 year old guy. Haiz. Haha..

Anyway tomorrow its back to work, and I really hate this feeling. Wish I had longer weekends.. Haha...

Meeting Karin, "Nanny Teo", and Tong Chuan for movie on Thursday. So far that's my only plan for this week, lets hope other plans come up soon..

Gtg le.. Need my precious sleep.. Haha.. Nites peeps !

2009-03-16T22:44:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Sorry for not blogging yesterday. Was sick and tired and yesterday, and I've been sick over the past few days as well. Been having an on-off fever over the weekend, and suddenly had cough yesterday after going out. Haha.

Anyway, watched Watchmen on last Friday with Tong. Frankly, I don't really want to comment on that movie because I think the movie is not as good as everyone expects. Abit overated, but the catch would probably be that the movie is not just any other super hero movie, its portayed in a more abstract and artistic manner. It shows the different view of the superheros life, them being outcasted by the world, trying to lead mid-life crisis, wanting to be superheroes one last time etc. Its totally different from the average Superman or X-Men show. I would say its more of in a "dark" manner than the average "kids-just-like-to-watch-and-adore" superhero movie.

Saturday was clubbing day. But before that, I met Tong in the afternoon to go Kbox. Seriously enjoying singing, especially on days when you don't feel right. Had fun singing with Tong, even though my singing isn't that great to start with. After that, I met TT, Ron and Ashley at Dragonfly for the Liverpool and Manchester United match. Still hurts to say this, but yes, the result is fixed, Liverpool thrashed Man U 4-1. The word used here is "thrashed". Super disappointed at that point of time, but I guess soccer isn't everything in this world. Benjamin joined us for the match as well, and after the match we went to Powerhouse to club. Met Zhen and Edwin and their clubbing clique a while later, and got to know Zhen's guy friend Kendrick. Ok looking chap, but at the age of 18, you could say he's damn tall. Anyway Edwin also introduced 2 of his female friends to us, Danica and Noelle. Friendly people too, just that they look older than their age ( they're 20 by the way), and Danica has a super bad habit of trying to keep making people drink. Plus, she dances well, though Benjamin has another word to describe her dancing. Haha.

Met Tong, Aaron, Peiyi, Chiew Peng, and Grace for the movie "Coming Soon". 3 short comments about the movie 1) Really scary movie at times, 2) The ghost is very scary looking, and its been a long while we've seen such a scary looking ghost, and 3) You will ask yourself if the movie is scarier, or the movie within the movie is scarier. Don't understand what I'm saying ? Then go catch the movie. Haha.

Anyway uploaded two nice but not-very-new English songs into my playlist. I'm quite stucked on them, so hopefully you peeps, if anyone even reads my blog anymore, hopefully you, the reader, yes you, will enjoy the songs ya ?

Oh ya watched Dragonball with my colleague Joshua and Ming Hui. Seriously, the story sucks, the fighting scene is worse, but the probable only catch would be the female cast who acts as Chi Chi. She's super hot, and she's damn familiar too. Looks a lot like the girl who acted as Cho Chang in Harry Potter, wonder if she is or not ? Haha..

Ok la, still feeling shag and abit sick, shall go and rest early tonight, though I'll probably be lying on the bed and doing some thinking. Haha..

To the reader, thank you for reading, its been very kind, and yes, unfortunately, you're probably the rare only person actually reading this entry. So, thanks a lot for even bothering about my life updates. Ok a very random note right ? Haha..

See ya !

2009-03-08T22:26:00.003+08:00

Hey. Time for my weekly blog. Haha.. was supposed to blog just now in the afternoon but I've been lazing around till now..

Met up with Ming, Ren and Benjamin for the movie "Push" at The Cathy. On the way there I saw Tabitha, but did not really stop to chat with her cause we were rushing for the movie. Anyway, the movie's not as good as it seemed in the trailer. Its a movie with a very flat storyline, and its basically just for the graphics and fight scenes as well as the special effects from the characters of the movie. It would have been much better if there was a wider range of powers displayed in the show. Haha..

Went to Dragonfly with my office colleagues, Ronald, Irene, Eric, Ashley and TT after work. Drsgonfly's a pretty nice place, its more of a live-band club, with less dancing and more hearing of songs. The live-band plays Chinese and Canto music too, but the band can perform some pretty good songs. Because Powerhouse was playing house music on Friday night, and Ronald doesn't enjoy dancing much, we ended up spending most of the time in Dragonfly. I guess its an eye opener, and people who enjoy nice Chinese and Canto songs should actually try going to dragonfly to see for themselves. The crowd there is mostly made up with the older generation of people, or rather, the define range would be the working class adults to the mid-life adults. Still, after 1 plus, more youngsters came in as well. Overall, its more of a chill out place then a club.
We hanged around till 5 plus, before going to McDonald's for breakfast, and then going home. I wanted to save on cab fare, and in the end, took a bus home. In the end, I missed the first bus, waited 45 mins ( yes, I'm not exaggerting, the 2nd bus took 45 bloody minutes), then overslept on the bus, and officially reached home at 8am ( I started waiting for the bus at 615am).

After a good sleep, I met Tong Chuan to go to Bugis to get a bag for him and me. He did not manage to find the bag for himself, but I found one leather bag for myself for work purposes. After that, we went to Vivo to have dinner at Kim Gary. Bought a nice metal strap watch, its a cheapo watch compared to the ones that you usually buy, but I like the design a lot, so I got it for myself. Haha.. Food at Kim Gary was good too, and I think Tong enjoyed the food as well. After dinner, Tong left while I met up with Ming and Benjamin to go down to St. James for another round of clubbing night (yes, St. James again, 2 nights in row clubbing at the same place). Josh and Dudley was late, but while waiting for them, we danced a lot. Drank a bit too, but I felt super happy cause its been so so long since I last clubbed and danced so much. Haha.. the crowd was good at first, but after 12, a lot more people came in, and the place started to get damn packed. Met Zhen and Edwin too, and had a few drinks with them, before dancing away with Zhen. Josh and Dudley came around 1 too, and we all drank together. Took some photos as well, but its on Dudley's cam, so we got to wait for him to upload. We clubbed till about 3, before deciding to head home. Zhen asked us to come next Saturday too, but I got a gathering with Chiew Ping's gang, so I might or might not go, if I do go it'll prob be just me and Ben, but we'll be going late, probably after I'm done with Chiew Ping's gang. Haha...

Seriously clubbing over 2 days is threatening to the body, aching all over this afternoon when I woke up. Still, I miss this feeling, its been such a long time since I danced and drank like that, and I really enjoyed it, no matter how stupid I look when I dance (ya I look stupid when I dance, but I cant be bothered too..haha).

Ok.. I got to go sleep soon, blog another day. Not sure if anyone still reads this crap of a blog anymore, but still, to all those who do read, have a great week ahead !

2009-03-01T21:00:00.004+08:00

Hey.

Haha I've seriously make this blog a weekend blog for the week. Haha.. oh well, when I become less lazy than I'll blog more bah.

Anyway this week is the movie week ! Haha.. watched a lot of movies since last week. On Wednesday, I took half day leave to go cut hair and meet Aaron, Ming Hui and Benjamin for "The Wrestler". Before I comment on the movie, I would like to say that my hair is super short and ugly now ! The barber made it look nice, but he left my fringe longer, then I sort of "Geh Kiang", and asked him to cut it shorter, so now my whole head is short and ugly.. Haha. Ok back to the movie. Basically The Wrestler is more of an art-house fim, the story is presented in a more abstract manner, displaying the life of the main character as a washed-out wrestler, old, and yet still trying to live the dream. It portrays the life of all wrestlers in the world now, the things they do on the and off the ring itself, as well as their life outside their job, the problems they face and the issues they have to go through. Its really quite a meaningful show, especially for all wrestling fans out there, and I guess the main focus of the show has to be the fact that although the main character is stopped by illness, he pushed himself further, because that is his life, that he lives for that moment, the moment that the all the fans cheer his name one last time.. Quite a good movie, but if you're not a Wrestling fan you might not like it. Haha.

On Friday, we met up with Anna, Denyse, Karin Kai, Tong Chuan and Birthday girl Pei Shan for dinner at Sakae Sushi (by the way Karin Kai is Kai Kit, just that I call her that nowadays). We did a lot of funny stuff at Sakae, and took a few videos too. Unfortunately, I'm too lazy to upload the videos into my com, so when I do I'll send you guys the vids ya ? Haha. Anyway after dinner we took a few photos, before going to The Cathy to watch "Marley and Me". The movie is good, really really good ! Haha. I din't expect it to be so good, there were a lot of funny scenes and touching scenes as well. The movie is basically about a man, who just got married, wanting to avoid the "children" issue, and so bought a dog for his wife, to take her mind off children. The story then progresses to them actually starting a family, having children, work problems, relationship problems, as well as dog problems. The last scene is especially touching, and I think almost 3/4 of the cinema actually cried. I was tearing away, but I realised the guy beside me was damn funny. This guy, he's much bigger and taller than me, so when the last scene came about, his gf started to cry, so I overheard him consoling her, but the next thing I know, I started to hear him weep. Yes, the word is "Weep". He cried, and he made crying sounds. I think I almost laughed out loud. Haha. Anyway good movie. People who love their pets, please watch the movie. Oh yah, the movie kind of got me thinking about my own life and future. I realised that was my plan in life too, like get married with my future girlfriend, then get a dog or a cat, before having kids and have the kids get accustomed to the dog or cat. I realised I've never considered about the problems the dog or cat might bring to the family while you're building it, and the show actually showed the typical issues that will arise, so I guess it really got me prepared mentally somehow for what's to come in the future. Still, my "wife" in the future might not be an animal-lover, so its still a pretty much far-fetched idea. Haha.

Saturday started off pretty bad. Miss "Piggy" Wong Lai Yee fulfilled her promised and tried to wake me up to go work, but I went back sleep, and thus reached office late. Still, working on a Saturday morning was seriously tiring. Haha. After work, I met Aaron to watch Role Model. Yes, its a movie again. Haha.. I'll like to confess here, that I'm a really really really movie-addict. So hopefully my girlfriend in the movie likes to watch a lot of movies too. Haha. Ok, before I go on, I'll like to let Denyse know that, Denyse, you're right, I'm a movie critic. Haha. Ok, anyway Role Model is a basic guy movie, something like American Pie and Euro Trip, all guys out there are bound to find it super funny and entertaining at the same time, and the movie is seriously funny. There are a lot of funny scenes in it, and its been a long time since I watched such a movie. Haha.

Met Ronald last night at AMK Hub too. Wanted to watch "Slumdog Millionaire", but it wasn't airing anymore at AMK Hub, so we went to Kbox for some Karaoke action. Haha.. seriously, 2 guys, 4 hrs of singing, its really really tiring. We got to a point whereby we decided to try all the hard songs and I was just "jia ying" all the way. Haha.

Met Ming Hui, Aaron and Shi Min for super american breakfast today. It was at this place called Dan Ryan, and the breakfast they offered was actually more of a "brunch", but the portion is seriously big, and very much filling too, though the price was quite ex, $23 for a nice breakfast. After the meal, we went to Cineleisure to play "Left 4 Dead". Basically its something like Counter-Strike, except your enemies are zombies instead of humans. Haha... and theres a lot of zombies to kill too. Haha. After the movie I went home to nua.

Anyway weather's really bad in the day for the past 2 days, but its pretty shiok to sleep in the night due to the rain. Hehe.

Ok after all the updates for the week, time for some reflection of myself and life. Something's been bothering me, making me moody at times, and no matter how much I think about it, nothing's changing for the situation. Ronald was telling me last night that I've been thinking too much, and doing too less. But I can't seem to find any motivation at all to do anything. And as humans grow older, I also realised over the week of thinking that I've becomes less motivated to do anything. Perhaps in the past I did not really brood over this issue so much, so I also wonder why I'm brooding over this issue for so long. Hopefully I can just lock up this issue and stop thinking about it. Haha.

Ok... time for the weekly song recommendation ! Haha.. basically I realised my blog is all about my life, my movies, and my music. Haha, so this part is the song part. The song recommended today is 走音 - 黃靖倫. This song is super meaningful, its hard to explain why, you guys got to hear it and read the lyrics to understand it. Haha.

走音 - 黃靖倫

虽然没车能接送你
海角天边都陪你去
送了一个小惊喜
忙几星期你眼中有小星星

你不开心就抱紧你
你有话说我就安静
为你改好了个性
磨平脾气才晓得默契会飘移

你的爱情在走音
变成另一个旋律
我还在执迷拼了命去合音
你像下雪的表情
是会过完的冬季
我把心划成火柴却看见漆黑的梦境

听见爱情在走音
痛是太长的抖音
我不爱煽情但双唇抖个不停
本来幸福的主题
怎麽唱成了悲剧
选错歌唱再用心也无力

对街狂奔大喊爱你
拥挤捷运流下泪滴
这个疯狂的自己来自哪里
我已经不懂我自己

你的爱情在走音
变成另一个旋律
我还在执迷拼了命去合音
你像下雪的表情
是会过完的冬季
我把心划成火柴却看见漆黑的梦境

听见爱情在走音
痛是太长的抖音
我不爱煽情但双唇抖个不停
本来幸福的主题
怎麽唱成了悲剧
选错歌唱再用心也无力...

Haha.. ok hope you peeps enjoy the song..

Man U vs Tottenham for the Carling Cup Championship. Go Man U !!!

Ok blog another day.

See ya !!

2009-02-22T22:52:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Haha.. sorry for not blogging for the whole week. I've just been super lazy so I decided to blog only when I have something to say or if something happens or over the weekend. Haha..

Thursday was Mum's Birthday. Brought the whole family to Streets of Shokudo (hope its spelt correctly) for a nice Japanese dinner. The place has a lot of variety of Japanese food, but the price is a bit expensive for some people. Still, the food taste good. Haha.. Think we all enjoyed the dinner, especially Mom. The funny thing was, there were 3 ladies sitting near us, and they kept discussing if I was the Father of the family ! I actually heard them saying "How come the father so young ?" and "Is he really the father ?" Haha.. my sis got a bit irritated by it at the end, so before she left, she said loudly "Kor, lets go", and I just followed her. Haha..

Anyway on Friday, I met up with Anna, Pei Shan and Tong Chuan to shop for Denyse's and Kai Kit's present. After that we had dinner, and chatted and joked around. We also took some photos with their present. Some of the photos look damn lame as well. Haha..

Met Tong on Saturday afternoon for "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button". Its really a good movie, because the story line is very unique and the way the movie plays out is excellent as well. There were some funny scenes, as well as some touching scenes, but the overall movie itself clearly is an Oscar-winning film, and I'm damn sure with Brad Pitt's acting he definitely deserves a nomination, if not the Award itself for best Actor.

I also met up with Kai Kit and Pei Shan today for the movie K20. I think the movie is not bad, with a lot of funny scenes, and most of the time Takeshi Kaneshiro's role is of a more comical person. The overall movie had some action scenes as well, although it would have been better if Takeshi had more fight scenes. Still, overall its a very comical yet entertaining show. The twist at the end is good too, cause it will leave you guessing who is K20 actually.

2 good movies in a weekend. And there's still some more to go. I really want to watch Slumdog Millionaire and The Wrestler, cause the review for both is actually quite good, and I also have other movies which is coming out soon and I would definitely want to catch, such as Push, Unborn, Role Models, The Watchmen, Race to Witch Mountain, Paul Blart; Mall Cop, and Coming Soon. Coming Soon is actually a highly rated horror film for the creators of Shutter, Alone and 4Bia, so I believe this movie is definitely going to be a good horror movie. Haha..

Oh by the way, it was Karin Wong Kai Kit's birthday on Saturday, and Denyse Heng's Bday on Monday. Just wishing them a Happy Birthday, and hope all wishes come true for them. Pei Shan's birthday is coming up next Friday as well. Haha this is the Birthday week for them. Haha.. will blog more when I meet them on Friday night.

See ya !

2009-02-15T23:08:00.014+08:00

Hey.

Had a boring weekend, except for the fact that I met up with Guen, Sam, Sam's Bf, Cheng Jin, Ngak and Long for lunch on Saturday. It was organised as a gathering for everyone to meet up with Guen just before she leave for Aussie on Thursday. We had lunch at The Pizza Place at Raffles City, and I'll like to make a comment that the pizzas there are really nice ! Well, I felt it was much better than most of the pizzas that I've been eating all this while. Haha. It was also nice catching up with Guen and Sam and the guys, its really been such a long time since I last saw them.

Oh, on Friday, I met up with Hazel and Zhen and Bryan. Its been a long long long time since I last saw Hazel and Zhen, and I seeeeriously miss hanging out with them. We had a not-so-nice dinner at Billy Bombers at The Cathy. The only interesting thing about dinner was probably the view of all the COUPLES walking around with flowers, despite the fact that V-Day was on Saturday. Bryan also cracked a joke saying it was a double-date for all 4 of us, and we kept laughing about it. Haha. After dinner, we walked around town, before finding a place to drink. Ice Cold Beer was really too crowded, so we went to the back of Centrepoints where there were a lot of pubs. In the end we decided to drink at The Wine Bar, which was actually pretty cheap ( cause we drank Apple Cider), and yet the ambience was very very good (very very ATAS).

Zhen and Hazel, Our "Double-Dates"

Bryan, Zhen, Me and Hazel

Looking Super ATAS ! Haha.

Haha, anyway the rest of the pics are on Facebook. I'm just super lazy to upload them, and its been a really long long while since I last uploaded photos on my blog. Haha.

Anyway weekend's over, and its time to work. I guess I don't like working life, no matter how easy I can adapt to any kind of life, but hey, who likes working ? Its just that sometimes, my life feels that it moved on too fast too soon, I'm feeling like some father figurine now, paying most of the bills of the family. Yes, I look old, but my heart's still too young, and sometimes I really feel old. But its probably for the best for me, if not I would never mature and start growing up anyway. Haha.

Ok, sleep time. 9 hours more before I start calling crappy Singaporeans again. Haha.

Blog again.

Nite Peeps XD

2009-02-11T21:16:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Just celebrated Tong's Birthday recently. Hope he enjoyed everything and that he liked his presents ! Haha...

Nothing much to comment about life recently, its been the same-old boring life, but I realised over this week that I've been living like that for too long a time. I'm starting to get irritated by the things I do or don't do sometime, the things I say and don't say, my actions and even my thoughts. Basically I think I'm under-going a stage of self-realisation and self-assessment, and I came out with the results of me failing every single aspect of what I wanted to improve about myself. Therefore I'm trying to convince myself that I need changes, I want changes, I welcome changes. Of course, when I'm talking about changes I don't mean change from bad to worse, or worse habits. I guess I just want to improve certain things about myself, so as to improve my life a bit.

Oh ya, Valentine's Day is just around the corner. I actually have nothing much to write about V.Day, except that as usual i'm date-less, don't think there will be any arrangement, and I plan to come home after Guen's lunch gathering. I guess there's nothing special to look forward to. Ronald did ask me to go out on that day to sing KTV, but somehow it wasn't what I wanted to do on that day. And what I was hoping for is already out of the question, so I guess its Home sweet Home for me.

Anyway Mom told me something just now. She doesn't want me to worry about it, but I guess its totally impossible to take it off my mind once I heard it. Its hard to ask me not to hate that man cause everything we're going through now somehow has something to do with him and his "plan". Its never the time to play the Blame Game, I guess everyone made mistakes, and everyone is still trying their best to make things better for the situation, but I don't want to see "her" still suffering at this age. Sometimes I really wonder if all this was a test, or perhaps something to make me stronger and be a better person. And, I guess I'm damn thankful that I was born with this "gift", the ability to somehow live through everything and adapt to everything that comes along, never rigid with anything and forever trying my best to smile. Haha.

Ok enough of the above not-so-happy stuff. I guess I'm becoming more of a Lin Jun Jie fan, cause I'm kind of addicted to another of his songs, Always Online. Its not really as meaningful as the other songs, or have any special meaning or direct impact on my life, but I guess I like the melody of the song, and I find it very catchy. Well, at least catchy enough to keep running in my head. Here's the lyrics of the song though, hope you guys enjoy it ya ?

Ok enjoy the song and I'll blog again another time. When I'm less lazy. Haha.

Always Online - 林俊杰

变色的生活任性的挑拨
疯狂的冒住了头
单方的守侯试探的温柔
还是少了点什么
遥远两端爱挂在天空飞
风停了也无所谓
只因为你总说
Everthing wiill be okay

准备好了 three two one
I'm always online
和你one to one
爱开始扩散
我们连结了穿越天空银河 oh~~
开始倒数 three two one
删除我的孤单
more and more尽是深刻
爱亮了爱笑了 I'm always online

变色的生活任性的挑拨
疯狂的冒出了头
单方的守侯试探的温柔
却还是少了点什么
遥远两端爱挂在天空飞
风停了也无所谓
只因为你总说
Everthing Will Be okay

我准备好了 three two one
I'm always online
和你one to one
爱开始扩散
我们连结了穿越天空银河 oh~~
开始倒数 three two one
删除我的孤单
more and more尽是深刻
爱亮了爱笑了 I'm always online

准备好了 three two one
I'm always online
和你one to one
爱开始扩散
我们连结了穿越天空银河 oh~~
开始倒数 three two one
删除我的孤单
more and more尽是深刻
爱亮了爱笑了 I'm always online

爱亮了爱笑了 I'm always online...

2009-02-05T00:49:00.002+08:00

Hey

Just heard this song on the radio, I know its not very new, but I really like the song. Decided to add 3 new songs to my playlist, and this time I'll be introducing this song first. Its called 大男人小女孩 by JJ Lin Jun Jie. Its quite soothing, with the soft music at the background, and the lyrics tell a thousand tales （or so I think haha). Enjoy the song !

大男人，小女孩 - 林俊杰

不是我的错我们都听过
完美的时候要更多
找这时候说的太多
有时候的我
只想和你一样沉默
不想单单罗罗嗦嗦
水也灭不掉的火

也许大男人真的很男人
少了点风度还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错的
不想借口只是直接一天说
有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀
遗憾的遗留变成勉强了
怎么能重新再来...

Hope you guys enjoy the song ！

2009-02-04T21:08:00.002+08:00

Hey !

Sorry for not blogging for such a long time. Was quite busy over the past few days, or rather, weeks. Haha.. Actually I'm lazy to blog also. Haha.. Anyway life has been pretty much the same over the weeks that I haven't blog, just some minor updates..

Firstly, I got myself a new phone. Yes, due to the fact, and a very sad fact, that I lost my phone which I still miss sometimes now, I got myself another phone, Sony Ericsson C902. Its not much of a news for those friends who see me often, but for the benefit of those who don't, yep, I lost the old "Chui" phone and got myself a better phone.

Secondly, a sign, or an evidence to show how small Singapore can really be, I found my old neighbour, Serene, through Kai Kit ! Seems that she's Kai Kit classmate and school buddy in SMU, and I happen to browse through Kai Kit's facebook photos, and saw someone awfully familiar. I guess I was quite surprised to find her too, cause ever since I shifted from my first house, Tanjong Rhu, to Tampines, me and my mum kind of lost contact with her and her mom. Who would know that we would share the same friend few years later ? Haha.. Singapore is indeed small...

Oh ya, had a wonderful Chinese New Year too ! Haha I guess although it wasn't as fun as the past Chinese New Years, the experience was still good, and it was also a long while since I last met my cousins as well. Also went to a couple of friends houses to "Pai Nian", including Ming Hui, Aaron, Shi Min, Valerie, and even Fabius ! Haha a different new year, but still fun. Haha.

Yesterday met Val and Wan Chien for lunch at Manhatten. Ordered this wierd fish and chip, Alaskan something. I totally did not like the taste of that fish, and neither did Val and Wan Chien. Haha. I guess the 3 of us had never tried such kind of fish before, and never will again. Haha. Seafood Platter for 2 was, as usual, delightful. After work, I met Sihui for simple McDonald dinner before going to Far East for Gelare's Tuesday Waffles. Haha... seriously I can really go every Tuesday for waffles and Ice Cream, but the only thing standing in front of me and preventing me from doing so is my ever-growing tummy, which, of no surprise to the million (ok million is exaggerating, its just the close ones, I don't even have a hundred friends !) friends out there, has grown larger. I guess if they used to call my tummy a tummy of "3 mths old", den I think the tummy has grown 1 mth older. Haha...

Met Ms Karine Wong Kai Kit for dinner today (yep, she has adopted a Christian name called Karine, cause her chinese name initials are K.K so she wanted another K name) at Long John Silver. Catched up with her abit about life, before going home while she went for her Band Practise. She's like forever tied up with Band practice nowadays, so to talk to her is a rarity, as rare as abalone for lunch everyday. To actually meet her, would be comparable to a lunar eclipse, which coincidentally, just happened a week ago on the first day of Chinese New Year, (ok, I'm being lame here. Pardon my ice-cold lameness =x ). Haha..

Work's getting boring nowadays, but thankfully during working hours I have a great bunch of colleagues who plays and be lame during office hours, thus making life much easier to live with at work. Performance for this month is pretty bad and nowhere near to what I expect from myself, but then again, its just the start, and I've really slacked a lot as compared to where I first came in, so I guess its time I really buck up. Haha. My wish is still to go overseas on a short trip, and come this May, if I'm really not going to be able to go Aussie with the guys, then I'll definitely make sure I go to Malaysia or Bangkok with the Poly Peeps (yep, Chiew Peng, we put this trip on hold since last year le, time to make it real. Haha..) if possible during my birthday or before my birthday. Haha.. I really really need a holiday, a break from life so to speak, and if the far Outback doesn't want me (or rather if I can't save up by then la haha), den "Truly Asia" or "Asia's Cheapest Shopping Paradise" will just have to settle for me. Haha..

Have yet to meet Zhen and Hazel during this Chinese New Year period, going to arrange a meet up soon. Tong Chuan's Bday is coming le ! Hopefully he will like the present this year, and its a good present, just whether he will like it at first look or not. Haha..

Ok blog another day...

2009-01-17T03:24:00.002+08:00

Hey.

First blog entry of year 2009, and already I'm going to start be-moaning about my bad luck. Haha.. I broke my specs 2 days ago on the day I took leave to rest, and I had to replace the frame. Today, I went to watch movie with my colleagues, fell asleep in the cinema, and dropped my phone. Dropping the phone was really a wake up call I guess cause I really felt damn unlucky to spoil my specs so near to Chinese New Year, and then I had to lose my phone. I don't understand if its just because I'm plain unlucky or plain careless. Haiz. The most saddening part, I guess, has to be the fact that the phone was from her. So no matter how spoilt the phone got I did not want to change a phone. I guess after I lost the phone, on the way home, I really felt very empty. This phone has been with me since the day she gave it to me as a present, when we broke up, when I got together with Pei Zhen, after I broke up with Pei Zhen, till now, so this phone has been really a part and parcel of my everyday life, and suddenly losing it made me feel super empty, especially since it was one of the rare items that I still have which she gave me. The keychain on the phone has a special meaning too, but I guess now that everything is lost I guess my life is back to square one.

I know it sounds damn absurd, but when I was walking home, I start to remember how I first got this phone. Sab and I searched most shops for another phone but could not find it and in the end Sab bought me this phone instead to cheer me up. I think of all the memories I had with this phone, the happy memories, the sad memories, the angry memories, as well as the funny memories. I miss the phone. But most importantly, I miss my past..

2008-12-30T21:52:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Had a really wierd Christmas this year. I guess you can call it an event of mixed emotions. From the start till the evening I was really unhappy, troubled by a lot of things running through my mind. I guess "unhappy" is just one word to sum it up all. More defined would could be disappointed at something, angry at some people, upset with the situation, and even let-down by some people. After I met Val and Wan Chien for dinner, it kind of got a bit better. After dinner, met Tong and proceeded to the hotel to meet Qiu Ping, Pei Yi, Grace, Evon, Zhi Wei, Cai Wen and Bryan. I guess the night was fun, but tiring, due to the fact that I had a long day at work, even on Christmas Eve. But still, overall, the experience was pretty unique and nice.

The past few days have been quite hectic, trying my best to score as high as possible, and at the same time trying to sort out my thoughts. I guess year 2009 is coming, and I really want to start afresh this year. I guess its really hard to let go of certain things, but then again, dreams are just dreams, and thankfully, I guess its not that hard cause there was always a reason all along to stop me from dreaming in the first place. I just chose to ignore the reason all this while.

Anyway found a super nice song. Told Ronald about it and he say I like to say everything is super nice when its only nice, not super nice. Haha. Sounds just like what Tong will always say me. Haha. Ok back to the song. Its one of 罗志祥's new song, called 幸福不灭. I really like the lyrics a lot, its actually quite touching to some extent. Don't trust me ? Haha.. ok.. listen to it and judge it yourself. Don't forget to read the lyrics too:

幸福不灭 - 罗志祥

没原因就是喜欢你
在初次相遇有重逢的心情
深呼吸让心动隐形
完美的爱情是无声的旋律

听我听你不确定的语气
等我等你放下你的犹豫
嘿如果你轻轻闭上眼睛
我会明白你做的决定

Cause I Believe
那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地
守着你祝福不用回音

没原因就是喜欢你
就像海眷恋天空般的心情
你前进看着你背影
就足够世界无条件的放晴

你如果已爱上他的姓名
爱如果已没有我的空隙
嘿只要你可以永远开心
我会情愿渐渐被忘记

Cause I Believe
那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地
守着你把祝福送给你....

Oh~ I believe...
Cause I believe
那幸福不灭的定律
你的手心不一定要由我握紧
就像恒星总会有发光的原因...

Oh~ I believe

你值得被珍惜...

也值得我放弃...

Enjoy the song k !

2008-12-23T00:20:00.003+08:00

Hey.

Christmas is coming. Three more days. Don't know what to expect this Christmas, but I know my wish this year will definitely be brought to next year. Don't ask what wish it is, it's not really important anymore.

Nowadays I'm more pre-occupied by a certain question. I really really want to know an answer to that question, and can't seem to stop asking myself that question. I just want to find the answer to it, and then stop thinking about it. Sian. Don't ask why Í want to know the answer so much too. I have no idea myself. Just want to know the answer, even if I know that the answer will not change anything.

I guess I'm just looking forward to this Christmas, and hopefully year 2009...

Btw, I'm kind of addicted to this song recently, Yes 933 has been playing this song a lot recently, but I'm unable to find the version played by Yes 933, so the nearest version to that its the original version that Derrick He Wei Jian sang at Project Superstar. By the way, don't be mistaken, I'm not addicted to this song because it applies to me or anything ( I know you guys confirm will think that way but its not, its more like the 2nd song in my playlist, Si Jie).

Enjoy !

很想你 by Derrick He Wei Jian

你在哪里?
这些年来如意不如意?
还快乐? 还单纯? 还美丽? 时光如何对你?

我在这里
人海中的一座岛屿
很平静风平浪静
只除了深夜里
回忆会疯狂来袭

我很想你
你知道吗如果可以
就让我再见你美好微笑
清澈眼睛
好确定那场分离只毁了我
一个而已

我很想你
听见了吗? Woo~
这是唯一
我无解的困境那些过去
不肯过去
不管我后来遇见多少人
只能叹息都不是你

我只想爱你我在哪里?
你会不会偶尔好奇?
有没有曾经怀疑?
我说我会忘记
只是种好意...

2008-12-15T23:26:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Had a hard day at work today. Don't know why I wanted to work till 9 pm also, maybe I just did not want to come home so early and think so much too. Haha.

Anyway this will be a short entry, nothing much to say also. Perhaps I just want to blog, but don't know what to say too. Haha..wierd right ? Haha..

Just need a lot of ice cream, and a lot of dao hui !

2008-12-14T11:53:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Met Ben, Ming Hui, Ren and Dudley at Serangoon for some drinks. This particular cafe really serves super nice Oreo Frappes ! Can't remeber the name of the cafe also, but the ambience of the cafe is pretty nice, Open=air concept, nice drinks, super nice seats, and they also serve beer and hard liqueor as well. Its really a nice place to chill and hang out.

Work was boring on Saturday. Super slow moving work. In the night, we to Bryan House last night for a gathering. It's been such a long time since I last saw all of them, Zhen, Hazel, Irene, Bryan, Robin, Clara and Yi Hao. As usual Bryan's Mom cooked a super nice meal, and all of us, especially Zhen Zhen and Clara, ate our fill. Haha...

After dinner, Bryan, Yi Hao, Irene and me went to play pool at AMK K Pool. Its been such a long time since I last played pool with both of them as well, and as usual I lost. Haha..

Anyway having a pretty boring Sunday... Supposed to meet Ben and gang to play ball, but as usual, its raining.. Sian... Seriously hate the weather.. Haiz.. Still have flu and cough, so I can't eat Ice Cream as promised, can't find Dao Hui anywhere near me now, and no Basketball as well ?! Haha.. Sian.

Anyway seriously need to lose weight.. Cannot continue like this le. Haha..

I seriously got nothing to do now, no one to talk to online or on the phone now, and nothing to watch on the tv. Boring Sunday. Haiz. Blog ltr bah.

See ya....

2008-12-11T22:22:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Finally managed to eat some thing that I'ev wanted to eat, Bean Curd, otherwise known as Dao Hui. Haha.. Was supposed to eat it after night shift yesterday, but somehow we ended up gi\oing to drink beer instead of having Dao Hui. So, Irene bought me Dao Hui this morning. Thank You ah Jie ! Haha..

Work is pretty boring nowadays, there was some changes in work, and I admit I was a bit sian when the change first came to place, but I guess life is like that, and I can only embrace the changes. Work just feels wierd nowadays, just don't feel the same, but I guess I can only learn to adapt.

Went out with Irene after work to get a Christmas present for her friend, as well as get one Christmas Present for Joshua, my working buddy, as well. After that, we had teppanyaki dinner, and we had a nice long chat about a lot of stuff. I guess I feel better after talking to Irene, and usually I will talk to Ivy, but Ivy Jie's in Korea now, and thankfully in office I have 2 sisters who truly dote on me, so ya haha...

Anyway I want to thank Irene here for the early Christmas Gift.. Thank you Jie !!! Like it a lot !!!

Sometimes it's just so wierd, that I look through my long list (ok its not really very very long) of contacts in MSN, and realise there's really only that much people who I still converse with, while the rest just parks themselves on MSN, doing other stuff and never making the first attempt to start up the conversation. I wonder sometimes why bother having such a long list in the first place if none actually talks to you ? Haha..

Anyway for friends who are reading this entry and thinking why I'm actually acting like this and thinking so much nowadays, its because its the end of the year, and me being a thinker ( yes, it really sounds wierd calling myself a thinker since I'm never thinking in important times but always thinking about irrelevant stuff), is constantly thinking about what has transpired (don't know if its the right word to be used in this context) over the past year of 2008, what are the things I have done wrong, what are the things that I missed, the things that I should have done, my wishes that have and have not been fulfilled this year, and all the happy things that happened, the nice frens I got to know, the lucky stuff that has happened to me, the sad stuff that has happened etc..

This year has seriously been a long long year, and a lot of things have passed, and I guess i did grow up ( just a bit, not a lot, I'm still retaining some part of my childishness), and I learn a lot. Ok I should stop here, this is what I should say only at the end of the year, not start of Dec. Haha..

As usual, its time for me to intro nice Chinese songs ! This time round I got 3 songs to intro, not exactly very new, but are my current favourites. Song No. 1 on my play list is my favourite song now, 死结 by 李玖哲. Its super nice, and I really like the lyrics...

Song: 死结
Singer: 李玖哲

离不开的却离开
抓不住想抓的爱
怪自己活该

我的未来你不来
我的故事很无奈
我注定失败

我们的对话你悄悄离了线
我们的热线今后断了线
你在山的那边
那么遥远你说再见
宣判了终点

你在我心里
打了死结
绑住孤单
在我的世界
你带走的快乐
我没了知觉
一个人面对每个日夜

你在我心里
打了死结
绑住孤单
在我的世界
找不到你的我
已失去一切
我们的爱已无法脱险
你打了死结

无心伤害却伤害
空白以后才明白
原来这是爱
你的心我最能猜
你的爱我被淘汰
我注定悲哀

我们的对话你悄悄离了线
我们的热线今后断了线
你在山的那边
那么遥远你说再见
宣判了终点

你在我心里
打了死结
绑住孤单
在我的世界
你带走的快乐
我没了知觉
一个人面对每个日夜

你在我心里打了死结
绑住孤单
在我的世界
找不到你的我
已失去一切
我们的爱已无法脱险
你打了死结..

Nice song ?? Ok 2nd song on my favourite list of songs is this new hit by Mayday, called 突然好想你. I was kind of attracted to the song when I first heard it on radio, and I've been listening to it everyday ever since. It's sort of my emo-song, and when I hear it I don't know why but I will feel this wave of sadness..

Song Name: 突然好想你
Singer: 五月天

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品...

我们那麽甜那麽美那麽相信
那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

最怕此生已经决定自己过没有你
却又突然,
听到你的消息....

Ok lastly, we move to the song by Mi Lu Bing, 成熟. Listening to this song at first did not make me feel as that this song is anything special, but if you pay close attention to the lyrics, its actually quite meaningful, just like the new Energy song. Ok I'll intro the Energy song another day. Anyway, this is the last song for the night. Enjoy the song ya ?!

(Sorry I can't find the lyrics for the last song.. Just enjoy the song first ya ?)

2008-12-10T02:19:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Went out with Sihui after work to watch Bolt. The movie is super nice ! I think the dog is super cute, but the Hamster is absolutely hilarious la ! Haha.. seriously cartoon lovers should catch this movie.

After movie, we went to get Mac for dinner. I have to apologise to Sihui, cause I wasn't really in the best of moods, been thinking too much lately, which was why I wasn't my usual funny laughing self, and I have to apologise for showing her that side of me. Will make it up to her another day bah. Haha.. wanted so much to have ice cream too ! But I promised someone I would not eat it if I'm still sick, so in the end I did not get any ice cream. So I can only hope I faster recover so that I can eat my ice cream ! Haha.. saw Dom Su at the bus stop also. Haha he hasn't changed a single bit la ! Haha.. still that cheeky smile and that funny laughter. Haha..Makes me think of the old Secondary school days that we used to hang out together, and those days when both of us were in NPCC. Haha.. old memories..

Anyway this is a short blog entry.. Don't intend to write much anyway.. Just don't want myself to think so much anymore, and just look forward to ice cream.. Haha..

Can the cough hurry go away ?

Haha..

2008-12-08T02:36:00.002+08:00

Hey.

It's been a busy week, sorry I took so long to blog.

Anyway, went clubbing with GE colleagues yesterday night to celebrate Fab's Be-early Birthday. We went to Double O, and I guess overall it was pretty fun. Just that I think I really drank a lot, and was damn thankful I had to take care of the other drunk people, therefore resulting in the fact that I did not have the luxury of getting drunk. Ming, Aaron, Ben, Joshua, Dudley, Adam and Sabrina was there too, and managed to dance some Mambo with them. Haha, after knowing them for 7-9 years, I'm amazed that this is my first time actually clubbing with them. Ben can seriously dance, while Josh as usual is the Mambo Machine. Haha. Ming Hui is crazy when he drinks too. Haha... Overall, it's seriously been a while since I last clubbed, and it would have ended of on a better note if not because it was so chaotic last night. Still, I guess it took my mind off some stuff as well.

Been thinking a lot lately, too much for my liking sometimes, I'm not sure why either, Haha, but I guess I'm that kind of person who thinks too much, hence the joke of my surname being "Li" and that my Chinese name is "Jiu Zhe", cause I like to "xiang tai duo"(ok it is a super lame joke, but its super original cause its created by me !). But I guess there's no point thinking sometimes, I rather not think about anything. Haha. Oh ya, went to Karaoke with Ivy Jie, Ronald and Ashley at Top One, which is located at Bugis. Seriously, its much much better than K Box la ! And its cheaper too ! Haha. Singing also helps in my bid to stop thinking so much about stuff. Haha...

Tomorrow I'm going Cheng Jin Hse in the morning to play ball first, before heading to Dudley's hse to play ball again in the afternoon. So basically, its B-Ball day ! Haha..

Oh ya, Ming Hui has been telling me that he thinks that the song "True" by Ryan Cabrera makes him think of me, which I don't really understand why, but I've added the song into my playlist, and its a very nice accoustic version, so listen to it ya ? Haha...

Ok.. feeling shagged now.. Shall go and sleep le..

Nites !!!

2008-12-04T01:26:00.002+08:00

Hey !!!

Sorry I haven't been blogging for such a long time. Anyway just for updates, I'm fine. Haha I just needed to take some time off and relax myself, and luckily the past few days I had company to take my mind off stuff, so I guess its life's a bit better. Regarding to the problem that I mentioned in my previous entry, I've decided to stop thinking about it, and just concentrate fully on living my life as per normal, irregardless of any problems or any obstacles. I guess after 3 straight days of ice cream, I came to realise that my life theory is somewhat true, that when u feel super low, eating an ice cream helps you to realise that there are still some sweet things in life. Haha.. lame right ??

Made a few decisions over these couple of days too, personal stuff. Nothing much to elaborate also, just a quick note to myself that "whatever will come will come, whatever will be shall be", and I should not expect or hope for anything but just do it like Jordin Sparks, " One Step at a Time". Lame ? Haha..

From next week onwards, I guess life will go back to the same old "Kenneth's Boring life" again.... Haiz...

Btw, my laptop is spoilt, meaning I won't be online regularly from now on, so if anyone is looking for me online please drop me an sms. Haha.. it only costs 5 cents. Don't be stingy. Hehe..

Ok la.. I got to go sleep soon.. Rest Well Peeps.. Blog soon..

2008-11-25T23:09:00.002+08:00

Hey...

Been thinking about a lot of things lately. Can't even force myself to smile and laugh like normal these few days. Don't know why I'm acting like that. Maybe its because I'm afraid of the upcoming future. What is it I'm afraid of ? My father is coming back from China tommorow for good...

I've been trying to talk to someone about it, but everyone seems to be busy, and I don't know where to start or who to approach who can understand, till I can no longer take it but to say it out here. These years that he has left has changed my life 360 degrees, and made me think about my life so much. I used to be a rich spoilt brat, because I never knew the importance of money, never knew how it was like to feel having to worry about your next meal. But these years, I learn so much, the hard way. And I've gotten so adjusted to living the hard life without him, I don't know how to face him. All these years, from the day I was born, I've seen the nice fatherly figure of him, the husband that loves his wife, the father who would give his children anything they wanted, give them lots of money, bring them out for nice dinners. But more so than often, I see the man who would beat me in public because I spill a cup of drink, who would quarrel with my mom and start smashing things, who would scold us and throw his temper at us when he's late for appointments, who really kicked me in the back up a flight of stairs when I was young, the man who left us to die and went to China hoping that he can save this family, not knowing the family needed him here more then there. He had his tough life there, trying to keep his business running, while we had a bad time here too, with my mum struggling to find a job and maintain the family while I was in army. Even if he did not send money it was okay, it was just that he never bothered asking how we were doing, always only thinking that we would be able to pull it through by ourselves.

Over these years, I grew up a lot, telling myself I would never ever grow up to be like him, that I would never let my mom down, and even if it meant I would never have the life I dreamt of since young, never be able to live my dreams, I would ensure my brothers and sisters would be able to live their dreams. I was born stupid, I admit. I can never totally tell myself to be selfish to save money for my studies, while seeing my family in such a state. If my brothers needed a fatherly figure to be there, I'll try my best to act like one.

My thoughts are disorganised, I don't even know which parts link and which parts don't. But I do know if he needs me to fulfill the duties of a son I will take care of him, but I will never be able to forget the good times and especially the bad times I had to go through, perhaps I still can't seem to bring myself to totally forgive him , and I know that I will not be able to call him "Dad"...

There, I've said it all out. Anyway I'm sorry for this short and disorganised outburst, I just needed to get this stone off my chest, and everyone seemed so busy with their lives, I probably should get busy with mine too...

Damn.. I really want to eat ice cream now...

2008-11-24T21:18:00.002+08:00

Hey !!!!

Haha how long have you guys not seen me blog ? Days ? Months ? YEARS ?!

Haha ok yes, I'm still as lame as ever, nothing much has changed in my life, it still can be described by one single yet most commonly said word: "boring." Haha...

Anyway, not much updates about my life also, its pretty much the same, nothing has changed much either. Haha. Work is still boring, just that I'm with these great bunch of colleagues, and they're forever joking around (and yes, they joke about me too all the time, to my dismay..). I guess the only wierd thing about my colleagues is that there's so many internal stuff ( I shall not say more), and I constantly wish that these internal "stuff" will be able to work their way around somehow, cause its never good for the clique. Haha. Anyway Christmas is coming soon. I walked past Takashimaya the other day, and the big tree standin in the middle really brings back memories. Haha. Shall not elaborate more on that too. Haha...

Sometimes I also don't know why life can be so wierd. Anyway Christmas is coming, I should be happier ! Haha... wonder what plans we have ? Will it be just like every other year, or could it be a bit different ? Haha.. ok I got this stupid idea, and I think I'm the only one who will thinks this way, but maybe, just maybe, I hope this year Christmas, something different might happen ? Could we celebrate it in a different way, instead of the same way every year ? Hmm... perhaps this year, I want to see Singapore in a different view on Christmas.. Wonder would Singapore look different on Christmas night ?? Haha...

Anyway, Ms Ashley Ong from Ge Money intro me a super duper nice song. Haha.. its quite old, but I think I'll share with you guys. The song is called "Cry on My Shoulder" by a group of superstars I think, but no idea who. Haha..

Cry On My Shoulder

If the hero, never comes to you
If you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you call your friends, nobody's home
You can rum away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free

But if you wanna cry; cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven, where we'll go
If heaven is, a million years away
Oh just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you, I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

Haha nice ??? Haha.. enjoy the song ya ? Haha..

Christmas is coming....

I can't wait...

2008-11-10T23:02:00.003+08:00

Hey.

Been very busy lately so did not really have time to blog.

Anyway heres the lyrics to my current blog song 同花顺 by 林倛玉. Super nice and meaningful song. Enjoy !

同花顺 - 林倛玉

要是你心里真的没我
你不会剪去了长发
闪动如蝴蝶在双颊
那是眼泪吗

要是你心里真的有我
你不会嘴边无火花
静静观察人世浮华心已麻

假如说钢铁磨成针
只要愿意等
只要肯爱得深
是不是就有这可能
有可能打动这铁石心肠的人

可惜就算梦能成真
有谁猜得准
能分到多少福份
生命的同花顺
底牌没有你我也认

假如说温柔是谎话
你不会颠覆这想法
你撑着眼儿都不眨
是眼泪吗

假如你真的放得下
你怎会一言也不发
漂泊天涯苦苦挣扎心已麻

假如说钢铁磨成针
只要愿意等
只要肯爱得深
是不是就有这可能
有可能打动这铁石心肠的人

可惜就算梦能成真
有谁猜得准
能分到多少福份
生命的同花顺
底牌没有你我也认，，，

2008-10-26T13:12:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not blogging for so long. Anyway so much have gone past over the past few days, don't really know where to begin...

I shall not go into details, but things happened for a reason, and its seriously interesting why everyone can just act oblivious or blur to everything that's happening around them. Anyway she told me what was needed to be said, and I've accepted it. Nothing should change in terms of friendship terms between the whole group of us. Maybe if I can change something, I would wish I did not have to have feelings in this situation, such as remain a neutral, in that case it wouldn't seem so complicated. Haiz. Frankly, I don't want anything to change, I just want all of us to be like when we all first started, colleagues to close friends to buddies, at least from me to them.

Just hope that everything can be normal from here on..

As for me, if anyone's interested in knowing, yes, I'll move on. No worries. I'm the guy who's always happy right ? Haha...

I'll move on....

2008-10-20T00:58:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Knee is hurting pretty bad now. It has this aching feeling, and its aching every single time I bend my knee. Must have over-strained it while playing with TT basketball on Sat and just now when I decided to lose weight and walk home from AMK Hub. Haha. Hopefully by tomorrow it recovers. Haha.

Anyway, tomorrow is work again. So sian. I got to motivate myself to work harder tomorrow. All for the sake of having a better Christmas this year (This month's incentive will come with the December Pay).

So many things happened over the week. I learned so much, about myself, and others around me. Certain things I learned changed my thinking on certain things, while other things actually affected and is still affecting my mood. Haha. Confusing ? Don't anyhow guess if you're confused. Haha.

Anyway uploaded some nice songs into my playlist. Listen to it all ya ? Hope you guys like it !!

2008-10-18T00:38:00.003+08:00

Hey.

Haha had a GE Money Bowling Competition yesterday. Was super fun !!! Haha. We all had fun playing, and Andy scored a Turkey (3 strikes in a row) too. Overall however, it was Ronald who scored the most points and actually got the Best Male Bowler Award. Haha.. Jackie and her team also won the Best Female Bowler and Best Team. Overall collections team sweeped the awards. Haha...

After that, we went to this pub in Boat Quay called Plush Bar. It was not bad, and it has been really such a long time since I last visited a karaoke pub. I did not manage to play pool though, but we did sing some songs (I sang one only, whice sounded horribly due to my voice, but what the heck.... haha), and we had a lot of drinks. Haha.. I guess it was fun and all, being able to drink alcohol, just like the old times with Ken and Chi Kit and his gang at Grasx. Apple was the first to bow out, and soon after others followed. Eric was drinking alone and emo-ing for a while, but Ashley was there to console him. However, half way through the night she started emo-ing for a while too. I was surprised that she emo-ed for a while, and I kind of followed soon after due to personal reasons. I just want to clarify that the personal reasons is not because of Peizhen, I've already decided to get over her, just like what I said in my previous post, and so far its working well. I just had other reasons, but as usual I'm fine after a while. So no worries ya ? But I guess I kind of over drank, and soon after for the first time in my life, I got so drunk that I puked (yes its the first time, Ken Lim can vouch for me cause we drank so many times last time, but no matter how drunk I got I have never puked before). I became a Merlion ! Haha..

Was seriously wasted last night. Anyway, just feel so sian. Dunno why. Can't say the reason out also. Its a personal secret la. But it has nothing to do with Pz. Seriously. It has ended, and it shall remain ended.

Anyway probs come and go. I'll always be happy somehow or another, cause I'm someone who's too easily contented la. Haha..

2008-10-14T23:33:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Sounds wierd to say this, but if we did not break up, today is our 3 months anniversary. I know you guys out there probably think that its just 3 months, but I guess I had a lot of memories in this 3 months, both good and bad. Went to cut hair after work today. While cutting my hair I remebered last month, when I first went to tis salon to cut, I brought her along with me. Maybe it was just me being a super boring person, but the memories of everything we have done and gone thru for this 3 months, from the day at the company chalet, where we first had our real chat at the playground, to the ice-cream place at Liang Court, to the prata place in Thompson, to Yishun McDonalds, and even Bishan Park with my family, East Coast Park with my friends, and barbeque with her family, cam flashing through my mind during the hair-cut. I found myself missing her, wishing everything was back to normal. But I was the one who made the decision not to patch back, I was the one who told her that it hurts when we quarrel so much, and I was the one who gave up. I have no right to hold on, but to push myself to move on.

Life's so wierd. My life always seem to be full of surprises, happy and sad ones both. I guess that's why I constantly look forward to every other day, and have this super wierd fear ( yes, even at this age I sometimes think of it and shudder) that life is really too short and one day I will have to die. When I was with Sab and Peizhen, there were times, really times, when I wondered if I really married either one of them, and one day they were to go before me when we were both much much older. How sad that feeling must be, to see the one you loved and spent your entire life with go just like that, leaving you alone in this world. Or if you were to leave first and your partner have to bear the burden of seeing you go. Seriously you guys might think that its funny to think of such things, but maybe I'm more of an emo person, so when I think of this, I imagine myself to be in that situation, and imagine if the one I loved really left me, and the sadness would envelop me, and I would actually tear. Ask Sab if you don't believe, I shared with her once about this thoughts and dreams and that I would always find myself crying after such thoughts. Haha. Wierd aren't I ???

I just wish, truly, that Pz would find a nice guy, much better than me, just like how Sab found a nice guy for herself, at least I know Pz would be happier.

Sleepy now, want to go rest early. Tomorrow is a new day..

2008-10-07T00:39:00.002+08:00

Hey.

In the past, a day would past by very fast, and I would always bemoan the fact that I seem to never have enough time to do the things I want to do. But today, time just seem to pass slow. I still miss her. I'm not sure if I have the right too anyway. Was looking at my phone the whole night, waiting for her to call or sms me, or even come online. But none of those happened. At office, with a lot of friends around, I can still try to force a smile and pretend I'm ok. But at home, when I'm just alone in my room, I can't just seem to stop thinking. When Don made me play with him with these 2 cards that she gave him, I just thought about her, about how we spent the last sunday together, and I teared. It feels as if I have no right to be sad, since I was the one who was always picking a quarrel with her in the past, and even gave up on the relationship once. And yet, the sad feeling is unavoidable, and at the same time, aching.

I wish her all the best in her life. And I hope I get over it soon.

I need ice-cream... Haiz.

2008-10-06T00:58:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Sorry for not blogging for such a long time. Just that I've been super busy with life, but I've found a reason for this entry.

We broke up. Me and Peizhen. Today was one of the rare days that we did not quarrel with each other, and yet, at the end of it, she still asked for a break up. because she did not want to hurt me anymore. I've hurt her a lot too, and the pain has been on-going for such a long time, I guess it must end sooner or later. I wasn't a good boyfriend anyway, and it just was working out since we were quarrelling once every 2 days. I just wished things had worked out somehow, because no matter how much we quarrelled, we still loved each other a lot. I guess time finally ran out for us. I just wish there wasn't so much hurt in between the both of us.

I uploaded a new song for my blog song list. Its called 真的, 我沒事 by 符致逸. Its a song from the show Hot Shot, the latest Taiwanese Basketball drama. Though I don't understand the lyrics, the song made me tear, even though I tried my best not to cry this time. Hopefully you guys, if anyone even reads my blog anymore, would like the song too...

真的, 我沒事 - 符致逸

On and on the pain goes on And it wouldn’t just wouldn’t die
我竟遠比想像中軟弱且無能為力
對你的眼神選擇了逃避
恨自己恨自己

On and on the pain lives on It’s hurting so much more
就讓我被悔不當初的罪惡吞去
懲罰過後能否帶來解脫
I’ll be fine I’ll be fine

So many cried listening to God
讓堅強不只是種偽裝
So many lies listening to you
天亮後 I will be fine

On and on the pain goes on and I just don’t know how to cope
伸手抱住自己是否就能夠不再空虛
最後信念別放棄 I will be fine I will be fine

So many cried listening to you
希望你能再給我力量
So many lies listening to you
什麼時候 I will be fine

當我再也不對任何事期待
只剩下你只剩下你
有天當我捨棄一切見你
請妳要微笑不語

So many cried listening to you
希望你能再給我力量
So many lies listening to you
什麼時候....

I will be fine.....

2008-08-19T23:41:00.002+08:00

Hey ...

Sorry for not blogging for so long.. what has it been ? Days ? Months ? or Years ?

Anyway work has been super busy at my new working place @ GE Money, and basically my full focus on weekdays is nothing but work. Weekends are usually the only time that I can relax.

First up, Olympics. Michael Phelps is absolutely phenomenal ! I'm just shocked at the fact that he not only won all 8 events that he participated in, but also how many records he broke in all those events. Haha.. as a newspaper commented, "if he was a country he would be 6th or 7th on the list of countries in the medal list". Haha... I'm pretty impressed with Singapore's Table tennis team too. They beat Korea, and actually advanced to the finals to pit themselves against China, and although they lost, I guess they did put up a fight, and it was China, with the world No. 1 and 2 in their team. Still, I guess if not Gold, Singapore seriously deserved nothing less than Silver for the effort and skill. Some might have commented that its was more of a "Chinapore vs China", but I guess the Singapore team players have all committed themselves to Singapore and being our citizen, so it would be unfair to call them that. Haha. For soccer, Brazil lost to Argentina 3-0, and I felt Argentina really played very well for this semi-final. They will now face Nigeria in the finals. Haha.

Now, lets talk about EPL. The season has just started, but while other teams have many new faces to boast about, I guess Man U and Arsenal will forever be the same, not buying much players this transfer season, or rather, not buying anyone for Man U. There has been so much talk about buying a striker, and so much more rumours that its definitely Berbatov, but its really getting on my nerves to have so much talk but no action yet. And I was pretty upset that David Silva chose not to come to Man U. He has been an exceptional player in the Euro's, and was equally one of Valencia's outstanding players last season. Its such a pity he can't come to Man U. Anyway, Man U played like crap against Newcastle, finishing the match 1-1. Kudos to Newcastle, they were playing quite good soccer, very well-organised defence as well as good attacking. Man U were definitely a shadow of what they were last season. As a Man U fan, one can only hope they will either buy better players, or improve their standard of playing.

Updates about myself.. All I can say is, I'm going through a period of self-realisation, understanding myself, and all my mistakes and every other wrong thing that I do to hurt this relationship. I can't elaborate much, but I guess elaboration is not really needed. In the end, nothing really matters if I can't make things right, and unfortunately, its not in me to leave things as it is, or ignore problems. So, I guess all I can do is just try my best. Even if the best I have to give so far is still not enough. Haiz.

If the keys locked the door, would it better ? Would I commit lesser mistakes, and make both of us happier ?

Haiz.

2008-07-24T00:30:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Just to update all the peeps out there who knows what has been going on, its finally done. Everything has been settled. I guess you can say I'm a happier man now. Haha.

Now that every thing has been resolved, I feel more relaxed also. And I'll make sure all the mistakes I made in the past will not be repeated for this one. Haha.

Thanks guys, for all the concern. Just letting you all know that all the problems that I mentioned have been solved.

Haha.... I guess this has been the happiest thing so far since last year October... Haha

2008-07-20T08:48:00.002+08:00

Hey.

I really don't know how to describe my feelings now. I guess this week has probably been the happiest week in a long long while, and yet I'm afraid it won't last. Haha. So far some know and some don't know what I've been going through, but those who do have given their support. So, just want to say a big "Thank You" to all those who listened to me for this week. Haha. I've really been pretty troublesome this week, and a special thanks to Chew too, cause everytime I call him he's always out but he never fails to listen to me. Thanks dude !

Its like a dream, and to be honest, the feeling is comfortable, more comfortable than the past, but I'm just afraid it might end abruptly. I really wish it can last. Haiz.

So for now, its just dreaming, dreaming of a better future, for "dreams..are my reality..the only kind of real fantasy.."

Btw, celebrated Zhen's bday at a restaurant in Vivo yest. Its super nice ! Haha. Even though this year it was just me, Yi Hao, Hazel, and Zhen, it was still very fun. It feels fun when all 4 of us are together, and no one is busy for once. Usually Hazel would be busy with school, Zhen would be busy with love, and Yi Hao would be just busy. Haha.. still, going out with them and hanging out is always fun. Haha...They are truly the greatest group of ACCOUNTANCY students who aren't boring but super fun ! Haha..

I need my pay to faster come in ! Argh.. Haha

2008-07-17T01:37:00.003+08:00

I'm so wierd.

I'm doing everything that I condemned in the past, and it seriously looks like Karma to me. The best part, is that I'm so deep into it, even before I can know it, and now, I can only hope "Time" can work its magic, and only "Time" can solve all my problems.

"If I could, I would choose to fly carrying you, and would never let you fall.."

2008-07-13T14:02:00.003+08:00

Hey !

Sorry I haven't been blogging for such a long time. I know its really been such a long time, but I've been really busy and lazy at the same time. Haha.

Anyway the first and most important update: I got a job ! Finally right ? Haha.. the job is called a Credit Collection Officer, working at GE Money on a 6 month contract extendable to a year or perm. Haha in short, I'm like a High Class "Ah Long". Haha... anyway work starts 22nd of July, so from now till then I'll probably work at ATP still. Haha..

I don't know why, but I'm actually feeling pretty low. Rather its not because I don't know why, but because I can't face the truth of it. Sounds wierd right ? I seriously need to wake up soon. Because nothing is going to change from the present state of things. And I know, that deep down inside, for this situation, the outcome of it will never change.

I don't even know what else to say anymore about how I feel.

Guess the only thing I can say is..

Nothing really matters.

2008-07-03T23:12:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Sorry I haven't been blogging for such a long time.

Anyway firstly to update, Spain won the Euro 2008 !!! Haha.. I'm not a very keen supporter of Spain, but still, I hate Germany and Ballack, so I guess it was pretty obvious there was only one team I could root for in the finals. Haha.

Watched Hancock yesterday with Yihao and Sihui. Its super cool ! Actually you'll only like it if 1) You're a super-hero freak, 2) you love Will Smith. Haha the story line is so-so only. But the scenes are really not bad. Haha.

Anyway work today was pretty ok. But we had a surprise during lunch. Or rather, Fit did. Haha someone delivered a BIG bouquet of flowers for Ms. Fit !!! Haha... The office ladies were all screaming away haha... I guess Ms. Fit was pretty shocked but touched by the act. Haha.. apparently the guy is her ex, and he actually gave her a card and a package with a DVD of the love show "Across the Universe". Haha super romantic I think. Haha...

After work, I went out with Pei Zhen for dinner. I kind of made her treat me ice-cream, and we agreed to have ice-cream and dinner at Thompson. In the end, after prata dinner at Prata House, she gave me a treat at Cheeky Chocolate instead. I swear, the cake there is godly ! Haha. Their famous trademark dish Chocolate Cake is super duper nice, with the hot melted chocolate oozing out of the cake when u cut the cake itself. Haha. Pei Zhen actually gave a rating of 9/10, and her being in the editorial team of my company and actually going to food tasting sessions, she probably has some standard in her food tasting skills, so you can trust me when I say the cake is nice. Haha... we also ordered chocolate waffles, and its also not bad. I guess the attraction for the waffles would be the vanilla ice-cream. According to Pei Zhen, the vanilla ice-cream was made from pop vanilla (I think that was what she called it), and from what I know pop Vanilla is one of the best Vanilla that you can find. The decor of the place is very classy and unique, and the ambience of the place is very relaxing as well. Haha. If you're looking for a nice place to eat Chocolate or chill with nice dessert, Cheeky Chocolate would be a good recommendation. Haha.

Anyway, tomorrow is probably my last day of work at ATP le. Its kind of sad to leave, but I have to look for a better and higher paying job, so there's no other option but to leave. I guess a lot of people suggested staying till I find a permanent job, but I felt it was rude or unethical to work for ATP and yet keep finding a job and quit if I get a job, and take leave as and when I have interviews. My manager actually asked why I did not want to work till I got a job as well, and I told him that I would only be able to work on today and tomorrow. However, after much thinking, if they still need a spare hand, and my manager doesn't mind I take leave to go for interviews, then I would love to stay, since I would still work and get paid, and my colleagues are fun to work with as well. Haha. We'll see how things go tomorrow. Haiz. Haha..

Ok gtg slp.

Enjoy the 2 new songs I added to my playlist. The first song is by Leona Lewis, called Better In Time, and the second is 原谅我 by Jam Hsiao 萧敬腾. Haha will post the lyrics of both songs tomorrow. Hope you guys love the song !

2008-06-27T01:05:00.002+08:00

Hey.

2 calls yesterday affected me to the max. One was in the morning, and that call was the one who nearly destroyed my day. Its like the half of the disappointment for the birthday was due to this person, and yet the disappointment only heightened when the person called.

Thankfully, I kind of cheered up when another person called during lunch time. I guess everytime she calls I'm generally cheered up in one way or another. Haha. I never understand why, but I always feels that she's probably one of the rare friends that I have that understands me and alway seems to get the right timing to call me and talk to me. Haha I often wonder if its like a miracle she calls everytime I'm troubled with a problem. Haha... Seriously glad I have a friend like that...

Germany won Turkey 3-2 last night, with Germany scoring the last goal at the 90 min. Super heng. I realised that this Euro 08 has been full of surprises and upsets. International soccer is seriously unpredictable, and I can attest to that myself. Haha..

Tonight is Spain vs Russia. The only team which has played well enough so far to deserve to make it to the final, and the team who seems like they should have been kicked out early, and yet they have the determination and team spirit to fight all the way, plus a master tactician on their side. Wonder who will win ? Haha.

Ok, I'm going to get ready to watch the match later. See ya guys !!!

2008-06-22T14:08:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Finally, all the birthday celebrations are over. Haha. And I'm finally 22 ! Which doesn't actually change anything. Haha..

On 190608, I met Ming Hui, Aaron, Cheng Jin, Ming Long, Ngak Hiang and Samantha for dinner at Lavender's famous Scissors Curry Rice ( Curry Jian Dao Fan ). Haha its really nice. After the simple dinner, we went to The Cathy to have my favourite - ICE CREAM !!! Haha had Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream and sat there for a while to chill. We also took photos outside The Cathy, but most were error ones cause Ming Hui's 5 Megapixel cam phone can't take bright photos unless you off the flash (sounds wierd right). Haha.. It was sad that a lot of photos were error ones, so we only got 3 pictures for the night, but thankfully, they are the kind who likes photo taking, and they did not mind taking photos even after the errors. Haha..

The next day, I took leave, and met Ming Hui and Aaron in the noon to swim. Haha, I was in a pretty bad mood, or rather sad mood, so swimming kind of relaxed me. After the swim, we went to play basketball too. I realised that for my entire life since secondary school, every year when it was near my birthday or on the day itself, I would actually go play basketball. I guess its such a routine for me. Haha. After the basketball match, I washed up at Aaron's, before heading to Aston's to meet Val, Wan Chien, Si Hui and Siyi for dinner. Haha.. as usual, the food at Katong's Astons was good, and the service was also bad as usual. Haha. After dinner, we wanted to go to this KTV in Katong which was super cheap, but there were no more rooms. And I met Choon Guang, my Primary School friend ! Its been such a long time since I last saw him, and we catched up a bit. After that, because the other KTV places were too expensive, we went to Kallang Leisurepark to watch "Never Back Down". Before the movie, we took photos at Starbucks too. Haha.. it was super funny cause we were trying to use Val's phone to fit all of us in the photo, but in the end Si Hui's phone was still the best. Haha. Kudos to the great slim phone with the most astonishing camera ! Haha. I would like to say thanks to them, Thanks for the Espirit Voucher, thanks for the long sleeve shirt (Si Hui I'm damn surprised that you remembered I was looking for it and that you actually found and bought me one. Haha.), and thank you, Si Yi, for the nice dinner treat which you gave everyone. Haha. After the movie, when the 4 of them left, I had a mini expedition on my own, and in a quest to find the Night Rider back home, I walked to Esplanade from Kallang Stadium. Haha it took me one hour !!! That's about 4 km I think, since it takes me about a bit lesser than 20 mins to brisk walk 2.4 km. Haha.. But it was a great experience, and the view at this bridge was nice, because you could see all the tall office buildings, and all the bright lights, and even the Singapore Flyer. It was really nice. Too bad my phone camera sucks. Anyway I managed to take the night rider in the home, which summed up the adventure for the night. Haha.

Yesterday, I went to have dessert in the afternoon with Peiyi. I was pretty surprised when she asked me out for dessert all of a sudden, but I was glad that she did. Haha. Anyway Yi Hao joined us for dessert at Bugis too. Haha. Peiyi gave me a treat too. Thank You Peiyi ! Haha. After the dessert, I went back home for a steamboat dinner, before heading out to Chinatown to celebrate my secondary school friend Ben's Birthday organised by his girlfriend. We were at this place called Global Sounds, and it was super cosy. The pizza was so-so, but I think we enjoyed the place because it was super cosy, and Ben's girlfriend Gloria actually booked a big room for us to play and relax in it. Haha. Surprisingly, we spent the whole night just talking about the good old days in secondary school. Haha. Ming Hui, Aaron, Josh, Dudley, Sabrina (Dudley's gf), Yang Hui and I were the only ones who turned up though. Still I guess we all had a great time drinking and playing a fool and talking about all the old times. Haha. I seriously miss my old secondary school days. I guess the whole bunch of us would wish that we could re-live those years, when it was just us. It was always just us and basketball. Nothing more, nothing less. Haha. We kind of got drunk too, haha, and I actually slept for a while on a sofa while listening to the nice music that they kept playing, untill birthday boy Ben actually poored Ice cold water down my ear. Haha. We played till 4, when the cafe finally closed, before leaving and calling it a day.

Haha I guess this birthday was a mixture of disappointment and happiness. But I guess I got over most of the disappointment factors already, but I'm still feeling a bit sore about 2 of the many disappointing reasons this birthday, 1)Portugal lose to Germany, 2) Holland lost to Russia. Haiz. There were other non-soccer disappointment reasons, but I guess since my birthday is over, I can't be bothered with it anymore too. But still, I would like to say a big Thank You to all those who bothered to celebrate my birthday for me. Thanks peeps ! You made my day ! Haha.

Anyway birthday hype over, its time to get back to life. Haha..

Let's hope my birthday wish comes true. For once.

2008-06-16T23:40:00.003+08:00

Hey !!!

So much to type, so little time !! Haha..

To summarise, last Friday I had a great Bday co-organised by Zhen and Cheng Jin. I'll like to say thanks to Minghui, Aaron, Cheng Jin, Ngak and Long for the birthday dinner treat. And thanks Zhen, Bryan, Hazel, Rob, Bryan and Yihao for turning up and buying me the nice jeans. I have to admit, it looked plain at first, but after trying it and showing it to Hazel, we both agreed that it was nice. Haha..And thank you, Yihao, for the earphones. Its really what I needed. Haha...

I'll also like to say thanks to Hazel for "housing" me at her house that night, and actually took the trouble to pei me go her hse downstairs to watch soccer with me. THANK YOU EVERYONE! It was really a nice Pre-Birthday Celebration guys.

Watched the Hulk with Ailin yesterday. Its super nice ! The action scenes are really super nice, and the best part is its much better than the first one and its linked to Iron Man and the Avengers, which will be coming out soon next year, along with Captain America !!! Woo Hoo !!!

Anyway today is my Lunar Bday ! Din noe abt it till my mum told me. As usual, I told my mum I only wanted what I got every year on this lunar Bday, which is one bowl of Mee Sua and two eggs. Haha. Its a tradition since young. Haha.

For my bday I've decided to add some nice songs to my playlist. The no, 1 song on my playlist now, however, is my birthday song for this year, 二十二 by David Tao. Its an old but nice song. Haha hope you guys like it !

Ok la, i'm going to rest le.

Take care !!

Btw this is one of my Fav songs now, its the 2nd on my play list. Its called 对的人 by Dai Ai Ling. But the version I'm adding to my playlist is a duet by Dai Ai Ling and Xu Ren Jie during Xin Guang Da Dao competition. Hope you guys like it !!!

你问在我心中　
是否还苦恼
那次受伤否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照　
我一切都好
一个人不算困扰
爱虽然很美妙　
却不能为了寂寞　
又陷了泥沼

爱要耐心等待　
仔细寻找　
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手　
等候一次　
真心的拥抱
我相信在(这个)世界上　
一定会遇到
对的人出现(在眼角)

那次流过的泪让我学习到
如何祝福如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要是一种对照

能愿意为了一份爱付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候我就算已经准备好放手去爱　
海阔天高
喔... 耶...

2008-06-12T01:18:00.004+08:00

Hey.

Just want to say thanks for all the concern.

I'm feeling better le.

Really appreciate all the concern.

Thanks !

Jamie called this afternoon.

Spirits lifted again. Haha... Great to hear from her. She raised a good point in our conversation today. Will I actually be charged everytime she calls my HP using Skype ? Haha... Let's wait for the bill... Haha....

The day draws closer day by day. Hate this feeling every year.

Everyday is a super-shag day.. Haha. Oh, I'm suffering from flu today.. sneezed till my nose nearly dropped.. Haha hopefully can recover by tomorrow.. Haha..

Ok slping nw.. See ya !!!

2008-06-11T01:16:00.002+08:00

When you're too disappointed in yourself, you feel extremely terrible.

Two of the most important women in my life just crushed me, by saying the thing which will hurt me the most.

Is this the way my is supposed to be, forsaken even by my own mum ?

I cant even force myself to "haha" and pretend everything will be ok, cause its not.

She did not know it a year ago, and Mom doesn't know it either, but every single time you say it, I'm truly and utterly crushed.

And I'm only disappointed in myself.

Life just seem so meaningless...

2008-06-05T01:15:00.002+08:00

Hey...

Sorry I haven't been blogging for such a long time. Its been really tiring these past few days. Haha... Anyway the most significant event which probably happened over the past few days was that Jamie called yesterday morning!!! Haha.. I was on the way to work when she called. Anyway, she called to talk for a while, saying she went over to LA for the weekend (i'm damn jealous), and that school life there is not as fantastic as it seems. Still I guess she's coping well. Really miss her a lot. Haha...

Oh ya.. had an "eventful" weekend too. Shall not comment so much on it, but all I can say is if every weekend is like that, its going to be a bit of a headache. And I went out to meet Zhen, Ailin, Cheng Jin, Yi Hao and Bryan today for dinner !!! We wanted to eat nice Jap food, but everywhere we went it seemed as if there was missing dishes which we only wanted to eat, so we ended up at this famous Jap Ramen store ( I forgot the name, but I know Tampines Mall has an outlet of this Ramen shop). Its not bad, except that the store was like a suana and the dishes that Zhen and Ailin ordered really sucked. Haha..

We also took some photos, but I'll probably post it tomorrow when I'm more free and less tired.

Recently, I've been in a very bad mood. My tolerance level just dropped a lot, and a lot of things which I could tolerate on normal days just make me boiling mad almost every time these things happen. I deduce it to be a case of "its-that-time-of-the-year" syndrome, cause every year in the month of June I'll have this problem, and I'll start being unhappy about a lot of stuff. Haiz. For all those "friends" who always think lowly or badly of me, Bothersome, irritating, big-mouth and childish Kenneth just got worse for this month. So too bad for you, not that I care anyway. For those genuine and true friends, thanks for enduring my bad'ness, and I'm really sorry if I'm rude to you or bad to you for this month, if I offended you guys in anyway I'm truly sorry. Haha...

Ok.. I've said my piece, and cleaned the skeletons in my closet (i'm not sure if I can use it in this context but I'll just use it anyway to describe that I'm not going to hide my emotions or feelings and just said all I wanted to said), so I'm going to sleep now.

Take care my friends !

2008-05-31T02:24:00.002+08:00

Hey..

ORD loh !!! Hahah... looking back at this 2 years, I've really gone through a lot of stuff. I still remember the day when my mum, uncle, Don, and Sabrina sent me to Tekong on my first day of my army life. The saddest thought was that I would not be able to see Mom and Don for the next 2 weeks, and I won't be able to meet Sabrina, nor kiss her or hold her. Haha. After Tekong, I was posted to 46 Sar Armour. I remembered the first 2 weeks. I cried almost every night while talking to Mum and Sab, because it was the hardest period of my army life, and I often wondered why or what I did to get posted there. The training was tough, but I enjoyed the companionship of my friends, such as Zu Xian, Jagraj, Neo, Tak Sin and the rest. Life was tough, and yet it was probably the happiest days of my army life. Although it was a mere 9 weeks, I reached the lowest weight I ever attained in my life.

After armour, I was transferred to Seletar Camp due to my injury and downgrade. During the days in Seletar Camp ETC, I did many duties, like POL storeman, which deals with vehicle fuels, to BII storeman, which dealt with vehicle items, and then storeman 2IC, helping take charge of the stock take and LRI Audit, before finally settling down as a clerk. I've also participated in last year's NDP. I guess the period in Seletar Camp really made me learn a lot as an Admin personnel. I made a few true good friends too, such as Chew, Ken, Farhan, Zul, and the rest etc. I guess I collected a lot of good and bad memories there too. But I'm glad I went through so much, because I've definately learnt and gathered a lot more experiences than any other NSF. Haha..

Anyway, I should be working at the Publication Firm till end of June. Haha..Need to start looking for my bank job too. Haha...

Ok I got to go le...

Take care !!!

2008-05-27T00:08:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Jamie called in the afternoon ! Haha... feels nice to hear her voice again... but it was pretty wierd at first, cause she used Skype to call, and since it had no number, I thought it was some China Company calling from overseas to bomb your bill, just like those scams ? Haha... plus she addressed me as Mr Kenneth, so I was pretty shocked, and I hanged up the phone at first. Haha... Anyway she called Xin Wei before she called me... and apparently she was saying something about the super drop in temperature or something like that.. Haha...I guess once in a while hearing her voice is really nice... Haha...

Anyway.. tomorrow's my last day of this temp job. I'm actually thinking of extending one more month, because I doubt I can get a job within the month of June, so while job-hunting if I work part time at this place at least I still got some income.. Haha...But I haven't talked to the manager yet, so hopefully he'll allow it. Haha..

4 more days to ORD. Haha... Simply can't wait. Its like almost yesterday when I entered Tekong, and starting my BMT life... I can still remember the first day when I entered Tekong, and how I felt when I saw my mum and uncle.. and Sab...leave... Haha... The day was probably one of the worst days of my life, but it was still ok as compared to when I first stepped into 46 SAR. Haha.... anyway... I still remember the days in Tekong, and how every time I open my metal cupboard, I'll look forward to a SMS or miss call from her or Mum... Haiz.. anyway its all in the past le...These 2 yrs have really gone past very fast...I met some great people, and made some super good friends (yep, CHew, you're one of them.. haha...). Anyway, so much happened during this Army life, and I've made certain wrong moves too. But its over, and truth to be told, if it wasnt for those wrong moves, I think I would pretty much enjoy these 2 years without any sadness or suffering... Haha..

I'll talk more about my army life in the next entry .... Haha.. getting tired already...Haha..

Ok ...

See ya !!!

2008-05-25T21:49:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Sorry for not blogging for the past few days. Everday after work it just seems so shag, even though its a part-time job. Its really like a storeman cum factory worker job, just that you're not in NS, and your pay is higher than NS. Haha.. still I enjoy working there, probably because I like the fact that everyone interacts with each other, instead of those jobs where its just you, your computer and your task ? Haha..

Anyway, nothing much happened these few days.. Basically its just work, work and more work. Haha.. Boring life I lead right ???

Oh ya, met Jamie online yesterday !!! Haha.. she looks the same to me, but she's having a lot of fun there I guess. Haha.. Still miss her though..Sometimes when I want to meet someone just for prata, coffee or movie, I'll think of her first. Haha... Anyway.. Its only going to be a year.. Haha...

Anyway I just uploaded David Cook's songs, plus a song from Wu Jia Hui. The first David Cook song is probably his most famous song now, "Always be My Baby", which also happens to be Mariah Carey's song. Its freaking nice, and I'm kind of addicted to it, after hearing it on radio more than 6 times a day ( I swear, 987fm actually played it more than 6 times that day), and hearing it every time Nurul's phone rings (I got irritated by it so I actually requested that she change her ringtone). The second is actually "Creep" which was originally sung by Radiohead. However the version that I uploaded into my playlist is actually by Axium, which is actually David Cook's Band before he joined American Idol. Haha.. it sounds nicer than the Radiohead version, and I'm pretty addicted to the song too. Haha.. The third David Cook song is actually a joint song by David Cook and David Archuleta (I hope I spell his name correctly), "Hero", which was sung during the Result Performance of the last episode of American Idol Season 7. I think their voice, when put together, actually sounds better than the actual version sung by Chad from Nickelback. Haha...

Sian.. tomorrow is work day again, and there's absolutely no one on MSN to chat to. Haha... read this sentence on Li Jwee's (Tekong Buddy) MSN yesterday. It goes " Looking through the long list of names on your MSN, only to find that you're unable to find a person who wants to talk to you or whom you can talk to ?". Haha.. I'm feeling pretty much like that right now... Haiz..

Ok... I'll prob "NUA" a bit more before hitting the sack...

See ya !

2008-05-22T06:06:00.002+08:00

We did it.

We are the Champions of Europe !

Every year, around this same period of time, I'll watch other teams fight it out in the finals of the Champions League, and hope its Man United. And every year I'll feel super dejected when I see Man U get kicked out of the competition, not being able to see Man United in the finals.

Finally, they fought hard this year, and made it into the Finals. And not only that, but they won Chelsea too ! Kudos to Chelsea, they really really fought damn hard. At times, I really thought Chelsea would win. Even during the penalties, when Ronaldo's penalty shot got saved by Petr Cech, I was really really sad and disappointed. Luckily, Terry missed his penalty, and in the end Van Der Sar was the real hero, saving Anelka's penalty shot. I was quite sad that Terry was the one who missed, because I felt he has been Chelsea's greatest player since the Chelsea Revolution, and I really admire his defending and heading as well as his leadership and hard-working never-say-die attitude. Just too bad.

Still, I'm just elated that Man United won. The feeling is really indescribable, especially when you see them lift the cup and cheer around. One can only wish that they were there at the Stadium too. Haha..

Ok got to go to work soon..

See ya !!!

2008-05-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Work today was pretty okay. Actually talked more to my colleagues, nevertheless due to Yi Hao's non-stop ice-breaking casual chat with the colleagues.. Got to know Nurul better, as well as Wani and her cousin. Wonder how work would be like tomorrow without Yi Hao.. Haha..

Anyway.. watched the 9pm show just now. Cried a bit. Its pretty sad to see the 3 guys crying after the girl passed away. I think I really started crying when Lee Ming Shun held the diary and cry, reading all the past entries of the girl, and how much she loved him and tried in her own way to protect him. And the worst part was he could have saved her if he only picked up her call. Its really sad to only find out how much a person cared for you only when the person has left. Truly.

Can I just ask a simple question ? What is a true friend ? Someone who's always there for you, always keeping in contact with you, or just someone who will appear everytime you need help ? Shouldn't close friends always meet up or keep in contact ? If you have a close friend would he or she always be last in your list of priorities or one of the top few ?

Maybe I think too much.. maybe they don't even treat me as their good friend, I'm probably just a normal friend, whom they will contact when they're free..

Anyway nothing matters.

If they're life is so busy, then they should know too that my life is going to get busy too. Haiz.. Stupid problem..

Anyway today is the big night. Man U vs Chelsea. Moscow. Champs League Final. Who will prevail and be crowned the Kings of Europe ?

Just Can't Wait !!!

2008-05-20T22:21:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Started my part time work today. One of the few surprises I had was that the work place was actually in the Spire, which was the same building as the church that I went to last time. Another surprise would be seeing Uncle Joseph and Pastor Janet during lunch hour. Haha.. its been such a while since I last saw them.

Anyway, one word to summarise work today.. Tiring. Haha.. we were supposed to wrap books, but due to some errors in the book, we were taught to paste the ammendments over the errors first. I was also dragged to wrap up and seal up some boxes, which required to me carry up and down a lot of heavy boxes, so I was like sweating in the air-con office.. Haha... Super tiring.. Anyway..most of my colleagues are Malays girls.. and they're quite funny and nice people. One of the rare Chinese colleagues actually looks like Felicia Chin, just that she's a bit more meaty. Sounds like I'm trying to sell pork like that.. So bad.. haha..Among my colleagues, think Yi Hao and I hit it off pretty easily with Nurul.. Btw Nurul's a Man United Fan too !!! Superb ! Great t have a soccer khaki at work. That way, the both of us can nua after the Champs League finals.. Haha...

Work's pretty tiring, but I managed to keep myself motivated enough to work through the day.. Haha... Wonder if tomorrow will be the same too ? Hmm..

Ok la.. I got to go slp le... Blog tmr.. See ya !!!

2008-05-19T10:49:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Woke up to this song, which was blasted on MTV. Haha kind of hooked on it, which is why its my blog's latest song. Hope you guys like it !!!

One last day of enjoyment...

2008-05-19T01:00:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Swam with Ming and Aaron today. Not bad, cause I haven't swam more then 10 laps since a long time le, and I managed to swim 16 laps today. Haha.. but super tiring...

Anyway after that, we went out with Ming Hui's gf as well to go Vivo. Aaron drove as usual. Haha.. We went to Vivo to shop, but we also dropped by Pull N Bear to say hi to Sihui, and also to shop. But I couldn't find the long sleeve plain t-shirt that I wanted. Haha.. Sihui was saying they removed it because of the change in season. Haiz. Topshop also stopped selling le. Anyway Aaron and Ming got 2 t-shirts from Espirit, while I couldn't find the one that I saw at Parkway's Espirit. Haiz. We also went to eat Awfully Chocolate's Ice Cream. Haha the sales person was pretty surprsied at the fact that 3 guys and a girl was sharing such a small ice-cream. Haha.. but the sales girl was pretty friendly too. Haha..

After shopping, we went to Geylang's Wan Tou Sek (126) to have super super nice Tim Sum !!! It's seriously probably the love of my life in food other than eggs, ice cream and sushi. Haha... The tim sum there is seriously super nice... Haha..After that we left to go home to end the day.. Haha..

Anyway, meeting them tomorrow for Basketball. Its been such a long time since I actually played ball with them. Haha. Can't wait !!!

Haiz.. while sleeping at Aaron's hse last night, we talked a bit before falling asleep. Then, I started thinking about a lot of stuff. Stuff that has been going on around me, and friends around me. Life is really so sian.

I... just want to fly....

2008-05-18T12:03:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Went out with Yi Hao to meet Val and Ed to have a small celebration for Val's Bday. Had lunch at Aston. It's super funny to see Yihao and Val out together, cause they will quarrel every single time ! Haha, just like small kids. Haha. Lunch was superb too, and I think I've said this before, but if you want to have a nice western meal, trust me, Aston's is definitely better than Botah Jones. Haha. After lunch, we went to Parkway Parade to play pool.

Shortly after pool, I went to meet up with my sec sch friends for sec sch gathering at Thompson Prata Hse. Yi Ming, Edwin, Josh, Pei Xiong, Yang Hui, Aaron and Ming was there. Haha.. We kind of made everyone wait for me, Aaron and Ming cause we got lost while driving there. Haha... Anyway after dinner, we proceeeded to Josh hse to have our mini drink fest. Haha.. drank quite a bit at his hse, and some played NBA on the X Box while others played mahjong. Haha, like boys outing right? Haha... Aaron Teo also came by to meet up with us at Josh Hse. Haha..

Its really fun hanging out with them, because I really miss the old days, and they are the best dudes from the old days. Haha.. Stayed at Aaron's place last night, cause I'll be swimming with them in the afternoon at Tampines. Monday we'll be meeting up the Marist Gang for basketball at Tampines again. Haha.. wished I still live in Tampines... Haha..

Ok got to go swim... Blog ltr...

See ya !!!

2008-05-15T21:52:00.002+08:00

Hey !

Guess wad ? Doing duty again.. haha sian..

Anyway some idoiotic person tagged in my tagboard using the name "me" to tag "miss you". Haha.. seriously, if its a prank, its not bad.. im tickled. If the tag actually means something, then I'm sorry, I'll never be able to guess who "me" is. Haha..But I have a strong feeling this "me" is highly possible to be Yihao, the lame ass friend trying to be funny. Haha..but its nice to know at least someone one in this big big world actually misses me.. haha...

Anyway, Xin Wei gave me this personality test to do, and its freaking accurate ! Or at least that's what I think la.. Haha....Anyway, basically this is what the results show (ok, some may disagree, but its just a small test la, so if u disagree just heck it ya ?) :

About = You're someone who can't get enough of romance. You've got such a lot of love to give that it keeps getting lost in transit. You're probably thinking that it is about time that you had your share of romance but for you the chase of love can be just as fun as the falling in love. Have you ever thought that part of you actually enjoys pinning for the one you love? To get your fair share of love, perhaps taking baby steps and enjoying each moment of romance rather than looking further all the time will fulfill your over-imaginativelove pulse.

Your Emotions = You're a deeply emotional person. So sometimes you can't help feeling disappointed and frustrated when things don't go your way in the affairs of the heart. Loneliness is a real demon. Maybe you feel you deserve some more love in your life. Right now you may be feeling fragile and disillusioned by love. But remember, there's plenty more fish in the sea, you never know what's waiting around the corner...

Perceptions = The world can be a very lonely place when love isn't going the way you like. You'd like nothing more than to just feel completely relaxed and comfortable in love. It would beat all the heartache you seem to put yourself through. Your choice of animal shows that you're a very loyal person. You like to look out for the one you love and have very strong protective instincts.

Aspirations = You're a real romantic at heart. Sometimes you actually quite enjoy a spot of Heart-ache. Pinning for the one you love can be good for the soul(??) and for the creative spirit. The physical side of love is essential to you. Touching really helps you to connect with the one you love. You dream of being reunited with the one you love. After all, you're a caring soul. For you, a healthy relationship is one where you can lean on each other when the going gets tough. True love is about taking the rough with the smooth. After all, you're in this together.

Haha... ok, for those who want to do this test, please click on this link : http://youniverse.com/statement/module/LoveModule/Love_module01_10?dm_i=243951428.

Haha... Hope its accurate for you guys..

Really seriously want to do some sports to lose some weight this week, hopefully I'll be able to play ball and swim on Saturday. Haha..

Ok got to go....

See ya !

2008-05-15T00:46:00.002+08:00

Hey !

Sorry for not blogging the past few days. Haha.. Anyway...

Monday, after work, I met Hao and Sihui at AMK Hub to go Prata Hse for dinner. Haha.. Jinglin did not turn up cause she had OT.. wasted.. Haha..Anyway prata was as good as usual, but the Roti John seriously cannot make it, as compared to the one near Jamie's place. Haha....After dinner, we went to have dessert at Ice Kimo, which is near Grace's place. Its really nice, with wierd flavours, such as Guiness Choc Chip Ice Cream, Nutella, and Strawberry Shortcake etc. Haha.. the three of us literally ate 2 tubs of ice cream. Haha...

Tuesday was a bit sian at work, cause all the bosses kept asking me stupid questions and scolding me for no reason. Seriously I think they had a serious PMS problem that day, and I just so happen to be the "lucky" guy to face their wrath. After work, I met Xin Wei for movie at AMK Hub. We watched "Whatever happens in Vegas". Its really funny, and the story line is not bad too. Haha.. the both of us also laughed pretty loudly in the cinema. I used to be the only person among everyone who would laugh loudly in a cinema. Luckily I found another accomplice. Haha...
After movie we walked around Ang Mo Kio central for a while, before going to the arcade to play some games and then end the day. Haha..

Today, I woke up pretty late, and met Yi Hao in town to do some shopping. Bought myself a cheap pair of Loafers ( Shoes that are slip-ons, and usually appear in Aldo's or Pedro ). It looks almost similar, just that the strap in the front is not made of leather unlike Pedro's, and the shoe material is not as heavy not hard either. The price is also half of Pedro's and one third of Aldo's. Haha sounds like a Maths question. Haha... I also bought a cardigan, and hopefully this one won't shrink like the other one. Haha.. After shopping we met Xin Wei to go Cineleisure and play pool. She's not bad at pool, but she can do better in the long run. I think I played better than most days, while Hao was ok only. Xin Wei was pretty surprised when I did the double shot trick. Actually it was no trick, nor skill. Its just that me and Hao always do that stupid double ball every single time we play. Haha..After pool, me and Xin Wei went to Old Airport Road for dinner, and she ate the famous Wanton Mee, from the stall that has a no. display queue board, while I had plain O‘ Nasi Lemak. Haha.. after dinner we went to Siglap to eat Ice Cream Chef. Its not bad, acutally better than Cold Rock. Haha.. Its cheaper and nicer. Haha...

After ice-cream we went to Parkway Parade to walk around. I saw this shirt at Espirit which is really super nice, but I'll wait till I have money to shop bah. Haha..Anyway Parkway Parade has seriously changed a lot since I was young. I still remember the good old days, during my primary school years, where everything was about Parkway Parade. My 10th Birthday with my 3 good Primary sch frens, the toys that my parents would buy for me from Toys R' Us, the weekly going out with family to Parkway Parade, and discussion for Primary School projects was at Parkway too. I even remember Mom used to love the Mee Rebus from the Food centre near Parkway, while I would go down to Parkway to buy fake CDs even in my Secondary School years. Even studying for O's was at the Burger King at Parkway with Ming and Boon Pin and Aaron and Yang Hui. Haha..

Anyway.. tomorrow is my last duty of the Army Life le. No more earning and buying of duties le. Still, I hope tomorrow's duty will end smoothly and nicely for me. Hehe..

Ok take care ya..Got to go sleep le...

Cheers guys !

Btw.. Happy Birthday Robin !

2008-05-12T01:18:00.000+08:00

Hey.

We are the CHAMPS OF ENGLAND !!! Man U won Wigan 2-0, courtesy of a penalty from Ronaldo and a goal from Giggs, while Chelsea drew 1-1 with Bolton. Cheers to Man U !!! Hahah.. last year when they won, Mum did not allow me to watch them celebrate. Thank God this year that I can finally see them lifting the cup. Haha..Really happy that they won... next stop.. CHAMPS LEAGUE AT MOSCOW. Let's hope they beat Chelsea there ! Haha...

Anyway.. I'm still missing her... Haha.. Xin Wei showed me a clip of her and Rachael and Sam at the airport before they left. I realised I did not say much to her before she went in that day. Haiz. Miss my buddy already. Let's hope this one year passes faster than I think... Haha...

Yi Hao showed me a song by Michael Jackson, and I'm emoing after listening to it.. Haiz...

Will change the song of my blog to that song tmr...

Ok, Sweet dreams everyone..

2008-05-10T18:14:00.003+08:00

Hey...

Sent Jamie off at the airport today. She went to Vegas today, and will be studying there for a year. Quite sad this morning when she left. She cried a bit too. I'm going to miss her. In fact I'm missing her already. Its pretty sad when one of your good buddies go overseas to study, even if its for a year. But I should be happy that she's going there to finish her final year of uni education. Oh well... Just pray for her and hope she'll have fun there...

Actually had a lot to say about the past few days, but not in the mood to say now though...

Blog later bah...

2008-05-07T01:20:00.003+08:00

Hey.

Saw this small part in one of Anna's blog entries just now, and it kind of sounds like me... Haha..

"A person may be so perfect in every way in your eyes, for instance, the guy who’s taller than you by a head, suave, caring, generous, gentlemen, loving … (whatever) or, the girl who’s cute, nurturing, charming, so pretty and pretty and pretty, slim, … (whatever), someone whom you think is your dream partner, but that doesn’t mean he/she is flawless. Am I right to say? (Don’t throw me that “Nobody is perfect” liner.)

Or how about this, this ordinary looking girl/guy, messy hair, sloppy look, bad taste, bad breath, tardy, sarcastic, lamer of lamers, … does it also mean he/she is not the right person that you are looking for? Does it mean he/she is condemned to be single for life? Maybe there’s a different side of the person that you are looking at? Or rather, maybe the way you are feeling for this person now is not the true feeling …. There’s something still hidden which you have yet to discover …"

Of course, I'm refering myself to the second paragraph la. Haha... but still, its a question that me and Chew have always felt debatable, whereby girls tend to think the perfect guy is the best kind of guy in the world, and yet most of the time, guys like me and him, who are far from perfect ( sorry Chew, but you're no different from me.. haha.. ) are constantly overlooked and in some situations (this is damn true cause it happens to me all the time, and I think Chew suffers from it too ), are often ignored or "pushed aside" by the female friend or friends when the perfect guy is around.

Most of the time, although they do not know, but while these girls paint such a nice picture of the perfect guy, we, the guys who are simply ordinary and lame, constantly see the bad points of these perfect guys. Haha, I often discuss this issue with Chew, and we always agree that sometimes, girls, when in love, are simply blinded, and refuse to see or acknowledge that the guy has bad points or the bad points are serious, because they only think of the good points the guy possess. The sad part is when, we, the ordinary and lame guys, possess the same bad points, we constantly get "said" by others for it, and our good points just never seem to be enough to cover the bad points. Haha..

Friends who read this.. think about it, and see if what I've said is true ya ?

Haha...

Btw.. Jinglin and Sihui intro-ed me this song by 伍家辉 called 无家可回. Its the first song on my music player now... I'm pretty hooked on it, probably because it gives me good vibes when listening to it...

Hope you guys enjoy the song !

2008-05-05T08:19:00.009+08:00

Hey. Sorry for not blogging for such a long time.

Anyway, Man U won West Ham 4-1, and Ronaldo managed to score 2 goals to bring his total goal tally to 40 in all competitions this season ! Haha...

I watched Iron Man on Saturday afternoon with Ming Hui and Aaron. Its freaking nice! I think the actor really acted his part very well, displaying some of the significant traits that the main hero Tony Stark exhibits in the comic itself. Haha. The action scenes aren't a lot as well, but the gadgets and suit freaking cool, and the technology shown in the movie is super out of this world ! Haha... Overall, I think its a very nice "male" movie, cause I think not all girls will like this movie, but most guys definately will. 4 out of 5 stars !

After the movie, we went to walk around town, before heading back to Tampines to get Ming's car, and drive down to Aston's in Bedok for dinner. Haha... Aston's seriously thrash Botah Jones ! I think the food is cheaper, nicer, and the side dishes are more appealing. Haha.

After dinner, we went back to Ming hse to "drink-up". Haha.... its been a really long time since I last hanged out with the two of them at Ming or Aaron's hse. Ming's actually improving a lot on the piano, and we kind of sang some Chinese songs, with Ming playing the piano and Ren playing the guitar. I think the only bad part of this "jamming" session was my voice. Haha.. Simply horrendous. Haha.. Anyway, I miss those days when it used to be just the four of us with Kevyn, or occasionally with Emmanuel and Yang Hui. Those were seriously the happiest days of my life other then the 3 yrs with her. Still, I really miss those days with them. Back then, we never had problems with each other.

I guess its because we kind of made time for each other always, despite the fact that Ren has lots of friends, while Ming has and still is with his 5 yr plus gf..haiz. Nowdays, the friends that I have around me just seems so busy all the time. I guess just like what Chew, Tong and Hao said, its different phases of life, and at different phases of life, everyone changes. Guess I'm just being childish, always thinking of the past. Should grow up soon, and move on with my own life. Nothing seems to matter anymore these days...

Haiz... and I'm feeling pissed ! Think only Yi Hao knows why I'm pissed, and it has to do with MSN and SMS. Just so pissed !

2008-05-01T17:19:00.003+08:00

Hey !

Sorry for not blogging for such a long time.. Haha.. a lot of things happened this few days, so I was pretty busy to blog.

Anyway, firstly, Man U won Barcelona 1-0 ! Woohoo ! We're in the Champs League Final ! I can't believe it ! After watching soccer for so long, and always pinning for Man U to be in the Finals but never getting to see them in it, I finally get one of my wishes ! Haha... The sad thing is Chelsea is also in the Finals, beating Liverpool 3-2 in extra time yesterday. Oh well, if Man U are truly worthy to be the Champions of Europe, then they must beat all teams regardless which team it is. Simply can't wait !

Anyway, went clubbing last night with Yihao, Bryan, and Jamie and her classmates as a farewell party for Jamie and her other classmates who will be going Vegas to study. It was a pretty wild night, and although I did not get to really dance to the nice songs due to the long re-entry queueing, but I still enjoyed myself, and I think Jamie enjoyed herself even more. Haha... Think she was pretty surprised to see Yihao, Bryan and I due to the surprise too. Glad it worked though. Its nice when a surprise actually surprises the person intended. I guess the feeling is pretty new to me, since the person that I always tried to surprise never felt surprised or super happy everytime I tried...Haiz.

Haha.. anyway I'm uploading this new song to my playlist. I fell in love with this song last year during October on that fateful day, when it happened... This song really brings back memories, and its really a miracle that I managed to find this song, since its a super old song, and I only heard it a few times on radio since that day... Btw the song's called 爱你恨自己 by Melody...

Anyway hope you guys like the song...

2008-04-26T22:46:00.002+08:00

So super sian.

Man U drew with Barca 0-0 in midweek, then lost 2-1 to Chelsea. Haiz...

Super sad.

Its been a really bad week too.

The only silver lining of the week must be Yi Hao's birthday celebration yesterday, although a group of friends who were supposed to come could not come because of exams. Still, I enjoyed the outing, and I hope Yi Hao enjoys it too. Its really nice of Jamie to put in the effort to make things nicer for his birthday, and Sihui for buying the gifts, for Zhen to turn up even though her exams are near and she's pretty stressed out by SIM's "surprises", for Bryan to turn up and even volunteer to drive us to Cine and play pool with us even though he had army commitments the next day too, and also Xin Wei and Swing for turning up to make things a little more lively on his birthday. Everyone has commitments, but its really nice to see some effort from friends to make things happen.

Jamie's going off soon, and it feels like I'll really miss her company a lot. I'm not sure why too. Probably because she makes me feel that she's that kind of friend who's always there, and makes the extra effort to meet up, despite her busy schedule. It's sad she won't be around for my Bday though...

Seriously, like what Tong said, maybe this year its time for me to make a statement, or make a point. Not really looking forward to my birthday this year either...just feel like spending this year's alone somewhere enjoying or relaxing....

Army life is coming to an end soon. Haiz. Time to grow up ! My life is seriously messed up now, and its not even because of army, so I can only hope God can give a miracle to the family, especially to my mom. Btw its really dumb to put all the blame on army, cause in my situation, which I truly believe no one understands, is that army is not screwing my life like everyone else but rather giving me the break of my life cause the next phase is going to be a long phase. Meanwhile, I guess I'll put my dreams aside and fight to keep my family alive... Haha.. sounds so drama...

Ok... I'll prob go rest soon.... Tomorrow's another duty day. Sian.

Blog soon.

Bye.

2008-04-24T10:36:00.003+08:00

Hey.

Man U drew 0-0 with Barcelona at Nou Camp.

Ronaldo missed an early penalty.

Disappointing, just disappointing.

I think my mood is probably like the sky right now, disappointed black, if there is such a colour.

Sian.

2008-04-22T00:27:00.001+08:00

Three words to describe everything that I feel, think, see, hear, and have gone thru, and basically sums up my life as it is :

SO FREAKING SIAN.......haiz.

2008-04-20T17:08:00.006+08:00

Hey.

Chatted with Zhen online just now. Don't really like what I told her about myself, but I don't know why I can say it with such ease everytime. I guess I got to stop thinking this way. Even Zhen said the same thing. Haha..

Man U drew with Blackburn last night with a 1-1 scoreline. I think Man U were seriously damn lucky, even though I'm a Man U fan, cause I felt they played like shit yesterday, except for that few moments of brilliance. Think Tevez played well, as usual, while the rest underperformed. Rooney got a bit over his head yesterday and blew his top a few times, including a very ugly tackle on a Blackburn player. Seriously if the referee was another person, I believe Rooney would have been sent off, and there could have been a lot of penalties in that match which I believe was over-violent. Seriously looked more like a scuffle then a soccer match.

Anyway, its Sunday, and here I am, spending my precious weekend doing duty.. Haha.. sianz.. btw Jinglin managed to get a job ! Haha.. finally.. Still unsure about her job scope, but I'll probably ask her more if I see her online tonight.. Haha....

Ok, got to go draw dinner le... Blog later den...

See ya !!

2008-04-19T15:18:00.002+08:00

Hey !

Sorry I haven't been blogging for the past few days. Been really sick these few days, with fever, flu and cough. Haha.. Just recovered today haha..

Anyway went out with Ming and Aaron yesterday to watch Forbidden Kingdom in the afternoon. Haha..So much for all the hype for this show. The action scenes are seriously good, and the partnership plus fights between Jet Li and Jackie Chan are really really exciting to watch, but the story line is super flat, and the worse part of the show is that they speak in English, which doesn't sound very right for a martial arts movie. Haha... Overall, I think this show probably only deserves 3 out of 5 stars, and while 2 are for the fight scenes, I got to give one more just for the humour factor that both Jet Li and Jackie Chan brings to this show, with Jackie's wierd antics, and Jet's sudden humour in some scenes. Haha...

SiHui also managed to find the link on crunchyroll.com for this new Jap movie called "Check It Out, Yo !". We were supposed to watch this movie instead of "Definately, Maybe", but I think after watching the Jap movie, its hard to choose between these 2. "Check It Out, Yo" is about a bunch of guys and a girl trying to form a rap band to perform, and all the funny stuff they go through to form that band. Its pretty nice to watch, and certain parts of the show can be very funny. The actors in the show also put up a good act, and the music in the show is pretty catchy too. Haha.. However, I can't say that it might be good for most people, because not everyone likes such shows, especially with the storyline being so simple. However, if you have time for one movie, or you feel bored with life, then like the movie title, just "Check it out, yo !", in the cinemas or on cruchyroll. Haha..

Going out to do a mini-celebration for YiHao for his Birthday next week. Haha.. Got to go soon..

Btw... During the period of time when I was sick, I just want to thank those friends that showed some concern to me. Really means a lot. Seriously. Although it was just 3 days. Its just that, whenever I'm sick, I think a lot... too much in fact... but anyway that's not the point right ? Haha...

Ok Blog ltr !

Btw enjoy the song called "Dreaming with A Broken Heart" by John Mayer !

2008-04-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

Hey...

Went out today with Sihui to find Yihao's present. Walked around the whole of town, but cant find the present which he wants. Oh well, I'll prob go out with Yi Hao on Sat to buy his present. Haha.. Anyway watched "Definately, Maybe" today. It's quite a nice movie. I think I enjoyed the movie a lot. Haha.. Anyway while finding Yi hao's present, Si Hui saw this yellow t-shirt which she thought would look nice on Yi Hao, but I thought was damn gay. Haha.. I'll show Yi hao the shirt on Sat to see his reaction haha..

Sihui got herself a Polo Ralph bag today ! Think she's pretty happy with the bag cause she manage to buy it at a mmuch cheaper price, although I thought the bag's colour was too striking. Haha.. Oh ya ! Met weiting before the movie at her work place too. Haha.. she really looks like a Malay from far, but close up I think she looks more like Eunice Olsen, the mini version. Haha.... Weiting joined us for the shopping of bag too.. Haha..

Feeling sick now.. In fact.. very sick... nose is really really drippy, and the dry cough is seriously getting on my nerves.. and tmr still gt camp.. Haiz... Sunday got duty too... Really damn sian...

Think I going to rest le.. Otherwise I'm going to feel like cutting off my nose.. Haha..

Ok take care. See ya !!!